Rollan Pov's
When I heard Ridwan's clarification, I clenched my fists in anger. How could Mom do such a bad thing? But, for a moment, I was confused and honestly didn't know what to do in this case.
"Sir, you knew what you had to do, didn't you?"
"I do, Ridwan, but let me think for a while."
"Alright, then I'll excuse myself, sir," Ridwan said, leaving my office.
When he left, I lit my cigarette. I was overwhelmed with strange emotions I hadn't felt in a long time. After Ayu's appearance in my life, I felt a surge of fear and worry that I hadn't felt in years.
After breaking up with Ayu, I wasn't interested in women at all. Sure, I fucked them, but I did it as discreetly as possible. Their bodies meant nothing to me, as they were just bodies that I slept with in the hotel when I needed them and left behind when I had satisfied my desires.
But Ayuma, let alone being able to satisfy my desires, I couldn't even touch. But that girl had even managed to satisfied my desire without touch her.
I put the cigarette in the ashtray, and sometimes I see my reflection in the glass. I saw the figure of a cold and heartless man. Devoid of feelings and a monster. And my eyes were like a freezing and murderous maze.
I was the epitome of a demon converted into a human.
Would I be more evil than the devil, like my father? Killing his family to preserve his rule and show his might.
But I am not my father. I may be a devil, but I'm sure even a devil would never hurt his mother for the sake of the woman he loves.
After that, I walked to Ayu's room with thoughts raging in my head. All of Ridwan's words were like a slap that had hit me very hard, but I would protect them both.
I opened the door to her unlocked room. My girl was standing by the balcony, her long black hair fluttering in the wind. She was wearing pink pajamas with short sleeves. She has a beautiful body shape.
She didn't even turn her head when I arrived.
"Hi, beauty," I greeted her. "Are you okay right now?"
Silence. She didn't answer; she just turned her head briefly, and I gulped. Her lips were the most beautiful I'd ever seen and had always dreamed of.
My cock is trembling, rebelling to be inside her mouth and damn it, it wasn't me who was there in the first place, but that stupid, cowardly man, Bastian, who willingly gave it to me just to pay his company's debts.
I felt terrible remembering that, but now this woman was in my power.
I try to touch her hair, but Ayu quickly shakes off my hand, and she shoots me a disgusted look.
"Don't ever touch me with your filthy hands, Rollan!" she snapped in an annoyed voice.
I took a deep breath and pulled my hand back. "I apologize for touching you without permission, beauty," I said with a smile.
"You should also apologize for taking me without my consent!"
"I apologize for everything, Ayu."
"I'll only forgive you if you let me go!"
"Ayu, listen..."
"If you won't let me go, don't talk to me!"
After saying that, she went into her room and lay down on the bed.
"When you leave, please lock the balcony. I don't want to be tempted to commit suicide by being cooped up around you."
I laughed and sat beside her. "Look, you won't die by suicide; I'll always protect you, no matter what."
"Wow, you're getting disgusting, Rollan! Get off me!" She yells in irritation and kicks me, then turns her back on me.
I was laughing. Oh God, this girl is my weakness. Her cries, her laughter, and her moans are all my dreams. I can't stand the kind of fragility she shows me. I wanted her to seduce me, to tease me, to make me go crazy under her control, but now it seemed like I was the one who had to do the tugging for her.
"Do you want to talk to your husband? If you want, you can talk to him again," I said with a smile.
It worked! She turned her head and got up after lying down.
"I will ask Ridwan to give you your cell phone again. You're free to use it; you can also leave if you get tired of being here, but..."
"But you won't really release me; is that what you mean?"
"Yes," I answered honestly. Even though I had to be strict with her, I didn't want her rebellion to harm me. She was my weakness, but I didn't want to look weak in front of my enemies. "You will get your freedom, but with conditions."
"Conditions?"
"Yes, you can only go with the people I appoint. You cannot go near your father or contact him again; you cannot be near your husband; even if you are in the same room with him, you must have distance.
"You're crazy, Rollan!" she shouted in frustration.
"I've been good to you, Ayu!" I said it firmly. "I didn't treat you like a prisoner; you're free to do whatever you want." What else do you want?"
"What do I want? All I want is my freedom, Rollan! I don't want my life in your hands!" she shouted in anger and frustration.
"Don't be a hypocrite, Ayu!" I was getting annoyed. "What you find with me is so much better than being with your husband or your family! Your husband or your family will never set you free the way you want!"
Ayuma began to cry; she seemed to have lost her way.
"Why are you being like this to me, Rollan?"
"Because I love you."
"By taking me in like this? Making me collateral for a debt, is that love from you?"
I looked into his eyes; they radiated hurt. I turned my gaze in another direction and took a deep breath. I was defeated.