"Shushin!" Xiao Yan's voice echoed in the dark corridor followed by the faint light of lit candles making the corridor illuminated with a warm orange color.
Shushin, who was wearing beautiful red clothes decorated with gold, and jewelry made of pure gold, stopped. Her black hair was flowing beautifully, and on top of it was her crown, which was not found in the country, and was made especially for her. She stopped walking but did not turn around.
"I still haven't forgiven you for being so reckless that night that you lost consciousness! Now what is this nonsense??"
Shushin replied without turning around, "This is normal for our kingdom to have a crown prince or princess. I don't want people to make fun of me because I don't follow the royal laws. Why does this bother you so much?"
Xiao Yan spoke, her voice sounded firm and deep, "Shushin. The queen and crown prince of the Xin family are being chosen. I am the eldest after you. I don't want to. Why are you forcing me to become this? I am not good enough like you to be."
Shushin only turned half her body, cold gaze without clear meaning, "Xiao Yan, don't evade fate, this is your fate, take it. Whether you deserve it or not is something that can be decided by us, but by the future. Every mistake and every right action will determine how worthy you are. ..I will also stop worrying. If you do not want this much, reject it and fight it, or accept it. I can ignore everything, until it becomes a tangible reality in front of me, then I cannot deny it."
It seems as if she is saying, even if the world is destroyed, as long as I do not know that truth it does not concern me. The moment I know that the world is being destroyed... then I must fight.
Unable to respond, the proud Xiao Yan, who would do anything to be a nuisance to her father, anything he didn't want suddenly became her desire, as if the more he asked for her to live the more she would want to die, with her head in the ground, she couldn't outshine that woman in front of her, not In her position, not in her strength, but she knows a truth that consoles her, "That woman is not happy." It is a truth that consoles her and hurts her, and cannot save her in the end. She is not a good woman. Two sides of the same coin, Xiao Yan and Shushin, they have a similar story, a similar hatred, a similar dream.
Xiao Yan spoke in a loud voice so that Shuchen could hear, "Shushen! So...what is your wish?"
Shushen smiled with the corner of her lips, and looked a little at the sky.. She thought.. (This is the first time someone has asked me about my wish.. Only passersby ask, perhaps because it is just a wish that has no value to them. No one asked me.. No one cared..)
Shoshin said, "What if I told you? Will you grant my wish? It may be very selfish, beyond what you are capable."
Xiao Yan laughed brightly, "As long as I live, there is no land, no request that I cannot reach, Shuchen."
Shuchen turned around. The wind moved her long hair in the air, with the warm lights reflecting on her. With that smile on her face, Xiao Yan's eyes widened as she looked at her, dazzled looks. Shuxin put her hands on her hair so that it wouldn't get into her eyes, "Don't cry. When you see that hideous world I walk in."
Xiao Yan whispered to herself as Shushen left, "It is impossible.. for a hideous world, to hold a charming and stunning woman like you..."
(Tomorrow, meeting hall)
Since it was an important event, despite the speed of the announcement, all the clans were gathered in the hall, even the officials, and all members of the royal family wore red. In the royal family, in all meetings and important matters, only the princes and princesses attend, all other family members, such as their father or grandchildren. Their opinions are not taken into account in any matters of the kingdom anymore. After the previous king stepped down from power, no senior person in the royal family has the right to interfere anymore. Shushin entered, with dignity and power, and sat on the throne. Since Tianyang was her husband, he usually had to sit in the audience, but he often stood next to her instead of sitting. Shushin spoke, "I bet you know why you are here today. It is the coronation of a crown princess. I intend to completely change this kingdom until the day I die. I will not let anything ridiculous happen. Any unjust person will be annihilated, and every good person will definitely not be forgotten."
Shushin went down the stairs and stood up. One of the servants handed her a piece of paper. Shushin grabbed it and called out, "For the sake of the kingdom and our ancestors who protected it, today, I, Shushin, the queen of this kingdom, Will crown Xin Xiaoyan as the crown princess."
