David
[Five years loving the Same man yet he still sends butterflies down my stomach.
Oh, his emerald eyes still make me shy when he looks deep into my eyes. And his physique? His broad shoulders have always looked attractive in clothes and when he takes them off? Oh my God!
The nights I place my head on his chest as he cuddles me so tightly, are usually the best nights of my life.
I feel safe when I'm with him. His tall figure, when I'm with him, nothing can scare me and he makes me the happiest woman in the world. Brightens my days.
It has always been us against the world. Always!
I can't help but count myself lucky.
I mean who wouldn't wish to have a man like him? Frank Gordon.
That's him, my boyfriend. Apparently, I should start calling him my fiance.
The day we first met still lingers vividly in my mind. He's the one who made me believe in love at first sight. His kindness, positivity, calmness, I can't mention all because then my diary would be filled up.
All in all, everything about him us a turn on. How he brightens my day whenever I feel low, just how he knows how to make me smile]
My heart beats so fast and I can feel the jealousy in every beat, as I read each word, every description about this Frank guy.
For a woman I just met today!
Damn! Why am I angered by this?
Is this whole diary about him?
I want to stop reading but the curiosity In me wins.
I can feel my heart break a little. But why?
I mean we don't even know each other.
I mean we've only had an encounter twice, today, and not a good one at that, yet she still manages to somehow find herself through my heart. Scratch that. Brains.
What's this charm? Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me. Maybe I should just let this day be over and start a fresh one tomorrow. Just a normal day right?
Just a normal day that you meet a pretty girl. Will this insanity be over by tomorrow?
I was supposed to finish her off as soon as my eyes landed on her and yet for some other weird reasons, I found myself admiring her beauty and everything in it.
From our encounters earlier, she sees me as a jerk and I see her as a betrayer, yet I still want her to myself. Anytime I see her.
Finding out she's had eyes for someone else annoys me and I can feel the anger clench through my thought.
She's so gorgeous and I wouldn't mind having her just for a night. Maybe after then, I'll be able to forget about her, just like the rest and go back to my normal self. No feelings no strings.
Thats right, it's just the urger to have her for a night.
It's like meeting a lady in a club one night as you adore her and when you're done, you go back to your normal self the next morning.
Oh damn! I need a drink, a strong one for that matter.
I check the time from my phone on the night stand and it's almost midnight.
Tomorrow's going to be my first day at work.
My dad's going to introduce me to everyone in the company.
Actually, won't be my first day at work, but a brief introduction and a mini ceremony.
Mum had reminded me to set my alarm, to avoid being late on my introduction day. But..
Just a sip. No just a few sips won't hurt.
From my room, I slowly open the door as I rush to the small cellar in the mansion.
As I walk through the gravely quiet house, my mind can recall dad's voice, "see this room, it's a no go zone for you, till you turn 18."
Well,I'm almost twenty seven now and the only reason I shouldn't be here is because I should be sober for the mini ceremony tomorrow.
Mum would surely be on my throat if he finds me here, considering I cut short our conversation earlier, about Sofia, claiming to be tired.
I don't know if she'll have herself worked up about her. Yet I only mentioned the name to cut the long story short because she wasn't going to let that go.
To my surprise, I'm not the only one who's in for a midnight drink. Cole's here and catch him just as he gulps down the drink in his glass.
"Is it about her?" the first words that roll off my tongue.
Thinking back to the words in her diary, could this woman be driving three men crazy?
I brush the thought off. Besides, Cole? No he's always been caught up in work and their relationship could only be about work matters.
"Who?" he answers after putting the glass on the table, just beside the whiskey bottle.
He points at the seat right opposite him.
I pick up another glass from the collections on the side of the counter.
"You know who."
He doest seem bothered by my question.
"Maria? Naaah. I just have alot of issues juggling in my mind and I needed I drink."
I was just here for a sip or two but I found a drinking buddy and I just haven't t realized how much I've sipped in after a while, joking and laughing about so many things and so many memories.
" Remember the time dad locked us up for sneaking in here?"
"That was wild, and then we went without food for a whole day," he adds.
"I'm not going to talk about the times we sneeked to parties when we were grounded."
I take another shot, "Well, we're adults now and cheers to that."
We're cousins, but since I've always seen Cole as my brother, it feels good to catch up on a lot of things. Somehow I have not realized how I've managed to take my mind off that Maria girl off my mind for a while now, how she'd dominated it for almost the whole day.
We keep reminding ourselves of our prime days when we had so many girls in our pockets. How we used our names to draw them closer. (I mean I still do but not like before)
It was fun until Cole actually fell deeply for one who broke his heart. But well, this wasn't surely the time to bring it up.
He hasn't had time for a serious relationship since then.
For me, I tried one and we know how well that went. I'm just hoping that this Sofia girl doesn't stalk me and find me to cause trouble.
I give Cole another look and he knows the question is coming.
"No," he retaliates,"We're not talking about her now. Not again."
I ignore that," So, how is it, working with her?"
We've lost count of time and by the time we come back to reality it's almost two in the morning.
Oh shit! We're the bosses of the Delavega Holdings and there's work tomorrow . Drinking till late night on a week day isn't a good idea when you have work the next day.
My eyes deceive me when I go back to my room and I convince myself to read one more page. Just a page won't hurt.
The first page had me all jealous but for some reason I still want to know more, so I go on to page two.
[I decided to renew my diary because this could be a new beginning for me. It only counts on one thing, if I say yes to him.
Just told him I needed time to think about it. I knew this day would come but I just didn't notice how fast it came. Now I'm so confused and I surely don't know what to do.
This is not just a light matter.
I love Frank with every beat of my heart. My greatest desire is to spend the rest of my life with him. I've always wanted to build a home with him, live happily with our children. But there's a catch, a very big one at that.]
I realize that it was wise of me to read this diary with an unsober mind. Would I have handled it? Just reading how much she adores this man. How much she wishes for a future with him. This is not something normal, for a woman I've just met.
I shift my eyes to the necklace on my nightstand, the one I took from her room and wonder if he was the one who gave it to her. I realize that their love must have gone deeper.
So, I smile when I realize there's a catch and I'm so eager to find out about it.
Here we go..
I gently open the next page. Gently but eagerly.