Ryan's POV
When i first met her, i find her cute. She's easy to approach not like the other girls when im just asking some question they will think that im flirting with them, but nics is not like them.
When i have a conversation with her, i found myself that im comfortable when im talking to her. As times passes i found out that im giving her a mixed signals that i didn't meant to. Im always confused why everyone asking me of ' Are you together with nics? ' i just laughed at them and says 'of course not, she's just like my little sister' and they said while they glaring at me like they want to kill me ' you sure?' 'yes duh' i said. 'then why are you being so sweet with her huh?' they said. 'what? well as i said she's just like my little sister, thats all. ' i response. As times goes by, i found myself liking her, but i'm not ready to commit and i don't want to hurt her, as she told me that she's scared to fall inlove because of her traumas in past.
That day, when she questioned me who's my crush i want to say 'you' but yes i'm not that guy who's willing to take a risk for her, i just can't.
This day when she confessed, i want to say to her that 'i like you too, when i first met you i know that i like you desperately . I want to be with you.' instead i say 'i like you too but i like you as a friend' yes i will regret this but i know its for good. I don't know how to love a girl properly especially her, she's precious, fragile and innocent. I can't take a risk for her, i don't want to hurt her after all.
I rejected her, its for good.
Ricky's POV
"hey Gerard, what do you think those two doing? " "what?who?" Gerard said "should i interrupted them? " ricky said " ahmm yeah its already 10 minutes break" Gerard response.
While walking towards to them, i heard nics confessed to ryan, and i heard ryan said she likes her but as a friend. I walked and interrupt them. as i see Ryan's eyes theres hesitation, i've got the feeling that maybe ryan likes nicole too but not as a friend. I like Ryan, but i know that he's not into guys. I like him anyway there's nothing wrong with that.
As the activities done, nics leave first with hannah and i see ryans eyes that he want to chase after nics but he can't, maybe there's something ryan can't do or he really likes her but can't pursue? i guess? i talk to ryan and i ask him if he wants to join me in my cycling later and he said no and he's busy later.
Well i kinda jealous to nics, you know the reason. she's a girl and im just a guy who loves a guy too. im scared to tell them the truth about myself because what if they will mock me and bully me and they will leave me like a disgusting trash? Anyway maybe i'll just admire ryan from afar and wait for a guy that will love me from who am i.
Gerard's POV
i love ricky. those eyes he has they're shining and hes smiles are bright. they're shining when he sees ryan and those bright smile. i know ricky was attracted to same sex. i don't know if im the only one who notices it, but anyway, i love ricky to the fullest. i hope one day your eyes shines too when you see me and those bright smiles i hope i'm the reason behind those beautiful smiles of ricky.
Meanwhile Hannah, said a secret to nics.
" aahm nics i know i can trust yoyuwith this" Hannah said "hmm what is it? " nics said "ryan really likes you but he said to me that he just can't take a risk for you" hannah response. " Ah nevermind that im not into relationship afterall. If someones love you or like you, they will take a risk for you, because they see its worth the risk." nics reply.
"ahm nics did you know jasper has a crush on me?" hannah ask " ahm yes, i think so? " nics said. "why do you say so?" "hmm maybe because of his eyes when he looks at you". hannah laugh and said "no way" nics ask " why? " "well i have a boyfriend already and we're ldr" nics shocks because she knows that hannah was single "WHAAAAT?!! you didn't even tell me ha! " "well you know duh lowkey" Hannah and nics bot laugh "so how many months your relationship are? " nics ask " what months? we've been 2years and counting" "ooohhh 2yrs i see" both laugh.