Shushin approached Xiao Yan, cupped Xiao Yan's face in her hands, and brought her face close to Xiao Yan's ear, "You asked me yesterday, about my wish." Xiao Yan looked at her in confusion. Shushin turned to look at Xiao Yan, then whispered in her ear, "My wish is, to cheat fate."
Xiao Yan looked confused with no understanding of the matter. Shushin continued, "So take this crown with you, carry it in your heart and mind, until that moment comes. Live as it was meant for you. Live as if this is your destiny. Then this crown will be taken from you forever. Smile and laugh. When the hour of punishment comes, smile and laugh..." Shushin moved her face slightly and looked at Xiao Yan, "Then, blame your sins on me, say that I was born guilty. And I am.. a sin."
Xiao Yan's eyes widened, and before she knew it, her tears were pouring out like a flood. Shushin smiled warmly, her hands still surrounding Xiao Yan's face, "Let's throw this crown to someone who longs to be king, someone who longs to die for this country, let's be as selfish as we were told. Xiao Yan..." Shushin looked at Lu Yuxi..
Xiao Yan thought then, with a bitter reality, Shushin was always dark, one day bright, one day in pain, one day alone, one day far away, one day closer than the moon. She tried not to show it, but Xiao Yan knew... she knew that Shushin didn't know yet, which person she wanted. To be, she was baffled by how wonderful others were, because she did not only look at their faults, but rather contemplated every detail, but none of them noticed, except her own faults..
Tianyang was watching and watching every movement, he thought in his mind...except for Shushin, not even Shushin herself, he didn't know anything about those people, they were far away and lonely, everyone looked like each other, he wondered why despite their similarities they refused to be friends, It doesn't make sense for them to be spiteful for no reason. They plot schemes in secret, their eyes do not rest, endless comparison, ambitions they must achieve, despite how far heaven is from earth, he never noticed or realized, that these are the royal family, among the most powerful nobles in the kingdom, pure blood, but It always seems to be tainted, scheming, scheming... endless hatred and sadness. How can you console people who have not yet reached the age of 25, but whose fate is unclear? After they die, nothing will change. They are weak and helpless, living according to play, he can know this. Everyone looks out for each other, but if you get too close to others... you will be betrayed. This is a war. Their blood causes them an endless war. They are all uncovered weapons... the least talkative, the most talkative, they must always be careful, they do not know who will stab whom. Despite having lived among demons for a long time, it seems that it is more difficult to understand humans than demons. Demons have clear motives, themselves first, what matters to them first. As for humans, they are very changeable, very different, very unreliable..
Everyone bowed, except the royal family, "Long live the Crown Princess."
Shushin quickly wiped away Xiao Yan's tears with her hands, she smiled warmly, "We women don't cry on the battlefield, we smile proudly."
She grabbed Xiao Yan's body to make her turn around, came close to her ear and whispered, "Look and learn, how they worship you, and in a moment they stone you in public."
Shuxin turned around, showing her back to the people sitting, while Xiao Yan stood tall, not showing them.. That She was already defeated, Tian Yang looked at her, he looked at that flawless smile.. It was like an announcement to kill, as if one wrong move would cost everyone their lives. She smiles a lot, and with each smile it looks more like a threat. He does not know what is inside her, but he is sure... Shushin has completely changed, Shoshin has changed forever, she has new ambitions and desires. Worst of all, he will never leave her back. He did not long for much. It is enough for him to be by her side. For no one else to own her, even if he did not own her. If no one owned her, he would not have minded. He knows that it is selfish thinking, but he knows, this is not who he was. With a pure relationship. There was not a shred of purity left in their hearts.
These people do not seem to regret it, they will never realize that that little girl has already died, in the ocean, in the bed, and even her body does not belong to her... how lonely she is inside her... while she feels as if she is trapped in a transparent cube, for everyone to see. She sees them too, but she is intangible, unable to contain herself. The gazes of others penetrate her body. She feels like a tool, her body... her name... her soul... her life... her memories... it seems as if she wants to give up everything.