The sunlight is coming in through the blinds and I wake up a little early before my alarm goes off. Greg messages me saying he'll see me in 40 minutes to take me to work. After I read his text, my face turned bright red remembering everything that happened last night. A smile appears on my face and I can't get rid of it but let's be honest I really don't want to get rid of it. Making some toast for breakfast I see Annmera and wish her a good morning. She smiles at me and replies good morning to you too.
A few minutes go by until she says "Hey Becca, did something good happen?" Responding back to her I say "Yeah it did" "Umm well talk… did you make up with Logan or is it something else?" "It's something else but I need to talk to Logan. It's been too long and I'm over it!" Annmera continues saying " Sis did you want to talk to him today? I mean it's Friday, so we can eat together and talk if you would like" I just nod my head smiling at her, and say " Yeah I need to get this over with as soon as possible" "Becca is y'all's friendship okay? Is there anything I can do to help?" Looking at my sis I just shake my head no and we drop the subject. Annmera leaves the kitchen to put her shoes on.
While in the kitchen I hear the bell ring and I'm hoping it's Greg but I know Zac is picking my sister up today too. I hear Annmera say " Umm morning Greg, what brings you here?" I got excited when I heard his name I came up from behind Annmera and said "Oh he is here for me, I asked him to drop me off at work today and I'll get Logan to bring me home cause I'll talk to him today" Greg is giving a concerned look. It's so cute, I squeezed his hand letting him know everything would be okay, and he relaxed squeezing my hand.
We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. Greg opened the jeep door for me to get in and we drove off. As we pulled into my job's parking lot Greg made a face like he didn't want me to leave. I unbuckle my seatbelt and have the door open but I turn around real quick and kiss him on the cheek thanking him for the ride. Knowing my face is turning red and head into the building. Clocking in I see Logan, and decide to walk toward him to talk before we get started on work. Turning his head he sees me and decides to head in my direction too.
When we reach each other we open our mouths at the same time to speak "Becca" and "Logan". We start laughing and he says "Ladies first" I nod my head and say " Can you drop me off at my house tonight? Annmera is gonna cook dinner so you can eat with us like you used too and afterwards we can talk about some things" He looks kinda nervous but nods in agreement. We part ways heading to our departments.
Today has been incredibly slow but now it's time to clock out. After I clock out I find Logan waiting at the front doors waiting for me. We walk out heading to his vehicle while talking about our day. Pulling out of the parking lot we ask each other how they have been this last month and listen to our car jams. As we are pulling into the driveway one of our jams comes on "You Make Me by ANTH" so we decide to jam out then head in. Walking through the front door I yell "Annmera I'm home and Logan's here" She yells from the kitchen "Okay can I get some help then since y'all are here". We go into the kitchen to help Annmera. She has me cutting up onions, cucumbers, peppers, and lettuce for salad. While Logan is washing the dishes she used when she was making fettuccine and garlic bread.
When we were all finished it was time to make our plates. Digging into this delicious food, I start looking around the table and it feels like ole times. Logan and Annmera are bickering about anime and who has better taste. Laughing out loud they both turn and say "What are you laughing at?" I smile saying "Y'all obviously. It feels great hanging out together again" They look at each other than me and nod saying "Yeah it does". After we finish eating Annmera nods her head at me which is a sign to go talk to Logan while she cleans the kitchen and puts the leftovers away.
Looking at Logan I say "Can we talk in the living room for a second?" He nods, then heads in that direction. Following behind him, I turn and see Annmera giving me a thumbs up to wish me good luck. When we reach the living room he sits in the chair while I sit on the couch. Looking at him I smile saying " It's been a while but I think we need to talk about things now. We said some things we shouldn't have said to each other and did some things we shouldn't have. I want to apologize first for letting my emotions out of hand" "No Becca it was all my fault and I said things I really shouldn't have and if I did anything else I'm sorry" "Logan it's okay and you did do something else when I dropped you off at your house but we aren't going to talk about it. I just want our friendship to go back to how it was. I really missed hanging out with you"
He looks at me kinda confused saying "I did something else to you? Was it like super bad? I didn't hit you or anything like that right??" "No oh no.. it wasn't anything bad like that. You just um mistook me for Annmera and k-kkk-ki-kissed me" His eyes go wide and a stunned look comes across his face as he tries to speak "I-I-I'm s-s-sorry. Becca I'm so sorry I did that to you. I don't even know what to say other than sorry. I said so many hurtful things and then did that. I really am a selfish jerk of a friend". I tell him "It's fine. Let's forget all that happened after we apologized and go back to being just friends. I want our friendship back even if you are a selfish jerk of a friend (laughing while I say that) but 20-plus years of friendship is something I don't want to lose". He agreed and we didn't bring it back up.
I felt a lot better after letting everything out and then Logan had to open his mouth saying "Becca can I say something honestly though… when we weren't together I missed you a lot more than I thought. I went to talk to you one night when I saw you at Riley's Tavern but Greg showed up. Seeing you with him really aggravated me for some reason and when he pulled you into his arms I wanted to rip y'all apart. Afterward, he talked to me and told me he'd take you away from me if I didn't man up. I don't know what these feelings are but I'd like to figure it out if that's okay". My mouth fell open in shock. As soon as I got my thoughts together to speak, Annmera walked in and asked if our friendship was okay and we nodded cause that was true but what he just said wasn't solved.
After we finished hanging out, I walked Logan out and told him " Look Logan about what you said earlier… I think … I think we should just stay friends and only friends. You liked my sister for years, dated I don't know how many women, and now you're saying you may like me. You need to get yourself figured out before you think about dating or liking someone with everything you just put everyone through. Besides I..I. I'm seeing someone, it's not official but we both like each other and I want to go somewhere with him. He doesn't complicate things and I feel at home with him, he makes me feel safe when I'm in his arms, he makes me laugh, listens to me, and gives advice when I need it, and has seen me for who I was when no one else could, he wants me to be happy even if it's not with him and says he'll be my friend and try to support me if I choose someone else but it would be after some time. He's open and honest about how he feels towards me and I want to know him more. So I'm sorry but you need to get rid of whatever emotions you felt".
He looked heartbroken by everything I said but he made a sad kinda smile saying "You right Becca. I'm sorry again. Let's just be friends and stay that way". After all that he got into his car and left.