Warning: This chapter contains a lemon section. It will be in the Author's POV, so if Lemons aren't your thing just skip to the next POV!
Author's POV:
Levi has been waiting so long to get his hands on you, and knowing you were just as eager as he was made him more turned on than ever before. As he pins you against the door, he pulls your face to his and claims your lips hungrily.
His kiss was demanding and full of lust. Where Erwin was gentle and patient, Levi was rough and demanding. But you loved the contrast as his tongue memorized every bit of space in your mouth.
You can feel him harden even more against you, grinding his impatience on you as you wrap your arms around his neck. A deep moan escapes his lips as you run your fingers through his soft raven hair.
He couldn't wait anymore; he removes his hands from your waist and brings them to the front of your shirt. In one swift movement he ripped it open, buttons falling to the floor and rolling across the room.
"Levi!" You giggle as you feel the cold against your exposed chest. He merely grunts in response and steps away to get a better look at you.
Your face starts to go red as he stares at you, his pupils dilate as he takes in the site. You were breathing heavily from his kisses and his touch, body eager for more of him.
"Take it off." Levi orders you, looking disapprovingly at your clothes. He wanted to watch you undress for him instead of ruining your clothes. He had to try and calm himself down, he wanted this moment to last for awhile. But restraining himself was proving to be rather difficult with you standing there like that.
You smirk at him and very slowly start to remove what remains of your shirt. Levi watches you slowly and teasingly remove it from your body. You bit your lip gently and give him a sexy smile as you slowly remove your pants.
Levi couldn't take his eyes off you. He knew you were going slowly to tease him, but he held himself back. He was trying to memorize every detail of your body, every scar, every curve, all of it.
He had to continue fighting hard against himself to not jump you right there. But he didn't want to rush this, he's been wanting this for awhile and wants to make the most of it.
After you kick off your pants you stand before him in just your bra and panties. You could feel Levi's eyes on your body, it made you feel nervous but hot at the same time.
"Come here." Levi commands you, leaning against his desk.
You obey and walk over to where he is, anticipating his next move. You get a sense of déjà vu as he grabs your hair band off your wrist to tie your hair back away from your face.
"See, I knew you had a thing for hair pulling." You tease him as his fingers brush gently against your neck, giving you goosebumps.
"Shut up," He smirks, "You're the one who insists on obscuring your beautiful face with your hair." He gives your hair a gentle tug.
He walks around to stand in front of you again, "Hold out your arms." He demands, undoing the belt from around his waist.
You raise an eyebrow at him but obey, holding out your arms in front of you as he requested. He took your wrists and tightened the belt around them, holding them in place.
"Turn around," Levi instructed, "Put your hands on my desk."
You do as your told and Levi takes off the cravat around his neck. You tense up a little as he ties it over your eyes, blind folding you.
"Relax," He sighs, "You'll enjoy it. Keep your hands on the desk."
You tried to relax as best you could, but the fact that the scars on your back were almost fully exposed to Levi was making you more nervous. You were anticipating his next moves, you didn't know what was going to happen next or what he was going to do. But it was a little thrilling for you.
You feel Levi's cold hands against your bare flesh again, making you shiver. His fingers traced down from your neck toward your mid back, unhooking your bra on his way.
You gasp as you feel the cool air on your breasts, making your nipples harden. Levi bites his lip as he watches your reactions.
He wanted you to feel a little like how he feels when he is around you. Not really knowing what is going to happen, not knowing what he should do, or knowing where he stands, just a constant state of confusion and wonder. It's not quite the same, but he's definitely getting enjoyment out of watching your reactions to him.
You can feel your face heat up again, Levi isn't touching you, so you know he was just standing there staring at you, "Captain," You say nervously, "What are you doing?"
You decided to use his title instead of his name because you figured it would annoy him, he doesn't like when you use his title instead of his name when you 2 are alone. And it wouldn't be a natural interaction between you 2 if you didn't try to annoy him. Even now.
