When your life turns out to be a lie, when the people you love the most and trust unconditionally betrayed you, you suddenly feel unsafe and you will not be able to trust them again.
All of your insecurities will double, because if we can't trust our parents, who shall we trust?
When you discover that they lied to you, you will doubt about everything they say or once said. You will be lost between believing them for what they say or not!
The trust is the base of any relation in your life; Love, friendship, family...
If it's broken, the relation comes to an end!
There is nothing worse than the doubt. It will eatvyou from the inside and make you feel miserable!
When Nephustus was holding me, and Alfea was collapsed, it broke my heart. But I have already made my decision, and I couldn't stay in a world where I don't belong to, with people who lied to me my whole life.
But because Nephustus asked me to stay so he would tell me more about my biological parents, I postponed my departure.
I noticed how difficult it was to him to tell me about this story, he took a deep breath and said:
" This story goes back a long time, even before you were born, your real father was a good man who only lived for his work and his parents. His mother was the definition of an angel, she took care of him since he was little, raised him in the most appropriate way, she taught him everything she knew, and most importantly she taught him to be generous and kind toward others. But unfortunately she died at a very young age! Your father was so sad that he neglected his work and father who died because of his son's lack of attention. After the death of his father, John, your father, became an alcoholic person with no purpose in his life. Because of his need for money, he turned out to the dark side of life and started robing and selling drugs to other. So he wasn't responsible for his father's death only, but also for other people's death!
Your mom was one of his clients, she bought drugs every day. And that's how they met! When she got pregnant, they weren't even married, nor in love. And even though they knew about the pregnancy, Angela never stopped drugs and John didn't forbid her."
I stood in front of him, mouth agape and eyes wide open, I couldn't believe my ears. My dad was an alcoholic and my mum was a drug addict!?
I asked him with a low voice:" What was the challenge about? And if they weren't in love, why Angela suicide herself after his death?"
I turned back to Alfea, her tears never stopped and it worsened more when I asked those questions. Nephustus took again a deep breath and replied me:
" Alfea is infertile. And that not a secret for anyone, beside you. When we adopted you, we forbade anyone to talk about it anymore so you wouldn't know the truth."
It was the story that made the glass overflow and moved, I started crying.
I wanted to hear the rest of the story but it was like I just couldn't. When I heard about my mother's infertility, and saw how much it touched her, I felt like a knife stuck in my heart.
I needed to go and hug her so badly, to let her know that I love her and I'm always here for her, but something inside me, didn't let me do it
Nephustus continued:
" When Angela got pregnant, your father bragged about her pregnancy, and went all over the country to tell everyone that the gods won't have a kid but he do. I couldn't let it go so easily, because of my love for Alfea, that was devastated by what he said. So I killed him, and because your mother was out of drugs, she suicides herself. I took you in when you were just a fetus, and I implanted you in Alfea's body. Because of that, you were born immortal and with a lot of power. We raised you as our own, and loved you the most. I wasn't going to hide the truth from you forever, but I was just waiting for the right time to tell you, for you to be ready! Or maybe do me to be ready."
I was stuck between believing him and not, what if he was lying so I won't be mad at him? But what if he was telling the truth?
I was confused and couldn't think clearly for the moment.
So I told them that I was leaving with Elijah for a few days and will be back with my final decision, and before they could reply I left!