The rain massaged my ears as I couldn't get any sleep, my nightmares were becoming more intense than before, all I could do was stare at the ceiling, watching the fan spin seems to help me clear my mind. Especially about tonight .
Tonight was my send-off party, and I'd be leaving for Moldova the next day, the house would be packed with familiar and unfamiliar faces, and the thought of dealing with those critical glances puts me in a terrible mood.
It's six o'clock in the morning, and while the rain continued to fall fiercely, I got out of bed and took a shower before going downstairs to join my brothers. I could hear everyone giggling. Amy and Belle were on hand to assist with the party preparations; they are the best sisters-in-law I could have ever wished for. The twins certainly outdid themselves, I thought as I laughed softly.
It was nine o'clock in the morning, and as he knocked, a deep voice, extremely familiar and comforting to my ears, distracted me from my reading.
Are you still sleeping, Snow? Kay stated
, "I'm wide awake." I said
" Come downstairs. Okay, Belle has some ideas to run through before the party this evening.
"I'm right behind you."
As I headed downstairs the living room glowed with beautiful lights from the stairs down , it was gorgeous. When it comes to planning a party or any kind of event no one does it better than kay and Jay, letting out a smile it's wouldn't all that bad as I thought. Over at the couch was Belle looking stunning as ever as she breastfed my little nephew Raymond.
" Hey Belle" wow you looking amazing I remarked as I took my sit close to her.
" Oh , dear " Belle blushing
" Can I hold him " ?
" His so cute , oh my goodness, " I smiled
" Ray ' its your Akki hear "
" Kay has been up all night since we got here planning the parties , his so excited he wasn't been able to drink for a while, but I told him he could only have just a little ' his so excited .
We both laughed.
" Are you doing better now snow? I know you don't like talking about it , but I'm here for you hun anytime okay ?
" I'm fine " I'm doing so much better Belle Thank you "
" Huh has anyone since Zen ? Amy asked as she walked into the living room
" Hey Ak, how are you ? Amy asked worried she sat right beside me
" I'm fine, trust me I'm fine " you all need to quit worry about me "
" we have a party to plan".
We all brust out with a gently laugh. We talked for a while, enjoying some girls bonding while the men prepare for tonight. Amy is super excited about her promotion she can't keep tlaking about it ,Belle on the other hand seem to be enjoying motherhood. Everyone seems to be happy and in the right place. It was good and sad to see. I can't seem to find that right place.
" Cakes and booze has arrived" Zen yelled excitedly
" That's alot of alcohol Bumble" Akki gasped
" no it's not , kay grin. It's the perfect amount " like we said know
relax and let the bros handle this just have some fun "
" You're gonna need it later to blow up some steam , Kay looked at me funny way.
Time flew so fast, it was noon already we spent all day preparing the dishes and decorating , we could leave the meals to the guys , Jay burnt the pie he baked three times it was disaterous, lucky Amy and i intervented or we would be homeless by now. It was really stressful but everything looked perfect and beautiful. The party was in three hours time , I was exhausted I had to head upstairs and try getting some sleep, since I couldn't get any the last night.
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The music from the hall was so loud I could hear it in my room, as I dressed up for the party I could feel my nerves acting up. It's been a while since I saw most of the guest since mom burial they could be brutal with their words, my thought kept wondering if I should just stay in doors and lock myself in, but everyone worked so hard for this. Relax Akki , Relax its gonna be fine, just to put on a smiley face, uhh this was not gonna be easy.
I mustered some confidence and made my way downstairs to the party. There were a lot of recognizable faces, including my aunt Maggie. She never liked me and had a nasty habit of tossing her words around in harsh ways. Mrs. Robin, her co-conspirator, stood alongside her. She is always giving her advise on how to conduct your life, but she is unaware of her husband's affair with her younger sister. I can't help but think she got what she deserved. By my right was my spoilt, entitled cousin Rose, who had a wedding every year; now she has another husband who is eight years younger than her, husband number six, a wealthy computer guy who is four years younger than her. Damien, my high school passion, stood to my left; his blue eyes sparkled and complemented his gold hair; he was a true heartthrob. I never got an opportunity to express my feelings; I was always insecure about my appearance, and there she was Audrey attached to him like always; she bullied every chance she got in high school.,
I heard they were both in a relationship, then they broke up, and I had no idea they got back together. She was and still is a b*tch. I'm curious how they found out about the party. There they were my family, gleaming brightly; Amy and Belle looked stunning, and the boys appeared to be having a good time as they laughed heartily.
Oh, there she was walking towards me, my Aunt Maggie. Let's keep together, Ak happy thought, okay, keep calm, and smile.
"Aunty Maggie, you look fantastic, I said
"Akki, my Darling, You're there. I was wondering if you weren't trying to take your own life again, and if you were succeeded this time. She smiled evilly".
"Aunt, you're hilarious. You and your outrageous joke"
"Just a thought, dear."