Levi places his right hand on your hip, pulling you closer to him and reaches his left hand around to squeeze your breasts.
He had to bite his lip hard to hold back a moan, he didn't want you to know just how much you affect him. Not yet anyway.
The feeling of his hand suddenly on your breast surprised you, but in a good way. He was gentle at first, but he is more used to being rough. He teases your sensitive mounds with one hand as his other creeps closer and closer to your core teasingly slow.
You moan as he gets closer. Hearing your moans for him had him shiver with anticipation, but he forced himself to be patient.
Levi's finger teases your sensitive button of nerves through your panties, as he kisses the back of your neck.
"Please," You moan desperately.
"Please what?" He smirks against your skin.
"Touch me." You whine impatiently.
"I am touching you."
"You know what I mean."
"I want you to say it." Levi demands as he increases the pressure he has on your clit and nips and sucks gently at the skin on your neck.
"I want you." You groan desperately.
"You can do better than that."
"Fuck Levi, I need you inside me, please!" You cry out, embarrassed by the words that came out of your mouth.
But it seemed to please Levi, he slides his hand into your panties and slides a finger into you, playing with your folds at a faster pace, "I can already feel how amazing you are here." He groans lowly into your ear, making you shiver again. Seeing the affect he had on you had him biting at his lip again. But he wanted to see you completely undone by him, he was determined to make you beg for him.
You start rocking your hips, trying to increase the friction. Levi's intentionally slow pace was making you more and more impatient. He decides to grant you some mercy and adds another finger, "Ah, Levi more please! I need you." You push yourself more against him, feeling how hard he is was getting you hotter and even more eager.
He's growing more and more impatient himself, your lustful demands where heading straight to his cock. He pumps his fingers into you a few more times before removing them, making you groan in frustration.
"On the desk." He orders you, bending you over more so your chest was touching the cool surface of his desk, arms over your head, still bound together.
Levi had to pause and admire the view. The scars on your back you hate so much to him are nothing to be ashamed of. You're a survivor and a fighter, it's written all over your body.
And of course, his eyes lingered on your perfect ass. He was glad you were blindfolded and turned away from him so you couldn't see the eager grin on his face. You yelp as he surprises you by giving your ass a firm smack.
Not being able to wait anymore he kicks your legs apart, pushes your panties aside and unzips his pants, sighing with relief as his large member is finally released from the confides of his pants.
You could hear the rustling of clothes and you realized you wanted so badly to see Levi, and to touch him. But you were still blindfolded, so all you could do was hope Levi would have mercy and take it off for you soon.
But no such luck yet, you let out a loud gasp when you feel him slowly push himself into you, "Hmmm so tight.." Levi groaned. You couldn't see, but you could definitely feel how big he is. He had to pause to give you a chance to adjust to his size and for the pain to subside. It took him an incredible amount of self-control to wait. He gripped your hips tightly with almost bruising pressure as he waited for you to give him a signal that you were ready to continue.
When you were ready you surprised him by pushing yourself onto him more, making him groan in satisfaction as he watched you fuck yourself on his cock.
Finally, Levi released all his restraint and pounded into you without mercy, "Oh fuck," He moaned, "Fuck you feel so fucking good, (y/n)."
You couldn't seem to form words, only moans of pleasure as he searched for your sweet spot. It didn't take him long to find it, "Oh god, Levi! There! More!"
Levi smirked down at you as he focused on that area. Without warning he grabbed onto your hair and pulled your head back firmly, back arching slightly, "Do you have any idea how long I've waited for this?" He growls into your ear.
"Then show me," You give him a smirk of your own, almost like you're challenging him, "I know you can go harder, Levi. Fuck me like you mean it, don't hold back."
"You may regret saying that."
Levi gives your ass another smack, harder this time, and pounds into you even harder. You can feel the desk shake underneath you as his body thrusts roughly and deliciously against you. You could even hear writing utensils, books and papers fall to the ground, but Levi didn't care. This is the kind of mess he doesn't mind making.
