Olivia was a real example of beauty,thou it's been years since I last saw her but my most treasured moment with her has never been forgotten. Olivia is probably five years I guess. She's beautiful, talented, funny, brave and wise. She really look like her dad. She has blue eyes,dimples like Alison. The last time I set my eyes on her was when she was just three. I don't even know if I can recognized her or if she can recognized me, the little time I had with her was irreplaceable. I told her everything about the trip on the train,how I lost my best friend and a lot of people . Since then it seems she's turned to a ghost. Alison doesn't let her come close to me. He said he wants me to get healed but everytime he tells me that,I read lies in his lips and it breaks me to know what he's doing. Alison Is a busy guy of course,hes too busy to even see me. Apart from Olivia ,I haven't set my eyes on Alison for a long time. He's been ghosting me, going out early and coming back so late at night. He doesn't sleep in the same room with me,he said he's afraid of hurting me and thinks it's perfect for me to stay alone that why I said life hasn't been so perfect for me but it's no one fault but the fault of Sammy bulb who tried to rendered me useless. If I haven't jumped out of that train,I probably been dead and even if I did that years ago,life has been to harsh on me and I also feel like I've made a mistake by doing the right thing.
I was a prisoner in my husband house, always in my room or in the dinning room alone. The doctor told me that the chance of me walking again is rear that my spinal cord got so much affected. But everything seems strange even if I want to believe it. My legs feel heavy than before, sometimes I feel my blood boiling inside my legs but that's not how it was before,I was almost getting to walk three years ago but all of a sudden, everything changed, everything in my life changed.
I was sitting in the guest room watching one of my favorite TV show ridiculousness when Olivia in. At first it felt so strange to me, I felt...
She' has grown really well. She stood froze at her spot looking at me. It's been way long and we were totally strangers to each other. Tears rolled down her eyes uncontrollable. She was shivering at her spot. I wished I could run and hug her, wished I wouldn't let her off my site again, wished I could be with her forever but all those thought seems unobtainable.
Mom?.....