I was distracted by the hidden door inside the library. I forgot about the Christian conversation about him. He went back on time. I welcomed him back. He went up and hugged me. It's like my dog in my original life; I can see its tail wagging. We ate dinner, then he spoke, "Do you remember what I said last night?" I asked him, "About last night, being a saint, is it about that fairytale?" He looks at me surprised and says, "You actually read that." Like I always read text books that people hate to read, I find a few of them entertaining, especially that one that researches how kingdoms get destroyed in the name of love. It's amazing.
I rarely read children's books, but this one piqued my interest because it was somewhat related to the church: "I am still part of the church, so of course I would read it; the more information, the better." I told him we sat outside in the garden, where I ate my snack. The marble gazebo with built-in table and chair that connects to the pillars is wide enough to accommodate four people sitting together, and with the warm orange light from the magic lamps, I thought, 'The color of the lights always changes the vibe of the room'. I like this color at night; it's mild and dreamy. He looked at me and said, "I was declared a hero, so I must take the responsibility of killing the demon lord. I devised a plan and proceeded to destroy the demon lord. I didn't expect the demon lord to be extremely powerful. I just thought of giving up if I died there; maybe we could meet again." I looked at him, my eyes glistening with tears. I already knew I was extremely selfish, but I never knew it could cause others grieving pain.
"I can't do that the person that killed you is still alive, and I don't want things left you with the memories of yours will just disappear and i know you wouldn't want me to" he spoke and i looked at him i can feel his exhaustion through his voice, i pushed his head down on my lap let him lay comfortably he was bewildered then i put his hands on his head played with his hair i closed my eyes in delight then told him looking down on him like this reminds me of the past cute teenage youth but now his face much more refined i spoke "before, i would have been angry for what you did if you died I don't like nonsense and stupid decisions" i paused "but i will never wanted you to suffer for the pain i given you, you should have just forgotten anything about me, just like anyone that dies without any meaning at all, think of it like 'a stupid woman just died for the sake of a innocent person' its stupidity at its peak" I looked down on him, looking miserable. My eyes pooled with unshed tears as I looked up and breathed in the night air. I calmed down.
he didn't reply closing his eyes like he is trying to recall painful memories to him from the time i left, he continued "i fought and lived only for the sake of revenge i finished the demon lord and brought glory to the kingdom the king was ecstatic and shrewd he used my accomplishments for his benefits, and sending me women so i could produce a heir, i got angry i confronted him about them he could answer me i proposed that i wanted to have 5 years exemption of punishment for killing" i look at him unsettled 'he is crazy' i thought, he continued "he got infuriated i told him the royal family will not be included in the killing he calmed down a little bit" he looked at me and held my hands that stopped stroking his hair in nervousness.
I got chills but i played along, i saw my hands is getting fiddled, i didn't thing his hands would grew this wide i held his hand and with curiosity he saw this he halted his story and proceeded to open his hand wider i placed my hands on top of his and the size difference is outlined i started to imagine the blood on this man hands came from my idiotic decision but 'fate despised me, i cant escape them' i thought, i places his hand on my cheek trying to feel the warmth of a human body, he looked mesmerized i told him "I'm okay just little bit startled" i have killed people as well i also did torture on my own 'my life in the 13th is not merciful' but if others did it especially people that i have low guard against can't help but freeze up, even if i spend years with them together they are still strangers to me.
I looked at him and told him to continue his story. He continued, He made more demands; I agreed to some of them and refused most of them; I made sure that he would agree to my terms; I forced him into a corner, delaying his profits; the army and the people are in my power; he agreed. I looked up, signed, and spoke. When I first met the king, he was obnoxious, flaunting his wealth and forgetting the importance of his people. I talked to his aide before and offered him to join me instead, but he refused. I looked at him and smiled. You already got to him first". He looked at me with no emotions and told me, "He likes you; he likes to join you, but I refused; he is incapable of protecting you; during the previous life you were announced to beheaded; he tried to stop it, but it was too late." He suddenly called, "Ulysses, come out." A familiar person appeared in a black shadow a butler outfit with long green hair tied beside his shoulders and vibrant hazel eyes. "Yes, how can I help you?" He bowed and looked straight into his eyes.
"Aide Ulysses, how are you?" I asked the person across the round table. He just bowed and said, "I'm okay," but he didn't meet my eyes while saying them. I looked down, meeting Christians eyes. He smirked in ridicule. "Get me some shawls and blankets and any kind of snack; it's okay if it's leftovers." He replied, "I understand." Before he left, I spoke in a whisper "I'm sorry; don't forgive me". His walk halted, and then he left. Ulysses must have also known the truth of the past. 'I want to leave so bad. Everything I shamed upon is here eating me alive. He looked at me like he was enjoying my retribution. I got annoyed and slapped his forehead to defuse the tension around us. "You laughing? Is it funny?" Spoke I smiled at him dangerously, and he instantly reverted to his poker face. And he spoke, "I started searching for clues about you." I thought, I'm trying to run away, but I listened. He sighed in relief, then continued, "I found the duke's hidden fraction and illegal information about him. I also found out about the crown prince's involvement in fraud. I announced it to the kingdom about everything and told everything the truth to the civilians." He looked at me sharply. "I also found your collaborations with him, just one transaction that was to shoulder every illegal action that was supposedly used to frame me, but you took them upon yourself."