It opened...
My heartbeat started rising more and more with each passing second
He threw those flowers, that were in his hands, and now,
He's standing there with a gun in his blood-dripping hand, looking right into my eyes with nothing but anger and emptiness in his eyes
He's drunk again...
I grip that lamp tightly
"Heinrey please, please leave me alone!"
I cowered and backed away in fear
"Say it again"
He said in a deep husky voice
"Heinrey pleas-"
He screamed, "Stop there!" and I stopped
"Say it again! Say my name with this fearful voice of yours, show me that you're scared of me!"
He ordered me
Is he out of his fucking mind?
"Don't order me like this, I'm not your slave and now get out of here!"
I shouted as I raised my hand in the air to throw the lamp on him
But I...
I stopped, I don't know why I don't want to hurt him even though I hate him so much.
I just can't hurt anybody physically
I just can't-
"Do it!"
He said while holding my hand
"Do it Sylvie!, just kill me already"
He said in a shaky voice
when his mood suddenly changed from anger to sadness
Is he seriously bipolar or something?...
I didn't say or do anything and threw that lamp away
"Just kill me already, it's better than dying every day for you"
He said when his voice became a little more shaky and heavy
I can't help but feel bad for him at that moment
I know he's wrong,
all the things that he did to me were awful,
he's a very bad person and I don't trust him at all but still, I'm a very emotional person so I can't just...ignore someone who's on the verge of crying miserably in front of my very own eyes
"Are you okay?"
I asked him
"I'm not!"
He said I saw some tears falling down his cheeks
He looked down while not making eye contact with me
Probably because doesn't want me to look at his tear-filled eyes
"Stop torturing me like that, just make me yours already"
He screamed when he suddenly grabbed me by my hand and hugged me tightly...
His hands are wrapped around me and his chin is on my shoulder
There's no space left between us but he's so heavy
I can't bear that much weight
And as expected I fell down
"I'm extremely in love with you Sylvie!
Why don't you understand my love for you?"
We both fall onto the ground
It didn't hurt much and that is not even a problem...
The problem right now is...
This position!
His whole body is on top of me
He's all over me, from head to toe.
every inch of his body is touching mine
"Please get up Heinrey, leave this house and leave me"
I said, I still feel bad for him because this is the first time that heinrey is talking to me like that but his actions are still unforgivable
I tried to move away when he suddenly grabbed my shoulders and said
"I'm sorry Sylvie, I know you're angry and upset with me as you should be but please forgive me"
He says, his eyes are filled with tears right now but I still can't accept his confession and apology at all
"Please listen Heinrey!,
you can still stop before things get out of our hands, you can still stop having feelings for me,
trust me you'll be happy if we end this now"
I said, as I calmly placed my one hand on his face while trying to calm him down.
I don't even know why he's so desperate.
like, It's only been a month since I met him.
Also, I just noticed that his whole face is burning up in fever. Or maybe because of too much alcohol but he looks seriously sick right now and his eyes are not even opening properly
"Please stay like this for a moment Sylvie"
He hugged me more tightly like a lost child.
"Sylvie, you forgot everything but I don't,
And I don't even want you to remember anything but all I want to say for now is,
we've known each other since childhood, you're my first and last love and I will never forget you"
He said while gripping both of my wrists tighter and slowly placing them on his face and feeling the warmth of my palm on his face.
Have known each other since childhood?
But I don't know anyone other than my parents and Mattie's family
But wait...
These three aren't the only people in my life, right?
But still, why am I believing him
He's drunk so he might be just saying anything that's coming out of his mouth and he's a lying manipulator so I don't need to believe his bullshit
"I don't believe you!"
I said when I realized that our lips were too close to each other
I can feel his hot heavy breaths all over my face
Heinrey suddenly inter-locked his fingers with me
And now he's intentionally pressing his body against mine
Heinrey knows exactly what he's doing
because I can feel his 'cock' getting hard against my body right now
This is so humiliating!
"I just want you to understand that you are only mine, why don't you understand me? why?!"
He screamed as he kept on rubbing his body on me
And slowly coming even closer for a kiss
"Heinrey you're getting out of control, please leave me, I'm not yours! just leave!"
I said while pushing him away
"So you want me to be rough on you huh?
You're showing me this little attitude of yours when I apologized?"
He groaned in anger
"Mmph S-stop!"
"Say sorry!
apologize to me for not respecting my feelings!"
He screamed while tearing up my t-shirt in anger
His emotions changed from sadness to pure anger and lust in no time
Is he a fucking psychopath?
He was acting like a lost kitten just a few moments ago and now he's acting like a wild beast?!
I was so wrong for feeling some sympathy for him
Also, I was wearing very small shorts, more like underwear, and a T-shirt...
and now he ripped that T-shirt off
All I have on me now are my undergarments
This is the most disgusting thing ever
He tried to kiss me but I just kept on pushing him away
He angrily grabbed my hands and stared at me
"Oh, Sylvie my love"
He laughed
I feel disgusted by the way he's saying my name and I'm terrified by the things he's doing to me
This is so wrong.
but I know I can't do anything against him
Even after all this because of the amount of power he holds in this city
Right now, he's just looking at my half-naked body and smiling.
Hey placed his hand on my belly and slowly started sweeping it near my chest
"STOP THIS"
I cried out loud
"You look perfectly sexy when you cry like this, my babe"
He says in a lustful devious voice
"Leave me heinrey, I'm begging you"
I'm still trying my best to push him away...
"Okay I will but tell me you're mine before I do something worse than this"
He said and I know exactly what he's going to do and I don't want to get humiliated by him anymore
so I did exactly what he said
"I'm yours"
I said, my voice is just empty and emotionless.
I don't feel anything while saying this.
He gently started kissing me and ran his hands all over my body
"You'll always be mine!"
He laughs and finally gets up to leave...
I feel bad
I feel disgusted
I want this ground to swallow me up right now
He's the weirdest and the most wildest person that I've ever seen
I heard the sound of his foot slowly fading out,
He's finally gone and now I'm just lying here, crying my heart out, thinking about what my life has become because of him
I screamed and cried till I ran out of
breath and all the energy that was left in my body...
and fell asleep on the ground right there
"How long do I have to deal with this monster?"
2 days later
It's finally Monday morning, I was depressed for the last 2 days and didn't leave my house at all but then I thought to myself
Why would I be sad and resent myself for something I don't have any control over?
Why would I curse myself into feeling constant sadness and bitterness for no reason?
Was it my fault?
Definitely not!
So why would I torment myself like this?
I have to be happy and courageous today,
tomorrow and every day
I don't want to get stuck into this unnecessary sorrowness for life.
I have to be brave to live a fearless life...just like everyone else also, today is my interview, and judging by the things that are happening lately....
This might be my new beginning...who knows?