shouldn't you be like locked up in a hospital where you shouldn't move? " Alex asked me as she helped me to literature class, one hand around my shoulder and the second one around my waist.
" would you like to be rid of me? " I asked her with a frown
" no.. You are just too impossible.. Just use your crutches to walk Betty. The doctor gave you for a reason " she said
" yeah he gave me to make me look stupid. Not happening " I said and continued to work.
" you know I'm going to be late for my own class Betty so let's increase the pace " she said holding me tightly.
" don't I look like I'm already in a lot of pain just walking like this " I hissed out in pain and stared at Alex but guess what, she wasn't listening..
" Alex " I yelled and followed her glance to where Cole was, I can't forget what he looked like, he is the only white haired boy in this school so excuse me for recognizing him.
" bye Betty " Alex said walking away. I thought she was scared of getting to her history class late. The idiot is gawking at a guy now...
" Alex! Alex!! " I yelled but who am I kidding?. She is gone, I could see her drooling over Cole who was talking to some bunch of girls by a locker. I'm sure she would wish to be the locker he was leaning on right now...
I rolled my eyes at her before facing the languages hall and limping my way to literature class. Trust me, this is the worst decision ever and my ankle hurt so much. I kind of regret not having those stupid crutches around now to walk. I stopped and rested my back on the wall, closing my eyes.
" you look stressed out. " a voice .. A lady's voice to be precise said and I opened my eyes immediately, only to be greeted with a familiar hazel eyes and blonde hair... Cheryl
" oh hi.. " I said and forced a smile. " I'm having technical difficulties " I said again but this time I raised my bandaged leg out for her to see.
" oh my god are you okay? " she gushed out, her voice laced with concern . " wait what am I kidding? You certainly don't look okay " she said touching my hand. I don't like being touched my anyone but I actually found myself letting her touch me, just like I let that Shawn guy touch me. I don't know. My conscience felt like I could trust them and so I'm trying to do just that.
" I'm fine really, except a few jolt of pain that goes through the leg when I put it down " I muttered and smiled genuinely.
" I also guess you are not a crutches person. Where are you headed to. I'm going to my history class " she said and I couldn't help but notice the book in her hand, she wasn't carrying a bag and she wore a black high waist skirt and a purple flannel top with a black high heel boots.
" oh okay.. I have literature now and my so called best friend ditched me for one of the popular dudes " I said and rolled my eyes, she burst out laughing
" I know that feeling, it feels like I'm the only girl that doesn't moon and drool over those guys, probably because I spend most of my life hanging out with them. Trust me they are douche bags " she said and chuckled.
" that's makes two of us then " I said and smiled at her. She suddenly moved forward and holds my shoulder and smile.
" I will help you to your literature class " she said and I nodded and we walked to my class. As I got to the front of the class, hopefully the teacher wasn't around yet so Cheryl walked me into the class and to a seat in the middle roll. People sure were staring and whispering.
" are you not feeling weird under their gazes? " I asked as I stared at the people in the hall.
" I ignore them. Give me your phone " she said and I stared at her for a while. When I saw that she had a serious expression on her face I retrieved my phone from my pocket and handed it to her..
" okay I stored my number on it " she said and smiled before returning it back to me.
" call me or text me if you need an escort to another class " she said with her lips formed in a smile. I nodded my head.
" sure thanks. Hurry to your class " I said.
" oh I almost forgot.. See you Eliza " she said before leaving my class. She just called me Eliza again and I let her. I let her get close to me. Part of me wants to tell her to buzz off but another part wants to be friends. I tucked my phone back into my pocket and stared around. Normally Alex should be here but history crashed with literature so she is in history, im in literature so we will share notes later... People were still staring at me weirdly and it was starting to be so annoying so I placed my head on the locker in hope of getting little sleep before the teacher comes.
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" hi darling " mum said as she opened the door for me. I told her not to pick me after school but she wouldn't listen, she said since she took a leave to spend time with me, she will spend time with me and I remember telling her to not come to school... I can take the bus. I know it will be hard but I can...
" thanks " I muttered and shut the door after taking my seat in the passengers seat. I buckled my seatbelt and stared at her with a wide smile.
" how was school honey? " mum asked as she pulls the car out of the school parking lot and into the road
" school was okay mum. It was better " I answered truthfully.
" that's great to hear honey. So how about inviting Alex over for dinner today? " she asked smiling
" no thanks. Alex is busy today " I lied and faced the window
" I know you are lying honey " mum said and sighed " you know he can't find us here. " she continued
" how do you know that mum. I don't want to endanger any of my friends " I said frowning.
