One thing Lexa knows for sure is that Clarke may be one of the cutest humans she ever met. during the last days she did everything in her power so the brunette did not get nervous, she hardly talked about their meeting with the exception of arranging a suitable time for both. Clarke simply tried her best to at as normal as possible and that gives Lexa enough time to prepare herself. One of the things that causes the most anxiety is doing something unknown or going to an unknown place. She doesn't really know whether it feels that way for everyone but it helps her imagining every detail of their date. She prepares for everything that could possibly happen, it puts her at ease.
Tomorrow was the big day, they both hoped there was no accident so Clarke can finish her morning shift as planned. Well there are a few moments were Lexa wished the blonde couldn't make it, the excitement getting the best of her.
Lexa paced in her living room she just couldn't hold still. Should she maybe call Anya? Her sister always knew what to do. Before she can think about it she grabs her phone and dials the number.
"Hello? Lexa? Is everything okay? You never call."
"I have to tell you something but you need to promise that you won't freak out okay?"
"Now you are scaring me a little kid."
"It's something good, I think. You remember Clarke right? Well she asked me if I want to meet her for coffee and I kind of said yes? We are going to meet us tomorrow at the coffee shop across my apartment and I'm getting really nervous."
There is stunned silence on the end of the line for several seconds.
"What? You...what? You have a date tomorrow?"
That gets Lexa to frown. They are meeting up for coffee but that doesn't mean that it is a date right? Clarke surely would have said something if that is the case….right?
"It's not a date Anya. Clarke simply wants to meet, so we can talk in person you know?"
"Kid don't take this the wrong way but if someone asks you to coffee on a dating site it usually is a date even when you told them you don't want a relationship."
That...okay well that makes sense. God, she agreed to go on a date with Clarke. Her stomach turns. Clarke is really really great but there is a reason why she doesn't want a relationship. Lexa tried it one time with a girl she really thought she could trust and it went horribly. Costia didn't understand her at all and no matter how often Lexa tried to explain things to her it always led to more and more arguments till they broke up.
"Lexa? You still there?"
"Yeah, sorry I just...I don't know if I want to do this again. Last time was bad enough, maybe I should write her and cancel."
"No you won't Lex. I know, trust me I know how hard it was but you told me that Clarke gets you and that you feel safe with her. Did something happen that changed that?"
"No! No, actually she goes out for her way to make this as comfortable for me as she can."
"Then what are you so afraid of? Just go meet her tomorrow and if you feel uncomfortable you can straight go home."
"Just because she understands and kind off likes me know doesn't that mean that she will do so in the future. I'm complicated An, you and I know that."
"So you think the more she gets to know you the more it will change her mind? That's bullshit Lexa!"
"Anya you know I hate it when you swear!"
"I'm sorry kid but you are not complicated, you are a special woman with many facets and that makes you interesting. If she doesn't see that she's dumb and doesn't deserve you anyway!"
"Thanks, that is very kind of you to say."
"Don't worry so much and you're welcome kid. Do you need anything else? My break is almost over."
"No, I think I'm good."
"Alright. Try to relax and call me tomorrow when you get home. I love you."
"I love you too Anya."
And with that the call ended and Lexa tried to distract herself with the new book she bought a few days ago.
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Clarke stands in front of her wardrobe, hands on her hips and frown on her face. She just doesn't know what to wear. Should she go for casual? It's a coffee date so it would be kinda weird to show up in a dress...right? No casual it is. She searches for her favourite jeans and her favourite hoodie. Tomorrow is not about looking hot or sexy and she likes that about her date with Lexa, it's not about appearances but about being comfortable with each other. Her roommates told her that it might be a bit weird to pick out her outfit the day before but as her morning shift lasts for about 12 hours from 4am to 4pm she doesn't quite trust her judgement to pick out something reasonable.
Clarke is really nervous and it's the first time too. Usually she is really calm and collected, it's just a date. What's the harm right? But with Lexa it seems that everything is different, she is like a delicate flower very sweet and beautiful to look at but very fragile at the same time. She just hopes that everything goes well tomorrow, she is not really prepared to let Lexa go just yet.
With the last glance at the clock on her nightstand she packs everything she needs for her shift in a backpack, says goodbye to Raven and Octavia and heads out of her apartment.
Only twelve hours to go.