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Chapter 4 - break up

As the act continued, she surrendered in will and emotion to fully grasping the pleasure of the moment. He continued to thrust in and out, eliciting pleasure for both of them. They reveled in every aspect of the experience, gracefully transitioning from doggy style to advanced missionary. Their eyes locked, capturing the intensity of their connection, while they savored each other's moans.

Subsequently, Ruby descended to her knees, positioning herself in front of her partner, with finesse, she engulfed his firm dick, skillfully deepthroating with each intake, bringing him closer to climax. Overwhelmed by the pleasure of climax, he emitted a deep moan, exuding pure satisfaction. His release erupted onto her face and onto her breasts, as his grasp secure on her shoulder, freely allowing his essence to be expelled leaving him paralyzed the bliss.

Following their passionate encounter, they both retreated to the bathroom to cleanse themselves, before eventually settling down on the bed, alongside each other, attempting to regain their breath. After a few minutes, they dressed and bid farewell, parting ways.

She gradually distanced herself from him, gradually erasing any trace of her presence from his life. This was due to her inadequate reception of the love and understanding she desired from a partner or lover. While the sexual encounters were undeniably fulfilling, what she longed for was more than just physical intimacy. Summoning the courage, Ruby decided to end her relationship with John.

Even after the breakup, John persisted in his pursuit of reconciliation, but Ruby had reached her breaking point. She yearned to embrace the single life, seeking self-discovery, the question "who am I" and a deeper understanding of her desires, akin to constructing a superior version of herself. 

Love is a beautiful entity when it is not manipulated or one-sided.

Gradually her profound sense of desolation started to settle in, as she finally began to embrace her newfound sense of individuality following a recent heartbreak and the end of a love relationship. Soon after, a mental collapse ensued, prompting her to seek medical assistance, she found herself shuttling between the offices of the neurologist and the psychiatrist, until she eventually settled in for a monthly appointment with the psychiatrist. Prior to this arrangement, she had to endure a series of uncomfortable and physically draining blood tests and brain scans, prescribed by the psychiatrist. The incessant back-and-forth and the battery of tests and scans eventually yielded results. The psychiatrist was able to provide a proper diagnosis for her conditions: severe depression, anxiety disorder, and psychosis, particularly auditory hallucinations characterized by hearing voices in her head.

The doctor proceeded to prescribe antidepressant and antipsychotic medications, which were continuously renewed over the course of several months. However, these treatments did little to alleviate the overwhelming feelings of loneliness and emptiness that  tormented and consumed her from within. Each monthly visit to the hospital became a painful reminder of her broken state, as she waited in the reception area where the atmosphere seemed suffused with madness and insanity. She despised this feeling and yearned to break free from it. The medications neither significantly improved nor worsened her condition.