Three weeks passed and I was getting ready for the doctor's appointment . I was not scared anymore ,and I actually couldn't wait to get rid of it ,Lewis had me convinced it was the best thing to do for myself . I even introduced him to my brother. Lwandile was over protective ,he kept on warning me against Lewis ,and that maybe his intentions were not pure .
I couldn't hear a word he said .I was in love with Lewis or maybe I was fond of the idea that I had someone who cared for me ,gave me attention and shielded me from any harm . He had never touched me inappropriately ,never tried to force me to sleep with him. He was the perfect guy , a pure gentleman . One night when he called me he slipped up and told me the three magic words " I love you " I really thought he meant it ,that it was genuine .
Anyways woke up that day , talked to the kiddo to say my goodbyes .I apologized for what I was about to do to it , that it wasn't it fault and if after life existed it will get to understand why I did that . I took a long bath and got dressed . Went down for breakfast . And yes, Sihle was still there getting on my latest nerve ,with all the remarks he made . He just looked at me with those lustful eyes ,but I just thought I was being paranoid .
Lewis came to take me to the hospital . When I went out that door ,a BMW convertible was parked there . It looked new and it was all shiny . " Before you even ask , it is new ,and after we head to the doctors you can have the keys " he said that whilst looking at me in the eye . I was astonished " you bought it for me " I asked and he just nodded . I was the happiest women on earth . He showed me life was worth living .
After I did not accept the car ,he was disappointed but understood . He held my hand as I got into the hospital ward . I changed to the hospital robe . When I was all done , Lewis came in to hold my hand ,and be with me through the whole process . I was scared ,when the process began ,it was painful and fast . I didn't know the death of an innocent human being was so easy ,but the guilt inside was eating at me slowly .
Getting out of that hospital I was drained ,and just tired . Lewis was just so great . He took me on a drive around town ,bought some ice cream . He kept on reassuring me I was did the right thing ,and he would always be there to me . When he drove me home that afternoon in front of the door he gave me a forehead kiss that just showed the care he had .
I remember getting into the house and just throwing myself on that couch ,flat on my stomach . For the first time I was wearing a dress .After the rape I had kept my body covered . I was slowly dozing off to dream land . I suddenly felt cold wet hands running up and down my thighs . I jumped and fell off the couch .When I looked up it was Sihle, he had only a towel wrapped around his waist .
I was scared out of my wits ,I was shaking ,and this fool didn't know what he had just done to me . " What the hell you think you doing ? " I asked him that getting up from the ground . I was so mad ,how could he ? . He had the audacity to smile . " I have seen how you leading me on around the house , you want me " he said those words moving closer to me . I slapped him and pushed him away .Tears had filled my eyes " you pervert ,my Aunt will learn about this ! " I altered those words and ran to lock myself up in the room .
I tried to call Lewis but his phone was off .I called my aunt requesting her to come home as soon as possible . I curled up on the floor and tried to calm myself down .I heard a knock on the door " Baby ,baby open the door, I'm here now " it was my Aunt I opened the door and fell on her arms . She took me downstairs and got me some water to calm me .
" Sihle tried to force him on me ,he-he ..." Before I could complete my sentence tears went down my eyes .Sihle just sat there and smiled . Aunt looked shocked and handed !e some tissues . " Girl please ,Phindy she is lying ... Look she never wears a dress but today she wore a short one trying to lead me on so she can cry rape " he said that with ease ,he probably had planned it .
The only sound in the room was from me sniffing ,but besides that there was complete silence .Sihle stood up and went to gently caress my aunt . He pulled her out of the kitchen .I sat there in hope of seeing him get out of that house with all his bags . She came back holding hands with him." Lorna ,Baby ,maybe it's time you go back to KZN " she said that looking me straight in the eye . " are you chasing me out ,in other ways you don't believe me ." I said that whilst wiping my tears . I was not going back to KZN or even beg her .
When I didn't receive a response everything was clear . I went up to my room to get the stuff I needed most . I grabbed my phone and called Lewis to please help me out . I took my bags and went out of the door ,she never even tried to stop me ,and she was too busy with her boo . I sat out in the pavement and I was felling cold and tired . The car stopped in front of me ,he came out running he knelt in front of me and took me in his arms .
He put my bags in his car ,and wrapped his jacket around me . He drove off . When the engine came to a stop I was so sleepy . He carried me into his apartment .It was all flashy and really beautiful . It was quite big and the furniture looked expensive . When he came back he joined me on the couch . We cuddled he had his hands around me gently and he just kept me there till I fell asleep ,I felt at home in his arms .
I woke up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat . The nightmares were back ,I kept on seeing the three men on top of me ,and their groans . I kept on hearing a baby cry . I was sure I was going crazy . I was curled up in the couch and slowly wiping my tears .Lewis woke up and he comforted me ." They all coming to get me ,I'm so scared " I said that wiping my tears . He stood up and went to his room and came back with something he sat down next to me and pulled the coffee table close . He gently wiped my tears . He spilled some white powder on the table ." What is that ? " I asked him because I was really confused ." Baby this helps you forget all your troubles ,and get hyped on life " he said that rolling a ten rand note ,lined the cocaine with his credit card and sniffed it with his nose .I watched the whole process . He handed the ten rand note over to me " try it ...it will help you out" .I was reluctant but I reached out for the ten rand ,while he lined the coke up