Chapter Five: Will Always Be The Same
Alpha Loggman and Jack now reached the front of the werewolf's office. Alpha Loggman angrily burst open the large doors of his office chambers, storming inside. He walked around the place trying to hold back his already obvious anger.
Jack, whose mouth was completely sealed and body cautious enough not to go close to this enraged Alpha, stood, waiting for his father's words and instructions. He dared not sit down when his father hadn't said so.
His father yelled out in rage, as his hands scattered his desk, tossing things that were on it on the floor.
"Where's that whiskey?" His father said going underneath to check for it.
Jack was relieved there that it wasn't the whiskey he had drank but the white champagne. His father would have been more enraged to find out that his preserved whiskey was now an empty bottle lying under his desk, especially now when he needed it the most.
Alpha Loggman poured the drink into a short glass and poured ice into it. He gulped it but it didn't seem to have a tad effect on him. It didn't help in any little way. He threw the glass at the wall, making Jack look away from this as it shattered.
With one hand on his waist and the other beckoning him to the chair, his father finally told him, "Sit."
With fear in Jack, that his father may go full wolf on him, he carefully and slowly sat. He gave a glance at the floor that had now been cleared up, after letting out a sigh of relief, he then focused back on his boiling in rage father.
His father was quiet for a while, trying to mellow himself.
His voice was now a bit better, but still showed anger as he spoke, "What did I say to you when you told me you wanted to get married to that Lyya girl?" He answered himself quickly, not wanting a reply "Go be happy."
He now sounded a little hurt, but his anger outweighed the emotional voice.
"I was starting to think maybe this boy had finally become a man. A serious one. One that would finally settle down and take this one lady seriously. But no. You just had to be you. When you told me this, I didn't care. I didn't care about her background or whatever. I thought it was real love, but you just fooled us all."
Jack felt angry there. He of course tried not to show it, stifling his angry expression to give a straight face. He was upset that everyone saw him as a joke, and saw him as someone who lied about loving Lyya. He did love her.
His father who was sitting down now with a compelled calmed voice, asked the sad-angry man at his front, "Where were you last night?"
This question gave way for a shocking wave to pass through Jack's body, as he was caught off guard by it. He felt surprised and also nervous. It reflected so much on him as he felt so tensed up inside by the question asked.
In a lowered tune, the man who didn't wish to speak, but had to, answered, "A-a-a local bar."
He stuttered as he attempted to make it sound less horrible than it already was, but failed.
"Doing what exactly?" The Alpha inquired making Jack confused with why he asked.
He floundered, "Just...um, meeting with friends."
"What friends?" He asked rhetorically. "So you can breed more werewolves?! I don't forbid you making me a grandfather, but I beg you make me a proud one."
"Have you already forgotten why your wedding was called off in the first place?"
No, he hadn't. It stayed stuck in his head ever since, haunting him like some prey. Even his nights in pubs couldn't help him forget why he had lost the chance to finally be with the love of his life. That bewitching fair lady he had met at the meeting, just had to ruin everything just a day before his wedding.
"I don't blame Lady Lyya for refusing to be with such an uncommitted fellow like you. You know, you remind me of me back then, always annoying my parents, but that me changed. I thought you too had changed, but I thought wrong. It's not entirely your fault though. You just happened to turn out to be the exact replicate of your birth mother."
These words got Jack almost standing up in fury to retort. His eyes were now red and his fists were clenched, trying his best not to flood out his strong emotion.
That was what his father did most times, call his mother a whore and likened him to someone who was similar to that. That was the word he hated hearing someone call his birth mother, and also, the thing he didn't like about his father; his insulting attitude.
His father who knew saying that was capable of breaking Jack (hearing those things about his mother) did it purposefully to get on his nerves. Jack didn't respond. He never did, although he couldn't help display the inward anger he felt on his face and behaviour.
There were other times he would even say Jack wasn't his son, that he was the child of one of his mother's customers, and that he was a bastard child.
All these insults Jack constantly heard almost every day, made him feel sad. What he thought could cheer him up were bottles of hard drinks and of course, the ladies, so, he now always found himself living in that lifestyle. Before now, what cheered him up, or who rather, was the beautiful Lyya who he had his heart running after.
She was quite different from the others and was always in his heart. In fact, she was the one who had made him realize that he even had a heart after all. A heart to love. But this heart could only love her.
Just remembering her name, which he always did, made him feel so much better about himself.
Well, this was all before she had said this to him, "I was wrong about you after all." She threw the costly ring away. "You can never change."
The day she said that to him, this young man was shattered in shreds, and those words almost made it feel as if it was his father who had spoken them since they sounded alike.
Alpha Loggman continued his speech, "When everyone had heard Lady Lyya's reason for calling off the wedding, no one was actually surprised. What we heard was that you had cheated on her with another female who now claimed to carry your child. We were all team Lyya for leaving because she couldn't get married to such a man…"
The words formed deep cuts in Jack's heart as he spoke, but his father wasn't lying. At least, not entirely.
"We all thought it was the usual bad boy behaviour, playing around with women," Now raising his voice higher "But what wasn't mentioned was that that woman was the daughter of the known Alpha Barrington!"
Shifting away as his father thumped his fists on the desk, Jack tried to comport himself taking down a heavy gulp.
Alpha Loggman now strangely kept quiet after this. He brought out a pen from inside his drawer, and found a paper, still with an angry look on his face, he panted as he wrote something down.
Jack looked away, battling his own rioting feelings. He felt angry, sad, disappointed, confused...
And out of all these things that he felt that moment, the number one was that he felt confused. With everything and with himself.
No one was actually even sure if what the woman claimed was true. Surprisingly, even Jack. He wasn't sure if it was true, but what he was sure of was that he didn't love this Clarrissa woman.
Whatever thing they might have had in the past was nothing more than a fling, and Jack was just being his usual self.
He knew he had been told of Clarrissa's father's name, but didn't quite know the Alpha had so much influence. He always thought his father was Alpha of all, though he knew there were other Alphas, but what he didn't know was that this man had such power and influence.
His father was still scribbling something down on the paper, making Jack feel a little suspense and anxious.
After some minutes of scribbling, his father's hands were now stretched out at him, offering him the paper.
"Read." His father said.
Jack felt a little scared to do so, because, the first time someone had told him today to do that same thing, led to him giving a dire reaction, as it was bad news.
He couldn't toss the paper at the angry Alpha that sat in front of him like he would usually do if it were to be someone else. He now went ahead to read the written letter as he gulped down nervously.
Jack didn't read on as he immediately set his eyes on the heading of this letter.
Jack Loggman, Son Of Alpha
Loggman, Weds Clarrissa Barrington,
Daughter Of Alpha Barrington.
"This is unacceptable father!" Not caring anymore, he finally let out an angry bellow as he forcefully stood up from his seat, making the chair fall on the ground as he had now risen to the Alpha.