As per our call conversation I reach inside the park but a little early, feeling excited (to share my thoughts and feelings with her) and usual she come late but when she come, sit beside I notice how happy she is and her face is glowing and this brought a smile on my smile. As soon as she settled down on the bench beside me she start speaking...
Vihaa: (Excited and all happy) Hey kiddo, how are you? How things going on?
Me: (Smiling brightly, trying my level match her level of excitements and happiness) Everything is perfect, I am having so much fun in the university. You know I have some friends there and I will be going to MTC camp next month.
Mind: Huhhh why the hell you are lying?
Vihaa: Wow that's really great, I am so much proud of you
Me: Yeah, by the way how your trip? All shopping done?
Vihaa: O yeah everything is done and when you will see those dresses then you are definitely going to love them. You know trip was so much amazing, I had so much fun in eating different styles of Indian food plus the place was beautiful too. I just love it so much in face, my cousin and Aunt too.
Me: That's really great and what more things happened?
Vihaa: We visited some....
And with this she start narrating the whole scenes that happened during the trip, initially, I actively hear whatever she is saying but later on I got lost inside the voices of my head...
Mind: Bro, one thing that I don't understand this is why you lied you had a chance to speak up the truth.
Me: I was unable to do so because she was so happy. I don't want her to go sad or disturbed her, telling my boring stories.
Mind: Huhh but you so wanted to tell her about these things, you were literally waiting to do so and you were excited.
Me: I know but look at her man, how much happy she looks.
Mind: Okay but what about you now, I mean those incidents that happened or the feelings that you are feeling.. now with whom you will share these?
Me: I don't know but about one which I am sure about is that, I am not going to ruin her happiness and her excitement.
Mind: Okay.
After this I come back to my senses and continued to listen what Vihaa is still saying, in between the conversation I sometimes say 'hmmm, ohh, great, wow' for her to know that I am actively listening to her. Just like this almost two hours passed, she keep talking and I keep listening, however, soon our parents called us to know where are we and when are we coming back so, later we go back to our houses.
After getting fresh, I walk out of my room towards the dining area to have my dinner with my parent but unfortunately it was a full house i.e. whole family is present there including granny and aunt too. And seeing them there my mood got ruined a little but whenever I start to feel sad or upset I see happy and excited face of Vihaa inside my head then I become happy again.
Well, I joined everyone at the dining table, like as usual they are eating the food in complete silence and seeing them like this some thoughts pop up inside my head...
why can't they be like other normal families? doesn't they feel too much suffocated with these silences? how come relationships or people's become so much complicated that they, enjoy these silences? I don't know why but such personalities traits excites me to know more about them, to have deep knowledge about it?
Fortunately, none of them speak up anything and with these thoughts inside my head I keep my self entertained through out this silent dinner. After having their dinner, all of them move out of the dining room towards their rooms except me and mother because she start cleaning the table and I helped her in the process, well, while doing this.. the silence continued but I start getting bored of it so, I start humming a random song.
Once the table got cleaned, remaining food settled in the fridge in some spared bowls we two also moved inside out respective rooms. I closed the room door behind me, I walk towards the study table then settled down the beside the chair and after five minutes or so I start working on my assignment. An hour may have passed while I am working on it, suddenly I hear my phone ringing and without seeing it the answered the call with my left hand and while I keep continuing to write with my right hand...
Me: Hello.
Voice: (Serious tone) Hey Siya.
Me: (Immediately, I stop writing and getting concerned) What happened Vihaa, is everything okay?
Vihaa: (Still serious tone) You really think you can lie to me about your feelings?
Me: (Confused) What do you mean?
Vihaa: Why did you lied about how are you and how your days went in the school?
Me: (Before saying anything, I took a deep breath then speak up) When I saw you, you we were so happy and there is this glow of excitement in you that I don't want to ruin it with my boring story.
Vihaa: (Scolding tone) Are you mad?
Me: But...
Vihaa: (Scolding tone) Just shup up okay? I agree that I was happy, I have excitement for the future but this does not mean at all that with the arrival of someone new the old one should be forgotten or ignored. You are just like my sister and you will be like that forever, no matter who will be coming life or not. Got it.
Me: (Smiling) Okay teacher got it, now relax okay.
Vihaa: Hmmm I will pick you up from the university in the evening, when your classes get over. Okay? We will eat our dinner outside and you will be back home before nine, let aunty know okay.
Me: Okay boss, I let her know.
Vihaa: Okay, good night.
Me: Good night.
After this she hang up the call, while smiling I keep the phone back on it place that is beside my books. I closed my book then open my diary so, I could write my thoughts in it....
like her name she is really something auspicious morning, don't know how but she makes my life beautiful. There is just something in her that, whenever we had talk by the end of it I am smiling. Honestly, after seeing her today, I never wanted to tell her what I going through in the university because...
somehow, her happiness seemed so beautiful to me that I couldn't even express my feelings to her. The happiness of those new moments was shining in her eyes as if in the very next moment that moment would be hers.
