THE JESUS SLAY QUEENS 2
Episode 79
© Ayo Omolayo
My alarm rang, but it wasn't an alarm. It was a phone call. I no longer used alarms. I had passed the stage of using alarms to help me meet up with my appointment with God. I had to make sure I had passed that stage through consistency. If there was one thing I realized early in my life was that, whether I was prayerful or not, the enemy would come.
I step down from the bed and took a look around the room. This was the same room I grew up in. The same room with a lot of memories about my teenage life and everything that happened to transform it. This is the same place Mr principal met his end. This was the same place I learnt so many secrets about myself and who I was meant to be.
If there was any place I could find out more about myself, it was here. This was the right place to seek the face of God in this matter.
I began to sing worship songs and went down on my knees. I wanted to pray so badly, but all I could do was cry. The fact that I have been carrying pride all over me for a long time broke me beyond words. The more I try to open my mouth and pray the more I wept. I kept repeating these words, 'Lord do with me what you want'.
I kept praying and praying and it seemed as if I was talking to myself. Well, I'm not going to buy that trick of the devil. This was not the first time I was being told that whenever you pray and it felt like no one was hearing you, the devil is only shrinking you.
God always hears the cry of his children. That feeling that your words are not passing the roof of the house, is a lie. So I had these assurance that I was being hurt and poured my heart to God.
"Lord break my pride! Take away the pride of Life from me. Don't allow me destroy my marital destiny with pride."
That was seriously be expecting an encounter. I was waiting for the reassuring voice of the Holy Spirit. But in the midst of that heartfelt fellowship, all I could hear was the ringing of my phone.
I felt like smashing it into pieces. It was seriously a distraction right now. I decided to ignore it and continue the worship, but my heart was drawn to it. Without daddy saying it, I knew it was a call that I needed to take. I crawled with my hands and knees to where it was and picked it.
I was surprised to find out it was Kayla calling. My eyes traveled down to the clock on the wall. It was just a few minutes after 12am. Why would she call at such a time like this?
"Hello!"
"Hi!"
"Mama I am truly sorry for calling at such late hour of the night. I had a dream I need to share with you."
"Okay! Go on!"
"I saw myself putting on a pair of shoes. Immediately I put on the shoes, I discovered they were too big. A lady in white garment was standing by me. She was busy telling me those shoes were not mine, but I told her I love them so much. She kept insisting that I wear the one that fits, but I love those pair of shoes badly. It was designed in gold, sparkling gold.
Honestly, let's forget the fact that it was a dream. That shoe was splendid. I really loved that shoe. The lady in white told me that if I wore it out, it would fall off my foot. I ignored her and walked around with the shoes and left the building. I was on the street when the shoes came off my feet and I was embarrassed walking barefooted in public.
The shoes fell off my feet and I was unable to pick it up. I saw how thieves, scrambled for the shoes and ran away with it. I started chasing them to get the shoes back when I woke up.
Mama what could be the meaning of this dream?"
As an expert in interpretation of dreams the first thing I remembered was what Mummy taught me. She said putting on shoes represent getting married in the dream. Whenever you dream and you see yourself putting on a new pair of shoes, it means you are getting married. Seeing her putting on a new pair of shoes which was not her size, had just one meaning.
It was speaking about her intention to marry Romeo. God was speaking to her and he was doing it in parables. Why don't God just speak to her directly? Why use this pattern? The message is clear to me but not to her.
I wanted to at first jump to conclusion to tell her intending marriage to Romeo is what this dream is referring to. But I felt a serious restrained in my spirit. It meant one thing. I was not permitted to tell her the meaning of the dream.
"But why? I know what the dream means. Why won't you allow me to tell her the meaning?"
