Its still hard to believe that Alison raised his hands on his daughter face. What probably did she did wrong, she didn't say anything but i said and instead he punished her for my mistake. I don't want it that way,I want to be punished for her and mine mistake. I couldn't stop the tears that roll down her eyes after that. I don't really know what's Alison problem,why he is behaving like a whore and not like a dad. I feel disappointed at him,he was truely behaving like the devil Olivia called him. It felt weird that Olivia only get to see the worst side of her dad and not the best side. She knows him than i do and i think she's been sneaking up on him.
I lay on my bed, after all my voice has always been taken for granted in Alison house,he makes me feel like a lost guest that has turned to a slave. I didn't only feel like a slave because of being indoor but from being restricted from seeing my Daughter. One big family came crushing down. There is always an obstacle to everything but what should be your main objective is to fight those obstacle out and gain those freedom. My first obstacle is my legs. I feel useless without them infact,im useless.
My door cracked open and Alison walked in with a robe round his body. Those blue beautiful eyes doesn't seems blue because the wickedness in his heart reflect in his eyes.
"Why do you tell her I was dead?
He seems to not get bothered by what I was saying but I never liked his presence around me, Anytime he shows up in my room,he force me into having sex with him. If he is actually told me that he doesn't want to sleep with me so that I won't get hurt,then won't sex hurt me more?
"Your dying Sarah can't you see it,you don't look fresh like doing our wedding. You've been on that wheels since our wedding and your getting old"
Did Alison just said this or was he just acting?
Remember when he found me in the desert and the way he run and hug me? the way he almost beat Sammy bulb for my sake? Was all those acting or real?
"Where's Olivia,give me my daughter,if you don't need i ànd her again,we will leave and find someplace else"
He walked close to me sitting on my bed with his hand in my legs. Those felt disgusting. I don't love him anymore,I hate him more when he hit my daughter. And i will have nothing to do with him again.
"Olivia? She's probably dead or about to die"
"What...?
Those words kept ringing on my head. Is he saying the truth? After how he laid his hand on her,I knew he could do anything, anything aweful. Thinking of aweful,the dream i had years ago could it be it was telling me this?,the dream about Alison being the killer but Sammy bulb was, Alison was in my dream, could it be God was warning me about marrying the wrong person? Is love still blind? or love this time is complicated?
"I won't bury her without your concept. The burial is tomorrow and I will take you later to say final goodbye to her"
He stood up walking out of my room living my dreams destroy and my heart shattered to pieces. Olivias dead....my baby.....
I have failed because I feel useless and used. I wouldn't believe now. Until I know the truth and how is that going to happen without a plan? One way or the other I need to get out of this hell,far from the demon and safe in another place maybe I and Olivia could board a train to my dad's house.