I don't know why I am like this, but for the happiness of others I can keep my pain, sorrow aside and if this may lead me suffocation but I will do so without any regret.
sometimes it feels like even though god has taken away some people from me but in return he has given me a person like Vihaa... she is really blessing for me. I think she is one of the companion or a friend for me which I always craved for me.
And with these thoughts, in my mind I call it a night in granny's room around one in the morning.
Next day passed smoothly in the university, fortunately no scene happened. The moment last lecture ended, I felt the vibration of my phone which is in my hand. I look at the message which I got from Vihaa...
Vihaa: Kiddo, I am waiting for you at the front of the university gate but you just have the cross the road and there I will be okay?
Me: Yeah okay.
After texting her back, I walk out of the room with Asher walk beside the home and when we reach at the university gate, we bid our good byes to each other then I follow what Vihaa told me i.e. I cross the road there I found her sitting in the car. I go towards the passenger side door and seeing me there she open the door from inside, once I settled down inside the car she drive away towards the café/restaurants where we will be eating the dinner, today.
Almost after an hour drive we reach our destination which is a family restaurant for a change because, she usually take me where she can have drinks too plus some non-vegetarian food. Well, I am okay with any of the place because I believe in spending time with the person rather then looking at the ambience. Once she is done with the parking, we move out of the car and enter inside the restaurant, as usual she choose a corner seat for us to sit down.
The moment we settled down a waiter come with a tray in his hands, that tray has water glass for us and menu on it. Once we are done with ordering our food, Vihaa started talking immediately...
Vihaa: So tell me the truth how things are going on in the university?
Me: Okay.
After this I start telling her what is happening in the university with me, I skip the details of Michiko's story but I tell her what kind of connection I am sharing with four of them (i.e. Asher, Michiko, Savannah and Carissa). I also told her about how much uncomfortable I felt with Savannah and Carissa but still I tolerate them because of Asher. By end of my story I also told her about a week day trip of military training camp.
The moment I stop speaking I drink a half glass of water, then I sit their feel light and suddenly mind speak up...
Mind: Wow, can you feel it too bro? This feeling of light headed is something which I love to feel the most.
Me: Yeah I can feel it, I never knew sharing feelings, thoughts can be so relaxing.
Mind: That's why I was telling you to speak but why would you? huhhh you are always concerned about the happiness of others.
Me: What can I do my heart always force me to think about others rather then myself.
Mind: Huhh screw your heart and for once become a little selfish just think about yourself.
Before I could speak up anything else, I come back to real world hearing waiter's voice...
Waiter: Ma'am please remove your hands from the table so, I can keep your food here.
Me: (Hurriedly, keeping my hand on my lap) Ohh yeah, I am sorry for the trouble.
Vihaa: (With raised eyebrows) What you were thinking Siya?
Me: (Rubbing the back of my neck) Nothing important.
Once the waiter done with the food serving he went away and while serving it on our respective plates, Vihaa start speaking...
Vihaa: (Smiling) A lot happened with you in these days but I am very proud of you that finally you have some friends in the university.
Me: (Scoffing) Huhh really? You call them friend I mean how can they be, I just told you about my connection with them.
Vihaa: (Chuckling lightly) See, no matter what but when we connect with someone we can't expect them to be perfect, everyone has there own flaws.
Me: Ohh okay.
Vihaa: You know since we met I have never hear you speaking or being with someone else but look at now, you have these four girls around you and for me no doubt this is a very proudful thing so, I am happy.
Me: Okay.
Vihaa: (Getting serious) However, I will say this one thing, no need to interfere in their life too much. Just learn to keep a balanced friendship, be with them but don't loose your focus on studies because getting a degree is not an easy task. Kiddo, I know you are giving your best and keep doing it, I know in the end you will be successful okay?
Me: (Smiling brightly) Umm you know it feels great, I mean knowing that someone have faith in me.
Vihaa: And I will always have this faith in you because I know you can do it.
Me: Hmm okay.
After this we start eating our food, in between we keep talking about other light topics too and just like this whole dinner goes. Once our dinner got over we move, she pay the bill and we move out the restaurant, when we sit inside the car then I take some cash from my purse and give her. And of she doesn't take that easily but me being a stubborn give her anyhow. Soon we move towards hour house, listening to music.
After reaching home I go and fresh up, change into night clothes then I directly walk out of the room towards granny's room because its already ten thirty in the night so, what will I do for half n hour in my room. When I reach inside the room with my water bottle, phone and earphones in the granny's room, as usual I found her already sleeping. Soon I got settled down on the bed, start searching some story to read for today but for a change I start feeling sleepy around eleven thirty.
And I keep the phone aside, calling it a night with a smile on my face.