The ultrasound was done and I could only accept the fact that I was indeed pregnant with Leonardo's child, 6 weeks old to be exact. Dr. Grace knew we weren't a couple, and we asked her to keep this secret. but I don't know how long this will be a secret because surely my stomach will grow if I don't abort it.
"Can I just abort it?" I asked in desperation.
Leonardo suddenly stopped his car until I was shaken.
"You crazy!" he snapped, staring at me breathlessly.
I just kept silent with my head down, and my tears started to fall.
"You want to be a killer? Are you out of your mind again, huh?" Leonardo wondered.
"I'm confused, I don't know what to do. Sebastian will leave me, he will hate me!" I insisted in frustration.
"If you abort the baby just because you're afraid of losing Sebastian, that's the same as you're crazy. How can you think that, huh?" Leonardo grabbed my hand. "That's a shortsighted, cringy, and very stupid thought. And I'm not going to let that happen. I'm not going to let you kill my baby!"
"I know, I know this is a crazy idea, but can you find a solution other than aborting it?" I asked loudly.
"The solution is to let it grow, be born... and I will raise it, I will be responsible!" he answered angrily.
I was silent, imagining what if people found out I was pregnant without a husband, it would be embarrassing, even my father would be very ashamed, and I also don't want to lose Sebastian. I don't even know how to tell him and make him understand that I don't want this either, I'm afraid to face his anger, even I'm afraid to face Zoe.
"I will marry you," Leonardo said suddenly, making me glance at him, not expecting him to say that.
"I know your family will be very angry, they will be ashamed of your condition of being pregnant without a husband. So, I will marry you," he said again.
"You can't do that, I don't want to marry you!" I said out loud, hating him even more. "You have to think about Zoe's feelings, Sebastian, and I also don't think I can marry you even though I'm carrying your child. You have to think about it, how can a woman marry a man she hates?"
he was quiet and kept looking at me as if thinking about something.
"I only love my boyfriend, I don't want to lose him after our hard to get the blessing of my parents!" I said with tears falling again, because every time I remember Sebastian, I will always feel guilty. and indeed I was wrong.
"But that doesn't mean you can be a killer for your child, that's a gift, God who destined it to be in your womb!" he replied angrily.
"Then what's your plan? What's your solution besides marrying me?"
"Nothing..." he shook his head. "I'm also confused, but for sure I will be responsible."
"Stupids!"
I'm getting fed up, immediately take off the seatbelt on my body because I want to go.
"Hey, where are you going?" he asked.
"I better go, this talk is meaningless!" I immediately opened the door but can't.
"You can't go ..."
I turned to him, and saw his annoying and stupid face, with a pleading expression. Ugh, that just made me hate him even more.
"Open the door!" I asked with wide eyes.
He shook his head. "I wouldn't...I knew you would do bad things...you want to kill that baby!" he said.
"Maybe it's just a solution... before it's big and before many people know about its existence!"
"No!" he shouted, then fastened the seatbelt on my body impatiently. "I don't want you to kill it. It's my first child and I also don't want you to be in danger. You have to know that abortion is a dangerous act for you. You could die, or get sick or not even get the chance to have another child, or maybe you will fail to abort it but it will be born with deformities!"
I was silent out of breath and shaking my body, immediately afraid of the abortion plan. but if I can't abort it, then what will be my fate? I couldn't even stop wondering how Dad and Sebastian would respond, Leonardo's family, my friends, Zoe ... images of chaos swirled through my head.
"We need to talk about this calmly, no rush!" he said again, this time he didn't snap at me. "Sorry... I didn't mean to be rude to you..."
I cried, covering my face with my palms.
"Okay ... we're back to the mansion now. You should rest," he said while holding my shoulder.
I'm just silent, keep crying.
"Georgina..."
I immediately turned to him. "I won't be able to rest in peace until we can find a solution!" I said in tears.
"The solution is that I am responsible. We can get married or maybe co-parenting... but.. but I'm not sure your parents will allow that. Of course, they want you to get married before people know that you are pregnant before marriage," he said with an anxious look.
"But I don't want to marry you, I just want Sebastian!"I emphasized again, imagining that if I did have to marry Leonardo, my life would probably be like hell because he was so annoying and I would have wanted Sebastian anyway, and Zoe would have been very disappointed.
"Okay fine…" he sighed.
I paused, leaning my head. I looked forward limply, my body felt very uncomfortable.
"Before your parents or anyone else knows about who the father of the baby is, maybe you can say that it is Sebastian's child. But before that I have to say all of this to Sebastian so your parents won't force me to marry you," he said with a resigned look. "I have to talk to Sebastian, I have to make sure that he is willing to replace me to be responsible as you want... I also have to make sure that he will love that child, after all, it is mine... even if you and he will raise it, it is still my child. One day you will have to tell the truth," he continued.
I paused, feeling what he said was true. "But I'm not sure if Sebastian will accept this," I said.
"I will talk to him, we will explain everything so he understands. And if he loves you then he will be willing to marry you," Leonardo replied, brushing the hair that covered my cheek. "You have to be steadfast, strong... This is the only way than aborting it...I don't want you to be in danger, I don't want to lose my child, and I don't want us to become sinners," he continued.
I sighed, trying to calm down and think positively by imagining that Sebastian would understand all of this and decide to get married, and then we would live happily. Yeah, I have to stay optimistic so I don't get dizzy, I don't want to imagine a bad reality.
"We'll see Sebastian later," he said.
"The sooner the better," I replied.
Leonardo glanced at his watch, then stared ahead as if in thought.
I was silent, holding my flat stomach. today is like a dream, it turns out that I will become a mother and soon I will get married if Sebastian wants to be responsible. But what if he doesn't want? maybe I should marry Leonardo?
.'No can't. I don't want our relationship to end, and I don't want to marry him either… I hate him!' I thought while glancing at Leonardo who even daydreaming...
"We'll meet him this afternoon," he said, turning to me. ."You call him... ask him to wait at the cafe," he continued.
"Are you going to tell Zoe too?" I ask.
"No... that will only add to the problem," he replied as he turned his head away. "But she has to know that Sebastian doesn't want to take responsibility."
"Why?"
."Just call Sebastian," he asked without wanting to answer me.
"Ok..." trembling, I immediately sent a message to Sebastian. I'm so excited, imagining How Leonardo would begin this confession, and how Sebastian would react. This feels like I have to prepare before going to war because I know any man would be very angry when his girlfriend got pregnant by another man.