" Only insane people think this way, aunt. If you don't want to end up in a psychiatric facility, you should definitely speak with a therapist.
"What, oh, now you're really showing who you really are, a snake," she snarled. I told Bess not to take you in, but she didn't listen. Now that she's gone, you're showing your nature you ignorant filth."
" Aunt, you've clearly had too much to drink; enjoy the party."
As I walked away from my aunt, I expected nothing less. She has always despised me, and I'm sick of trying to understand her. Tonight appears to be a night when all the insane folks are out to get me. What is Audrey doing approaching me? I can't wait for the night to be done.
Hello there, Alien. It's been a minute. Audrey laughs sarcastically.
" Audrey,I'm surprised to see you here, I smiled.
"Yeah, I heard about the party from Damien, and I asked if I could come; you know, he's still not over me," she explained.
"Oh, okay," I said halfheartedly.
I learned about your mom's death and am sorry for your loss. Bess was a sweetheart; it's not every day that you pick up a stranger and take care of them like she did for you know, she was an angel," she mocked.
" Audrey, thank you. Oh, I heard you got dumped because you cheated. Wow. I guess you weren't quite classy, but rather trashy. Have fun at the party.
As I walked away from her, such a bi*tch, I exclaimed, Ah, I needed a drink; I can't go on like this. I went to the bar and got a drink while admiring Damien, he looked stunning. My mind wondered how his lips would have felt as time passed, he laughed; everything about him was exquisite. Oh no, he's coming towards me.
"Hey Ak, Damien said
My spine tingled as I heard his rich voice. I could feel my feet trembling, which was probably due to the booze.
" Ak"? His voice jolted me awake.
"Hey," I murmured, trembling.
Are you all right? He inquired,
"I'm fine; I'm okay," I murmured, catching my breath. It's been a long day; I'm simply tired, I replied, smiling.
"It's good to see you; I heard what happened, and I'm sorry about Bess," he replied warmly.
"Yeah, I answered, "Yeah, I know." "Thank you."
" So you're going to Moldova, huh? "How long would you be staying?"
"Yeah, six months; probably not sure yet. I was perplexed as to why he was looking at me in that manner. He doesnt ? Probably not. He's only concerned. He doesn't like you, Ak! I see you and Audrey still going strong, huh?
" We brokeup a year ago. We're simply friends now; she wanted to visit you and apologize, so I let her tag along.
" apologize , that crazy b*tch wouldn't" I muttered
" What ?
" Nothing" I'm enjoy the evening, nice seeing you. I have greet the rest of the guest "
" Sure" snow let's keep in touch okay ? Damien said lovingly.
He wants to keep in touch,why, he probably just feels sorry for me. This was the longest conversation we've ever had in years and he called me snow. I could help but feel a tingling in my heart.
" We saw you snow, Kay laughed, and Jay and Zen nodded sarcastically.
" What,?
We saw you with Damien—your high school sweetheart, awwn. Oh, is that a flush, Jay teased! They all laughed.
Stop, it's nothing like that; he was simply concerned."
And the fact that you've been watching him all night, sissy? Zen said as he sipped his beer.
" I did no such thing, I replied, my face flushed.
" We saw you; you could eat him if you wanted," Kay grins.
"Get your mind out of the gutter, huh! It's probably the alcohol, and Damien doesn't think of me that way; he doesn't like me, okay?"
"If you say so," Zen laughed. Let's dance, sissy."
We danced our hearts out. We haven't had so much fun in a long time. My heart was filled with joy as I watched my family laugh and enjoy each other's company, which we hadn't enjoyed in a long time since Mom's passing. Grasping every moment and saving it in my heart My heart aches because I would truly miss them. Six months is a while, but I need a vacation so I can return to them in good spirits.
We said our goodbyes to the guests and to Damien and Audrey, who clung on until the end. And my aunt Maggie—I could feel her obnoxious gaze all over me the entire night. I'm relieved she's gone; I won't have to see her face for a while.
Finally, Zen cried out, "I'm exhausted."
Zen helped me with tidying up, while Amy had to take Jay and Kay upstairs because they were both extremely drunk, and Belle had to head off to bed early because of to the baby.
" Bumble, thank you, I said as I hugged him. "I know I haven't been there in for a while, and I'm sorry you had to see me in such a state; it must have been terrifying for you after everything we went through with mom," I sobbed. I'm truly sorry.
" Look at me, Sissy. It's fine." Yes, it was terrifying, but everything is alright. I'm fine. What matters to me is that you don't do that again. You could talk to me if you need someone to talk to, "I'm here for you, sis." It's all right. He comforted me, Let's get you to bed considering you have a long day tomorrow.
" Thank you, Bumble, I whispered.
" I love you, sissy, and good night."
"I love you too, bumble ."
My heart felt lighter; I could leave without hesitation. Tomorrow promises a new beginning, an entirely fresh start. I closed my eyes to get some rest.