"Suki"
Is it the fate?
* Bangs! *
Or just a flimsy foolish hypothesis that two people who are meant to be together are supposed to be a girl and a boy? Why not a girl and girl or a boy and boy?
"Motherfucker!!!"
"How DAre she! How?!"
Kicks of those dozen people who were churning their teeth and cursing through their lips, and their veins which were filled with vigor, that hit her thin line abdominal at the pace of million-billion hails falling in the slightest of blink as rock solid down onto the fertile world of treasured green,
However, that young lass as pale as the moon in the clearest skies with those jaw-dropping sharp typical Asian features tried to push herself onto her feet but, they won't give her any chance to escape!
"Witch!"
"Agh! Ah!! "She coughs viscous cerise blood spun out of her flimsy but rosy lips that I have cherished the most and mounted herself in a little delicate raindrop resting peacefully over the surface of the tiny leaves of an oak tree,
and swore to never let anything hurt her but...
This was How wrong a prediction could go especially the one which was taboo itself!!!
"Suki!!! "
That you can't overlook in any condition
"Please! Please...*Sob*---, don't hurt her! Don't---, don't" whining with the tears which flooded down from my cheeks and my chin were absorbed by the soil, as My body was stained with blood that flooded down the injury from my forehead, and was stretched clasping the feet of that lady tightly,
"It's how 'the law of nature's works"
Does it?! Did I truly commit an unspeakable sin?! or was it just one in the eyes of society?
******
"No one leaves this hostel without changing."
She, my roommate, Gheeta, held her thin marron lips parted swirling in the deepest of her thoughts which were shinning in those glamorous brown eyes that rested on her honed coco brown-hued face that appeared as if one of those faces of the victim of malnourishment from a calamity hit the region, twitching her spoon in the dark brown liquid with a tincher of golden shaded oil floating above,
But... who was to blame?
She does belong to some regions that have the worst records of being in floods at least once every year, The state of Jharkhand was famous for this- to be destroyed and then recreate itself again and again,
But on the controversy,
"Changed as if?! From a fashion point of view or a mindset point of view?! Or an appearance like a shapeshifter she-cobra' ?" almost of no concern but to avoid gaining any tag of being '#rude' and being a little mood lite (by words at least) plunging my elbow onto my knees, stuffed my mouth like a ravenous demon of hell who haven't eaten for as if an entire lifetime, was now feeding on those thin lumps of the dried heated round sheet of ground wheat, that we, the people of newly in progress nomenclature 'Bharat' that was once called 'India' which wasn't bad either and as the distinct history goes, was derived from the river 'Indus' which wafts almost of 2900 km originating in the crown of sacred Mansarovar and descend to the Arabian sea, but some people think otherwise as it was a 'symbol of colonialism'-- gods! NO POLITICS ON TABLE!
So back on the topic...those wry disc-shaped, known as 'Roti.' that have been a pride of my beloved country like- people outside India are like- crazy holding them between two of their fingers vibing while making a reel-
'Roti-roti- Indian-Indian' (yet Ha! what a shame? It's not even indigenous to India, oh, I'm sorry BHARAT)
Politics? No, it's cliche.
A faux pas, if I cry these things out but who am I about to question? This room which all those three hundred youngsters who have stepped to the ledge of 18 or were about to, was probably filled with those thinkers who didn't know any facts and were brainwashed but still would scream at the highest pitch calling me 'brainwashed'!
That's a disaster in all the world from designated regions to places built under the primitive shade of tin and floating pollution which has accommodated all over.... but...
"Changes must be welcomed."
"Not all changes are for good."
"Yeah, shedding skin is worst" I chuckled still with my complete focus on munching,
however, as if the wind whirls around my ear,
"Skin is still too far to be shedding and least of concern here" It stuck in my blood and my focus finally fell onto her passionless face that had just uttered a very controversial phase in such a plain state,
"Do you seriously think you will be straight after spending four years here within this 'planet-her' college?"
"Straight?! Do you mean--- "snorted, I pushed my plate as shiny as silver, with an unexpected push of my palm, My breath was abrupt and accelerated, and filled with a sense of loathing!
'Lesbian? How can I have an interest in same sex or anyone? That's... That's-'
"Refute... It's a refute!" I cried banging my fist on the rock-solid dining table, and went on, with the dripping lava from the mounted volcano-
"I'm not going to be-- or anyone's---"
but all the eyes in that enormous dining hall of one of the 100 similarly built only girls' hostels within this 50-hector campus of 'Babhära' which is also the only girl's college at the top of the list of best educational facilities, but the faces give that inevitable look of disdain-
'Privacy, girl, privacy! '
Filling my lungs with fresh air and blanking my brain, empty it is- all empty! ,
I controlled myself from saying that curse word, but my eyes conveyed it to her and I was certain- I would never lose this control over myself then... However, dear me,
'How stupid I was?! '
*Crack*
"Haha... Haha.... "
This high-pitched bluster and---?!
My head rolled at the ring of the voice, and I wasn't alone, All heads turned to the next spice, 'cause here, spice is all which is keeping us going!
However, the spice this time couldn't be digested!
"Honey *Kiss*"
WTF?!!!!!!!
My eyes were about to fall out of their sockets, so I rotated my head at the slighted view of that sin which was about to occur right away, and covered my eyes- counting the names of all the gods and goddesses who are prayed throughout the world I am living!
"Radhe radhe! Jai siyaram... Jai jadadhnathpuri, jail kedarnath! Amitabha!"
But, even if I try to the sight repeats through the blank canvas of my brain
That girl with chubby cheeks as if a squirrel touched her lips to the lips of the lass sitting next to her in the darkest of corners of the brightly illuminated hall and it wasn't any ordinary kiss it was French!
Forgive me, gods, I don't know when I notice that either in such a sinful act!
"Mmmmhh...."
Shut the fuck up!!! And where is our so-called 'Mother' the warden who has promised 'our well-being in the safest environment'?
But another set of tragedy!
Baffled and disgusted, I covered my ears and diminished my eyelids,
Also, they were feeding each other mouth-to-mouth- such an unhygienic thing! Gods!
Take away my Soul already!
But,
"It's not something you could control."
Gheeta pointed, raising her lazy eyes, to meet mine, and a sheath of confidence gleaned through her light brown iris,
that burns a stick of match inside me,
however, I rolled my eyes, and clasped the plate that I pushed so brutally just a moment before, now within the hands in the tightest grip, was empty without any tinge of Veges or 'Roti' and whispered through my clenched jaw,
"Don't be so overconfident about someone you have rarely known!"
her thin lips glued, and her widespread eyes still set on my face baffled at my words-
Uhho, how much I tried but this rude side has prevailed at last!
but, at last, I wasn't wrong, that's what matters the most!
However, her eyes as if like an x-ray machine was as if searching through my soul for something, I had to rotate my face away from her sharp sights that I couldn't ignore,
" If you are human then every word I say may and will somehow turn to effort."
but abruptly, hearing her profoundly serious words, I straighten my spine stretching my both hands above towards heaven and a mystical smile rises to my lips-
"Good, 'cause I'm a living dead." and took off without turning a glance back!
How can I? How will I? 'cause I am the one who has dragged as if throughout her lifetime in this era for my eternity living in an era that doesn't exist anymore.
"I love you too, darling" The lips finally parted.