I had fallen asleep late again as was the case the last few nights.
It was time to wake up soon as I felt something in my chest feel like it was being tapped ready to be unleashed from the world and body.
I had kept it in as I realized I was in a deep sleep the feeling in my heart had stopped. It just felt like something had been delayed as if I hadn't had time to react.
I had woken up this time it was different but all too familiar like it was a time I'd seen before. I got up to see my now much smaller hands.
As I get up from my bed in my paper-walled room there was a sliding window that I tended to look out of before daybreak.
Now I only looked out to see the moon and the clouds around it. There was a soft breeze, familiar I reached my hand up to the moon as I thought, but not said aloud. "Your... Not going anywhere, are you?" Before I went out I decided it was time to face what this day held. As I go to the door I feel like something is dawning on me I then knew what would happen if I left my room.
I opened the door quietly, then quickly slide it back into place I walked down the hallway, where there were three other doors it seemed as if no one was awake. I continued down into the dining room which felt disheartening looking at it with no one sitting on the mats. I had remembered this now how this had went yet it for some reason I was the only one to face it this time I then saw a familiar figure when my eyes adjusted.
I could see him he stood tall above,but this was comforting I look up to see his face as something in me felt like holding onto his long white coat and not letting him go, as I was thinking this I could only stare at him. When I had gone back to reality. The man with ginger brown hair looked down at me the look in his eyes told me he already missed me.
He got down on one knee, now down close enough to my level his ocean-green hazel eyes looked like they were about ready to cry; but I felt as if he had a reason for what he was about to do. After saying what he was going to say he told me he loved me as he looked straight into my eyes, as he started to speak.
"I'm going to go and find out things that I'll come back that you'll love to see,
mysteries so many things"
He said as I could now hear in his voice the shakiness as he hugged me. I then thought quickly as the feeling was growing painfully, you've given enough I thought. He was now hugging me as we were both having tears stream down our faces silently.
I could feel my dad hold me tightly and I knew he was giving a pained smile, I hugged back tightly I was slightly panicking then I closed my eyes as I had my hand over his soft but short hair. It felt
, as if as soon as I felt him and his body embracing mine it was over he moved his arms away from me He then looked at me with his eyes now red he smiled and sniffled, smileing forcibly as if he was trying to buy into something he was trying to hold himself to.
I will come back when I've found
something worthwhile he thought to himself.
"I will return when I come back will you be here?" he asked quietly and solemnly.
I only nodded before he then reached toward the door after, giving me a kiss on the forehead he went through the doorway as the doorway was only made up of a noren.
I then remember how so many times I had heard of him knocking his head on the doorway but he had become accustomed to it.
I then saw the light outside I felt like knowing where it lead but something tugged me to stay not physically but my emotions I look around as I had I felt another familiar presence.
I didn't hear or feel her usual stirring as I remembered her sincere smile. I walked over to where I felt this presence. I then saw her with her long blonde hair down which was unusual and only made me feel shaken as I became aware of the light above us.
I then saw my mom with her blue eyes that looked dim but as soon as she saw me it looked like her eyes lightened a bit and she gave a small smile; I felt this was only to comfort me I sat next to her quietly she then opened her mouth I then felt slightly relived as she said.
'We'll be alright "
As she held my hands and looked at me I felt like I was in cold water her lack of energy was disturbing.
I could only hold her hands, I felt I couldn't really look at her so I rest my head on her shoulder then gave her a hug she then sat there for a few seconds and then put her arms around me.
I knew what was happening wouldn't just stop happening or the feelings, I would mean wouldn't stop but I didn't know if it would get worse here either.
I then heard the door to my room open swiftly but not hit the side doorway to which it was affixed.
Everything before me went dark it then felt as if it melted before me I started reaching out trying to make sense of things. "Ma- Mom," I said quietly as I reached out.
I then heard familiar footsteps walk towards my bed. I opened one eye and