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I heard a loud bang, it was pitch black in the dead of night. I squint to the silhouette of Charlie, and Macie rising up from beds groaning. Macie who is in the middle bed stretches and turns on the battery powered lamp next to her. With her perfect pale white legs she stands up rubbing her eyes.
"I hate you! Augh!" Echoes throughout the house.
It sounded like Camy yelling. Another 'bang' comes after, then a shriek.
"I don't wanna be here either! Trust me, if I had a choice I'd leave you and your stupid face!" Another voice yells back.
That time it sounded like Lyra. Camy and Lyra are sisters, 9 and 10. Them being in the younger few, they sleep in the room in front of ours. Charlie and Macie race out of bed into they're room practically leaving tire marks behind them. By the time I stand up on my feet they've busted the door down.
"What's going on, what the hell!" Macie shrieks. As I make my way out the door frame in the narrow hall. May comes flying down the stairs and cuts in front of me. Still half asleep I rub my eyes, attempting to wake myself up.
Charlie rushes to May, gripping her shirt the minute she makes it into the room. I peek in between them, revealing the room in a mess. Eve in the corner crying while Macie's pulling Camy off of Lyra., and tear's streaming down their faces. Books scattered the floor, and their lamp shade all messed up. My heart pounds faster, and my throat clogs up at the sight. May yells at the girls to let go of each other while Charlie and me watch from the door.
I feel like throwing up and my hands get all sweaty. I felt Charlie's view direct to me, I stared at her back wide eyed and shaking. She looks at me like I'm crazy. When we look back, Lyra's being dragged panting on one bed as Camy's crying in May's arm on the farthest bed.
Charlie rushes over to Eve and takes her by the hand and leads her to our room. When they passed I could see Eve shivering almost like the look in her eyes that day at the cliff never happened. Must've been nostalgia that came back to haunt her, even now, and I couldn't relate more.
"What the hell happened here?" Macie asks, sitting next to Lyra.
Camy cuts in, "I hate her, I want her to go away. I never wanna see her again!" Her face all puffy and red, she digs her head in May's arms once more.
"She had another dream. From…you know…when it happened…" Lyra explains, my heart stops.
I felt my hands quivering, and my legs were ready to run. "She's blaming me for what happened. As always. She's not the only one who feels like this you know…" Lyra continued.
Camy cut her off again looking down at her hands, "I don't wanna be her, I don't wanna be here, this can't be real. It can't. I wanna go back, mommy, daddy. I want them back!"
Her voice breaks in every which way. Lyra begins to cry along with her younger sister. I can feel their aura circulating in this room, so dark, so broken, it's suffocating. Wiping her tears Lyra looks up at me. Giving me a twisted concerned face. Macie being confused also looks up at me.
"Ora, are you okay?" May questions, I, just as confused, looked down to my hands. There lay drops on my palms.
Then came more, and more, one after the other, all falling from my chin. Wiping them away more kept coming. My eye's flooding and flowing like rivers. I can't breathe. Without a word I felt my feet start moving, leading me out of the room past the hallway. Only catching small glances from Charlie and Eve from the other room. Next thing I knew I was running out the house and onto the empty sidewalks barefoot.
I ran to the messed up stop sign, crossing the main street and along the rails. I can't feel my legs getting tired, I can't feel anything but the tears. It burns, it burns my already burned out heart. Why? Why was I running? Why was I crying?
I hop over the rail, climbing up the rocks, running past trees and trees until I could hear the waving ocean calling out to me. I see the last pine tree, the second I reach it I fall to my knees onto the rocks, and I sob. Wiping tears after tears they kept flowing. Trying to silence them, they keep coming. And by the time my tears have dried I have realized why I was crying in the first place, why that sight shook me, why I felt so burned out.
Because I understood why Camy was so mad, why she couldn't help but blame someone, anyone for her loss. I understood why Lyra felt so hopeless she wanted to run and leave everyone she loves. I understood why Eve felt scared seeing them fight and getting pulled off each other.
Because I understand it's hard to lose someone, for them to be there one day and gone the next. I understand that it's hard to lose a life. Especially when it's yours.