Gianna's pov
"Did you cheat on me in highschool?" I asked. Nate's fork fell down immediately.
"What?" He asked, staring at me with his eyes wide open.
I really didn't wanna ask but since he stepped in what Maria said won't leave my head and all of a sudden I asked him. I don't think he did or rather I believe he didn't but I can't help but doubt.
"Did you?" I asked
"What do you mean did you? Why would I ?" He replied almost angry
"Answer the damn question Nate" I shouted
He paused "With who?"
"Bridget"
"Bridget? The cheerleader?" He laughed a bit
"Yes" I replied annoyed
"Are you fucking with me right now Gianna?" I could slowly see him get angry, guess he actually thought I was joking at first.
"What do you mean am I fucking with you? Do I look like am fucking with you?" I stood up shouting at this moment I was just annoyed "just answer the goddamn question"
"Really Gianna? You think I would date Bridget behind your back when I had to go through fucking shit just to get you to date me and then keep our fucking relationship from your so called best friend?" He paused breathing heavily. He was angry as much as I hate it when he was angry I couldn't back down.
What would happen if he just gave me a yes I did or no I didn't. Ugggh I was going insane.
"During highschool you ask? Was there a time when I was alone and I wasn't busy sneaking around with you or I wasn't with Alec?"
"..." I couldn't even deny it because everything he said was nothing but the truth. Why did I even doubt him?
"I'm gonna go" He grabbed his jacket leaving but stopped in front of the door saying "I didn't cheat on you and I would never" and he left. I sighed what did I just do.
Next Day
"Did you forget we had plans today?" Tamara said walking into my house.
I had actually forgotten but I wasn't going to tell her. I couldn't sleep a wink last night because I couldn't get how much of a fuck up I am.
"No" I groaned "I was just about calling you"
"You're lying" she said, taking a good look at me "what's wrong?"
"I don't know Tamara. I don't know" I said tiredly, sitting down. I hate this.
She sat down beside me "What do you mean you don't know? Is this about Nate?"
"..."
"Is it?"
"No" I replied, rolling my eyes. If he wants to be annoyed he can be annoyed for all I care. He should be apologising to me but how come he's the one annoyed when I am supposed to be the one annoyed.
"No? Another lie? It's still morning you know" She replied with a smirk
"Ok! Fine, it is about Nate!" I said angrily
"What did you do?" She asked quietly
"Nothing!" I replied "Absolutely nothing"
"Tell me about this nothing" she said resting her chin on her hand.
I start explaining from what Maria said to how Nate left the store angrily. "I mean I didn't even do anything. He's the one who decides to disappear for more than six years without telling me shit! Instead of him asking me for forgiveness he's annoyed at me. Does it make sense to you?"
"Gianna" she paused " I think the only reason he's annoyed is because of all the people on earth you are doubting him. You feel he was cheating on you"
"I didn't feel it! I was told he was and I knew he wasn't cheating that's why I wanted to ask him but instead he...he kept going around in circles and then all of a sudden he gets angry and just decide to leave. He didn't even pay me for the coffee!"
"Seriously Gianna I think you need to calm down and forget about that coffee right now. Can I ask a question?"
"Sure"
"Do you still like Nate?"
I paused. Do I even need to think I knew the answer but I am just too scared to admit it. I mean he left for six years without saying a thing.
She sighed softly. My silence probably gave her the answer she was looking for because she continues "Then why not date him again?"
"Date him again? So he could disappear on me again?"
"Have you ever asked why he disappeared?"
"Do I need to know that?" I scoffed.
"Yes" she said, grabbing my hands and staring at me quietly "You know Gianna. I feel everything is all in your head and its a misunderstanding you created"
"What do you mean?" I asked. What was she getting at?
"You remember when we got into the university and you created that Forget Nate law where no one was to talk about anything relating to Nate?"
"Yeah why?" I remember creating this stupid law because I was so furstrated and wanted Nate out of my head.
"You remember Zack? The first guy you went out with in university but decided he was too much of a talker because you were used to someone listening to you all the time?" She asked
"What are you getting at?" At this moment I was plain confused.
"I'm trying to say that you've blamed every misfortune you've had on and even compared every single guy that came your way with him" She sighed
"Just because I said he was too much of a talker didn't mean I was comparing him to Nate!" I replied. She was right and she knew it but I wasn't going to admit it.
"Ok let's talk about my ex. The Senator's son who went out with me just to be close to you. I know you remember you still even talk to him" she rolled her eyes
"Come on, The only reason I didn't date him was because he was Jeremy's uncle and I wouldn't date a guy that my best friend broke up with"I said. Well I wasn't lying that was part of it.
"I know but the major reason was even though he had everything he wasn't Nate. We both know that. I could list every guy you went out with. At some point it sounded like eating became a therapy for you" she sighed again.
Was I really this messed up? I thought to myself
"What I'm trying to say is you should either forget about him or …"She looked at me quietly for a moment then said "Just let him explain and if he doesn't have a good reason you can fuck him up. I would be glad to do that"
I laughed "I don't know Gianna but I don't think I should listen to him yet"
"Ah" she laughed. "Then when do you want to listen to him? When another woman takes him?"
"That won't happen" I rolled my eyes
"Oh that's what you think. God knows if I was Nate I won't ask for your forgiveness more than two times cause your head is bringing bubbles already" She said walking to the kitchen
"What are you saying?" I smiled.
"I know you like seeing him almost everyday but don't you want a little skinship?"
"Tamara!"I screamed with a smile. I actually enjoyed seeing him almost everyday but actually I didn't just want to see him, I wanted to touch him also.
"Cinderella" Tamara said, resting on the kitchen door. When did she get there? "See you can continue daydreaming later for now I'm hungry"
"Geez just stop it I'm coming" I said with a flushed face standing up.