"IF YOU TELL HER THAT DREAM MEANS SHE MUST NOT MARRY ROMEO, IT WOULD PAINT A BAD PICTURE OF YOU WHEN YOU EVENTUALLY START A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. YOU INTERPRETING THE DREAM AND TELLING HER IT MEANS SHE SHOULD NOT MARRY HIM AND LATER BECOMING ROMEO'S FIANCEE, WOULD REALLY PAINT YOU A BAD PERSON."
"Wow! Daddy you are wisdom personified!"
"YOU CAN SAY THAT AGAIN!"
"So what do I tell her?"
"THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE THAT WILL TAKE PLACE, BUT TELL HER TO START PRAYING. TELL HER TO ASK ME FOR THE MEANING OF THE DREAM."
"Kayla, I believe God is saying something through the dream and I want you to pray that he explains it. If possible, fast today. Seek his face till he reveals what this dream means."
"But mama, do you have any idea on what this dream means?"
In that instant, I felt as though I was trapped. I knew the meaning of the dream, but I was not supposed to tell her. By the way, telling her the meaning, would be disobeying a divine instruction. What can I do in a situation like this?
"TELL HER THE LORD WILL REVEAL THE ANSWER."
"Wow! Daddy you are a genius! You just saved me big-time!"
I could feel daddy smiling.
"Kayla, the Lord said he will reveal the answer."
"Amen!"
"I believe you can start the prayers right now. I will also join you in the prayers. Whatever the Lord reveals to you, please let me know."
"Okay ma! Thank you so much! I'm so sorry for calling you at this time of the night! I know I'm not supposed to call at this time, but I was under so much pressure.
Immediately the call ended I went back to the prayer I was praying earlier. So the prayers went on and I didn't know how long I lasted. I decided to do a bible study before joining the family for devotion.
I open the Bible to read and arrived at the portion of the scripture that talks of God transforming Nebuchadnezzar into an animal for 7 years. Before the incident that led to his partial madness, there was dream that warned him of what God intended to do if he remained proud. Just like Daniel always did, he interpreted the king's dream.
He made the king to understand that God was planning to judge him for his pride. And he told the king begging him, to humble himself before the god of heaven. The king was only able to maintain himself for 12 months. After 12 months, he lost control and began to do it all at the palace which landed him into trouble.
Taking a look at the great Babylon he was taking by pride. He began to speak arrogantly and God could not tolerate the words coming out of his mouth. God didn't wait for him to finish his sentence before pronouncing judgement on him.
This was all contained in Daniel chapter 4. As I read, a sudden fear took hold of me. First, the King was only able to overcome his pride for 12 months. Immediately 12 months ended, his spiritual consistency expired.
"What if I am only able to stay away from fried for 2 months? How long will I be able to stay away from fried before it destroys me?"
"NEBUCHADNEZZAR DID NOT FALL BECAUSE HE PLANED TO FALL. ONE THING THAT HAS LED TO THE DEATH OF MANY SPIRITUAL LIVES IS INCONSISTENCY WITH THE PRINCIPLES OF CONSISTENCY."
"I don't understand! How can you be inconsistent with the principles of consistency?"
"THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION. NOW LET ME EXPLAIN SOMETHING TO YOU. THERE WAS A TIME IN THE BIBLE WHERE THE CHILDREN OF ISRAEL HAD TO FIGHT THE AMALEKITES. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT STORY?"
"Yes sir! I do!"
"GOOD! TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED?"
"Moses told Joshua to gather the men of Israel and go out to fight against them. While the battle was going on, Moses stood up on a mountain and raised his hands towards the battlefield. While Moses hands remain suspended in the air, the children of Israel prevailed."
"NOW, YOU REMEMBER CLEARLY THAT MOSES ARMS BEGAN TO ACHE HIM, RIGHT?"
"Yes!"
"AND HE HAD TO DROP THEM FOR A FEW SECONDS."
"Yes!"
"WHAT HAPPENED IMMEDIATELY HE DROPPED THEM?"
"Immediately dropped his hands, the children of Israel began to lose. And immediately he raise them again, the children of Israel began to win."
