[Ciel's POV]
I wasn't born a vampire. My dad is a human and my mom was a human as well. I was a human as well but things changed.
It was about 9 years ago I became a vampire. I don't know how. Usually a human becomes a vampire when a vampire gives their life essence to a human by sucking their blood.
However, a vampire never bit me. It was impossible. The demons and vampires were already killed by the hero among heroes,Arlo Canmore.
I noticed the change in my body exactly after one month of my mother's passing. I noticed my skin got paler. My canine got sharper and my eyes were bright red.
I kept it a secret from my father for a few months but decided to tell him about it. Till this day only my father, grandfather and two brothers know about it.
I could easily hide my fangs, my skin would turn normal and my eyes were blue again. I also didn't have any wings on my back which vampire tend to have. I am a half-vampire.
Since I am a half-vampire, I thought that I didn't have the urge to drink any blood until few weeks ago. Ever since meeting Ryujin my body felt hot. I would always stare at his face and neck but that wasn't the factor that pushed me to drink blood.
When Ryujin came to save me and my friends at the mall,he was bleeding. I could see the blood flowing and when each drop of blood fell on the floor,I thought
'What a waste'
I hated myself from thinking that. I immediately redirected my focus but I would always pick the sweet smell of his blood. The aroma was making me light headed. That is why I decided to drink pig's blood. I asked my brother to buy it for me and kept it hidden using a speical box with ice magic.
I only drank a cup of glass but today when I saw Ryujin with that green haired woman my blood boiled. I didn't know why that had happened but my body was turning to that of a vampire.
I drank every packet of bloodI had but, my hunger wouldn't satitate. Ryujin's blood came to my mind again and again. I couldn't handle it anymore so I decided to call Ryujin but what will I tell him?
"I am half-vampire. I want your blood. Even though I slapped you for touching me, I want your blood."
I am such a hypocrite. I couldn't tell him. The thought of him looking at me distgustingly made my legs weak. I never want to see that.
Will he understand my circumstance if I tell him? Will he accpet me even though I have become a monster?
All of these thoughts gave a headache. I slouched on my couch and closed my eyes. I could only think of Ryujin's blood.
'I thought we were already friends.' Ryujin's words came to her mind. I should have more faith in him.
I decided to message Ryujin.
(Ciel: Ryujin are you free today?)
Ryujin only replied after 1 hour.
(Ryujin: I am. After 30 minutes.Why?
Ciel: I stumbled upon a problem in my assignment, I wanted your help.
Ryujin: Ok!Let's meet at the library.
Ciel: No!
Ryujin:No?
Ciel: I mean...the students at the library always stare at us and make us feel uncomfortable. Why don't we study at your place if you don't mind.
...
...
Ryujin:Ok! I will message you after I come home.
Ciel:Thank you)
I can't believe I tricked him but I swear on my life I will tell him the truth. Now all I had to do was wait for thirty minutes.
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Ryujin messaged me.
(You can come to my room.)
I immediately rushed out of my dorm. Ryujin said that he would be free after 30 minutes so it must have taken him some time to eat and to take a shower. He messaged me exactly 46 minutes after out last conversation.
I reached his door but couldn't bring myself to knock. The door suddenly opened and I saw Ryujin cartying two trash bags.
"Oh! Ciel. Please come in. I will just throw these trash and come back."
I nodded and entered his room. I could see his pets playing but they immediately ran away as soon as they saw me. I wonder why they don't like me ?
I sat on his sofa. Ryujin returned back after 1 minute and 23 seconds. I don't know why I was so consious of the time today.
"Ciel! Do you like tea,coffe or some juice"
Ryujin asked me in a polite tone. His voice always made my heart smile.
"I don't want anything Ryujin! Can you come sit next to me?"
Ryujin hesitated for a while but then he came and sat on the sofa. He was still sitting a bit far.
I patted the seat next to me.
"Sit here Ryujin...please"
Ryujin moved and sat next to me.
"Are you in a hurry to do your work?"
I shook my head.
"No! Actually I lied to you when I said I wanted to my assignment."
Ryujin wasn't shocked by my lie. He just had a stoic expression.
"So why are you here?"
My body was shaking. My voice wouldn't come out. I was scared that Ryujin would push me away. I was scared of losing what I had with him.
"Its fine Ciel, if you can't open up to me.You can take your time."
His consideration always made my fear go away.
I looked him staright in his eyes.
"Ryujin I am a ha-hal-half-vampire." My eyes turned red,my skin became pale and my fangs grew.
The calm look on Ryujin's face slowly vanished. I could see some sweatform on his forehead. He looked away and put his hands over his face. He stood up drank a glass of water and sat next to me.
"I am not joking Ryujin"
"I trust you Ciel. I mean your whole body changed infront of me. Its just that... I don't know how to process this information. How many people know about it? When did it happen?"
"I became a vampire 9 years ago. Only my family members and now you know about it."
"Why did you tell me Ciel?"
Now came the hardest part. I had to tell him that I wanted his blood. I wanted the red liquour flowing through his veins.
"I could perfectly hide my vampire features and never had the urge to drink blood. It is probably because I am a half-breed now. When I saw your blood when you saved me at the mall, I wanted to d-drink it."
Ryujin kept looking down. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. I could see him trying to ask me millions of question but he stopped. He looked at me.
"I will give you my blood, Ciel"
I didn't know what to feel when he said that. Should I have felt happy? I don't know now. Everything is messed up.
"Thank you,Ryujin."
"But I have a condition."
"What is your condition?"
"From tomorrow everyday, you will have to come to my room each day. You will only drink my blood once a week but incase of emergency you can drink more."
Why did he want me to come to his room everyday? I didn't want to ask him because I lost my rationality. I could see Ryujin slowly expose his neck to me.
"What are you doing Ryujin?"
He looked confused
"Don't vampire drink blood from the neck? I thought you wanted to drink my blood now-"
I didn't even let him finish his sentence. I got my face near his neck,closed my eyes and dug my fangs in his neck.
"Arghh!"
A small painful groan released from Ryujin's mouth. As soon as the blood entered my mouth, I felt as if I was on cloud nine. I felt like I was floating. The blood tasted better than anything in my life. I closed my eyes and started savoring the blood.
I could feel my strength increasing. The mana in my blood gradually increased. I became greedy and tried to suck blood even harder.
"Ciel! It hurts"
I heard him but my body was greedy. I dug my fangs even deeper. I was going to drink even more but Ryujin pushed me.
"Ciel!Snap out of it"
I opened my eyes. I could see a deep wound on Ryujin's neck. He was bleeding profoundly. This time I didn't want his blood.
I looked at the mirror beside me. I had blood all over my mouth. My eyes were bright red than usual. Blood was all over Ryujin's shirt.
"I am sorry Ryujin! I lost control. My-My body didn't listen to me. I am a monster"
Ryujin pulled me closer and slightly hugged me.
"Its fine Ciel. Its fine. You did well. You are you, not a monster. Its my fault as well."
His words made my heart feel even heavy. I started to cry. Its not your fault.
"Im-sniff-sorry. I didn't want-sniff- be like t-this"
I could feel his hand on my head. He patted my head and kept saying.
"Its okay."
I kept crying. I let my sorrow flow through him. I knew I could never go back now. I would never be normal. I would never be me again. I dragged him down with me. I have tainted his fate.
This interwining of fate has truly been cruel to him.