MIKAEL'S POV
I might've went too far remembering my dream. Nosebleed? Spacing out? What could be the next to happen? I was on my thoughts thinking too hard when someone knocked.
"Engineer Balmoja, they are waiting for you at the conference hall. Engineer Noah is also there." Claire said, my personal secretary. Its just to remind me of my scheduled meetings and visitation on the location of the project plus running errands for me. Since, we are engrossed with working and finishing back-to-back projects here and there, we missed some important meetings with clients and personnel so the company decided to assign us each a secretary.
I entered the room knowing I will be holding the announcement but Noah jumped in since I'm not feeling well. He congratulated both teams and mentioned about the one week personal vacation approved by the company. We could only have a total of 80 days personal off for the whole year plus the special occasion. The meeting adjourned and everybody left.
"Will you stay here?" I was back to reality when Noah spoke pertaining to me. I release a deep sigh and leaned on the chair then Noah walked up to me.
"Here." he said then he hand me a card. "She's someone I know through work. You need to be checked since you're spacing out way too much and a nosebleed? I'm concerned." he added. He tapped my back and head out.
I was left looking intently at the piece of paper he gave me. Should I go? I couldn't decide myself. I stood up and walked my way out of the room then I head back to my office. I got my things and head down to my car. I started the engine when the rain suddenly fell from the sky. Every time I'm on my deep thoughts, rain started falling.
While I was driving, I can't keep off my thoughts about what Noah said. I had some crazy thoughts. I arrived home and my mother welcomed me warmly. She's my comfort place and my security.
"Did you have dinner?" she asked while I put down my things on the sofa table. I didn't respond but hugged her tightly then she pat my back.
"You did great today. Go and shower while I prepare dinner. The twins will be here in a while." she said while caressing me. I loosened my hug and smiled at her.
"You're the best, Mom. I love you always." I said then she cupped my face.
"I love you too but you need to shower. You're not smelling fresh." then we chuckled.
"Alright." I said then I head to my room to take a shower. After a while, the twins have arrived from school looking so tired. I was reminded of the stress my college life gave me back then.
"How's school?" I asked as I sat down on the dining table.
"It's stressful kuya. Since, we're graduating from senior high, they've lots of plates to dig in." Tanya said while they too take their seats.
"That's normal since you're a student." I respond
"You can say that since you're not in school anymore." Marcus said while he leans on the chair
"Making money is harder than you think." I said. Mom placed our food before us then we prayed and took our dinner. Being with them makes my heart at peace.
"Marcus and Tanya, have you decided a course for university?" Mom asked while we eat.
"I'm torn between law school or med school." Marcus casually said
"Can I go to med school?" Tanya asked
"Of course!" I butt in
"Don't worry Mom and Kuya, I am sure of the scholarship." Tanya smilingly said
"Don't push yourself too much. I got it even if you don't get scholarship." I said while looking at her
"Actually, I can get a recommendation for studying overseas if you Kuya and Mom approved of it. It's med school too." Marcus said
"That's even better then Mom can come there to look after you guys. Or are you planning to just go by yourselves and get loosed?" I said doubting
"C'mon kuya! We're blood related how can you say that." Tanya yelp
"As if you're saying it runs on the family." Marcus added then I was a bit embarrassed about it
"You guys went too far." I said tilting my head.
The dinner ended of us talking about the twins plans of university. They will be studying abroad and staying at our relatives home but I persuaded Mom to go with them since she's not agreeing to the plan. She wants to stay to look after me because of my heart condition but I assure her that I will be fine and she agreed to go with the twins.
I know my Mom's worries, my next check up is getting near and the chances of me finding a heart donor is 50/50. I've been searching for donors for the last 4 years and I fail all the time. I have 3 matches with my relatives but giving their hearts is not on my to do list. One of them is Mom. I'd rather die than taking their hearts selfishly. I was about to sleep when my phone rang. It's Rez.
"What's up." I said when I answered the phone
"Do you know that you're Mom is getting a regular check up at Mom's?" he asked
"No. I don't know for what reason but I think she's fine." I answered
"Then she might have been just a health conscious one. I'm just checking if everything's fine." he said
"Nah it's fine. I'll check up on her. Thanks." I said then ended the call.
Is she okay? I pondered then a thought came out of my mind. Is she doing it for me? Is she planning for a heart surgery? Has she been in contact with my doctor? I'm not gonna take away the mother of my siblings since I took their their father from them. I clenched my fists in my frustration. I took my phone again and called Rez's mom.
"Yes Kael?" she asked when she answered
"I won't beat around the bush so please be honest with me. Is Mom planning on heart transplant?" I asked and it was dead silence on the other side. I think I got the answer so I ended the call and was frustrated even more then I dialed my doctor's number.
"Did you tell mom about my heart?" I asked directly as soon as the call is connected
"I'm sorry. She's been constantly calling me and coming here personally to ask about it. I didn't know what to do and she's anxious about you. I couldn't help myself." he explained and I ended the call once again.
I stared at the ceiling of my room for a long time until I fall asleep.
IN THE DREAM
"You seem uneasy." Yuka said while handing me my coffee while she got herself a fruit tea
"You're really not a fan of coffee." I said while grinning
"Yeah but I don't hate it. So, have you found anything about this dream that has been happening to us?" she asked but I couldn't bring myself to talk so I sipped my coffee and stared blankly
"If you don't want to talk then just listen." she said then we exchange glances and she smiled.
"I was so happy today, you know what? It's teacher's month." then she giggled. "I received lots of letters from my pupils and their parents. They gave me gifts and all of that. It was such a happy day for me but nor for my one pupil. He's being teased for not getting me present so I got to seven eleven and bought a present. I pulled him over and told him to act like he has a present for me. So before we continued the class, I called him and he gave me the present. His classmates then stopped teasing him." then she glanced at me. She was smiling and excited while telling her day like I was the only person who can listen to her.
"You seem to like your job." I said
"It's noblest job after all." she responded
"Yeah, it is." I said
"We still have 5 minutes before the dream ends. Do you want to go for a walk?" she asked while looking at me. I glanced at her and began my story.
"I have a heart condition." I said then I look at her. "I will die without heart transplant and I have to do it this year or else, there won't be next year." then she pat my back and I chuckled
"I'm sorry, I don't know how to console you with that. That's a real hard core." she said
"It's fine. You know the hardest part?" I said glancing over but she was looking at me intently waiting for me to continue, "Mom wants to give her heart for me. I can't let it happen tho, I've taken my siblings father and I can't take their mother too." I said
"Well, you might have forgotten. They are your parents too." I was silenced. "Parents are the best at protecting their children, even giving their lives. For the children, it's selfish but for them, your lives matter most. But you know, too much can't be a good thing also." she said
Then I waked up from that dream. She has a point and now, I'm way more frustrated on what I should do. I walked to my bathroom to wash my face when I felt pain in my chest. It's has been hurting since that dream phenomenon.