"CAN I ASK YOU A QUESTION?"
"Yes sir!"
"WHO WAS MAKING THE CHILDREN OF ISRAEL TO WIN? WAS IT GOD OR WAS IT MOSES?"
"It was God, but he was doing it true Moses."
"THAT IS THE ANSWER. THAT IS THE REASON WHY MANY BELIEVERS ARE NOT CONSISTENT IN THEIR SPIRITUAL LIFE. THEY EXPECT THEIR ARMY TO WIN WITHOUT THEIR HANDS UP. THEY WANT TO BE TAKING A NAP AND BE SPIRITUALLY ON FIRE. THEY WANT TO BE SLEEPING 7 TO 8 HOURS A DAY AND STILL REMAIN ACTIVE SPIRITUALLY.
MOSES HAD TO KEEP HIS HANDS UP TO REMAIN THE WINNER. THAT IS THE SAME WAY YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR HANDS UP TO REMAIN FERVENT IN SPIRIT.
YOU WANT TO BE FERVENT IN SPIRIT AND YOU ARE SKIPPING YOUR QUIET TIME. YOU WANT TO BE FIVE IN TEEN SPIRIT AND YOU CAN'T FAST. YOU WANT TO BE FIVE AND IN SPIRIT AND YOU SAID THE BIBLE IS A BORING BOOK. YOU WANT TO GROW SPIRITUALLY BUT YOU DON'T WANT YOUR HANDS TO BE UP. IT DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY.
GOD WILL GIVE THE VICTORY, BUT YOU MUST PLAY YOUR PART. IT'S A TEAMWORK. THIS IS THE REASON WHY MANY PEOPLE WHO OVERCAME MASTURBATION FELL BACK TO IT. AFTER VICTORY WAS ACHIEVED, THEY DROPPED THEIR HANDS AND SIN TOOK OVER.
YOU SEE THEM COMPLAINING. NO MATTER HOW I PRAY I STILL GO BACK. ASK THEM VERY CAREFULLY, DID YOU NOTICE BEFORE THE MASTURBATION CAME BACK, YOU STARTED JOKING WITH YOUR PRAYER LIFE? DID YOU TAKE NOTE THAT BEFORE MASTURBATION CAME BACK, YOU STARTED WATCHING THOSE THINGS YOU SAID NO TO IN THE PAST?
JULIET, I HAVE THE POWER TO KEEP YOU FROM SINNING FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. BUT IF YOU CAN'T RAISE YOUR HANDS UP YOU WILL LOSE THE BATTLE. IF YOU BEGIN TO TAKE YOUR SPIRITUALITY CARELESSLY, IT WILL SHOCK YOU HOW THE AMALEKITES WILL CUT OFF YOUR HEAD."
Immediately I heard this I went down on my knees.
"Lord I will keep my hands up. I will always pray and never stop. I will always open my Bible on a daily basis. I won't allow weakness and tiredness to allow me abandon my position of steadfastness. I want to drop my hands in the middle of warfare and allow the Amalekites to take off my head."
To be Continued.....
I typed this episode this morning. I was just speaking in tongues as I typed.
I have witnessed many believers who are fed up with their spiritual lives. They are seriously tired and even cry in frustration. Why must this cycle continue? No matter how fervent I become, I will always come back to this spiritual coldness.
Nothing good comes without a price. Moses wanted victory, but victory took a toll on him. His body was in pains but he wanted victory at all cost.
Maybe the reason why you have not been able to have a consistent spiritual life is because you don't want it at all cost. You want it at your convenience.
Lord I will keep my hands up. I will always pray and never stop. I will always open my Bible on a daily basis. I won't allow weakness and tiredness to allow me abandon my position of steadfastness. I want to drop my hands in the middle of warfare and allow the Amalekites to take off my head.
Can you make that your prayer point?
INSPIRED BY THE BREAD OF LIFE
WRITTEN BY AYO OMOLAYO
YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST 🙏