" if he could he would have found us by now honey so just try to let go.. Its the past honey " mum said again.
" I wish I could believe you. " I stated before closing my eyes as I rested my back against the seat. Mum sighed and stopped talking which I'm thankful for because if we kept on taking about this, I don't know what I would do.
The last thing I knew was mum driving into our street when I fell asleep.
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BEGINNING OF FLASHBACK::
" you know I'd prefer if you just picked chocolate alone Dena " I muttered and smiled.
" what would be the fun in that?. Eliza trust me mixing chocolate and vanilla is like being in heaven. " she said
" oh please... Chocolate is pure bliss " I said rolling my eyes at her at which she just giggled before we took our orders to our favorite spot in the cafe, the seat beside the glass window, its nice how you can look at the waves in the ocean while stuffing your face with ice cream.
" you are obsessed with chocolate " Dena said and I stared at her.
" no I'm not " I countered
" yes you are.." She said and I crossed my hands over my breast as I gave her a grim look.
" prove it, name one account that I was obsessed with chocolate " I said to her, She smiled.
" easy, what girl's favorite color is brown " she said staring at me with a smirk.
" my favorite color isn't just brown, its chocolate brown " I corrected and took another scoop of my ice cream.
" see... " she said raising her eyebrow to show she had the upper hand.
" I bet you can't prove your point again " I said
" oh I can. Remember Ashley's birthday, in the fifth grade? " she said giving me a sly smile. Oh I hate that smile.
" I didn't push her " I said and she stared at me with the really look. " okay I pushed her but not that badly " I muttered in a low tone.
" oh you pushed her badly Eliza. She lost three of her front tooth and she was in the hospital for two months " she said smiling.
" whatever " I groaned and she chuckled before taking a bite of her sorry excuse of ice cream.
" I win and you know it " she said batting her eyelashes at me in triumph.
" ohh hogwash " I wave and smile. " so how are things with Miranda? " I said looking at her.
" I'd appreciate it if you don't call my mum that when we are together. It makes me feel like you guys are fucking behind my back " she cringed and scrunched up her nose in disgust.
" fine Radena but I'm not the lesbian here... " I said smiling
" whatever.. I am a lesbian I know you should be glad I'm not making passes at you " she said and winked at me.
" have you started watching sex education again Dena? " I asked her as I rolled my eyes. " because you sound like a sex crazed lesbian teenager" I said smiling.
" maybe I am.. Enough about me. What's up with Bryce? " she asked winking at me.
" I want to take things slow " I muttered.
" by that I'm guessing you mean you will forever stalk him like a psycho " she said rolling her eyes..
" nooo " I said .. Trust me 100% sarcasm
" sarcasm doesn't work on me. Ask him out Eliza .. " she said
" I don't know... " I said scratching the back of my head.
" you better know or you will die a virgin and someone who had never kissed for that matter " she said in finality.
" we are 14 Dena ... We can't die virgins, we still have a lot of places to go in life " I said and she waved her hand in disapproval.
" you will never know Eliza ." she said
END OF FLASHBACK::
Radena's words kept Playing in my head that night as I tried to sleep. A year after that I lost her, she was gone and she can never come back. I wish I could take the hands of time back, just to be able to hug her one more time .. Just one more time but I can't do that. Mum isn't right, everything will never be fine because I will never get close to someone else like Radena because no one could ever replace her....
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After opening my eyes all night, mum wakes me up exactly 7am because of school. I hate this damn school so much. I got out of the bathroom dripping with water as I sat in front of the mirror, I dried my red curly hair with the drier and I decided to let it down and not pack it up. I took out a black jean shorts and I wore my pink crop top before finishing it with my pink canvas and then I grabbed my bag and tucked in all my assignments before leaving for the kitchen.
" morning . you look nice honey " mum said handling me an apple which I was grateful for. I had my crutches with me today because I wanted to be less independent.
" thanks mum. " I muttered and I walked to the door and I grabbed my hoodie off the cloth rack before mum ushers me out of the house.
After settling in the car, we drove to school in silence. I peeked at mum to see that she had eyes bags under her eyes.. Didn't she sleep?.. Why?
" okay here we are " mum said and I broke out of my trance .
" okay see you later mum. Don't over work yourself " I said and got down from the car with the help of the crutches.
" do you need me to walk you into the school? " she asked me sweetly.
" no mum. I will be fine.. Bye " I said and I blew a kiss at her before walking inside the school with a smile on my face....