You can feel yourself coming closer and closer to your release as Levi reaches around to play with your clit again, while still having a firm hold on your hair, "Levi," His name rolls off your tongue as you feel the coil building in the pit of your stomach starting to become undone.
"Already?" He teases you, "Very well." He lets go of your hair to grab roughly at one of your breasts as he thrusts into you even harder and faster.
You moan his name loudly as a warm wave of pleasure rushes over you. The way you moaned Levi's name and how you tightened even more around him as your orgasm hits you is enough to send him over the edge as well.
His grip tightens on you and he starts kissing the back of your neck again as he thrusts into you a few more times for you to both ride out your orgasms. When Levi is able to breathe evenly again he pulls out of you, leaving you to groan in protest.
Levi chuckles at your reaction, "You don't think I'm done with you, do you? I'm just getting started."
Still blind folded he surprised you when he lifts you up easily and carries you to his bedroom. He kicks the door closed behind him and throws you on his bed, causing you to giggle a little.
"Levi," You call his name seductively, "Take this off, I want to see you."
Levi obeys and removes the blindfold and the belt around your wrists. He stands back to take off the rest of his clothes, but you stand up and stop him, "Let me."
He allows you to start undressing him, even though it makes him a little uncomfortable. He is used to being the one calling the shots and making the moves, but you were special to him. So, he decides he is willing to allow you some control.
You stand in front of him and start slowly undoing his buttons. You tried to make eye contact with him, but your eyes can't help but to stare down at his abs as you progress further.
Biting your lip slightly you look back up at his face and notice he has a slight blush. It seems obvious to you that he's never had a sexual encounter like this before. One where he actually allowed the other party to touch him.
In the past if he were to sleep with someone it would be quick and dirty. Not really any kissing or caressing, just in and out, never really look at them and then never see them again.
This was just as new for Levi as it is for you. It surprised him how badly he wanted you to touch him. It had never been like that before, he hates people touching him, even by accident. But with you he not only wanted your touch, he craved your soft hands on his body.
Once you were done with the buttons you run your hands slowly up his chest and push the shirt off of his shoulders and arms. Levi assumed you would pull his pants off the rest of the way next, but instead you started kissing around his jaw and down his neck.
He shivered as your soft lips graze along a sweet spot and he feels you smirk against his skin, as you immediately start attacking that spot. Levi tried to maneuver his hands around you to grab your ass, but to his surprise you slapped his hands away, "No, it's my turn."
Your lips travel further down his body, stopping as you make your way to his chest where you lightly nip at his nipples and swirl your tongue around it. The sensations you were giving him were driving him wild, but he told himself to be patient. He was surprised by how willing he was to let you do what you wanted with his body.
Your hands moved teasingly close to his, once again, fully erect manhood, without actually touching it. Making Levi groan in frustration.
You move down farther, licking and kissing his abs as you move down to the place that wants your attention the most.
'So that's where his height went' You think to yourself as you admire his member. Comparatively speaking, he and Erwin are pretty much the same size, 'Lucky me'.
You get comfortable on your knees as you slowly tease his head with your tongue, "Mmmm fuuuck." Levi moaned as you start sucking his head into your mouth.
You can hear him panting as you hollow out your cheeks to take him further into your mouth. You moaned as you took him in deeper and deeper, causing an intense wave of pleasure to wash over him.
Levi runs his fingers through your hair and moans your name over and over again as you bob up and down his length. Your lusty (e/c) eyes meet his hooded steel ones, and once you 2 made eye contact, he couldn't take it anymore.
He removed himself from your mouth and threw you on his bed. He kicked off his pants and boxers the rest of the way and leaped on top of you.
As soon as he is on top of you, he starts to kiss you, biting at your lip roughly to allow him access into your mouth, which you grant him eagerly.
He moans into your lips as you run your fingers through his raven hair, pulling him closer to you. You wrap your legs around him, encouraging him back inside of you.
Without leaving your lips, he grabs your legs and bends them closer to your upper body. Thanks to your flexibility, you're able to keep them there as Levi lines himself up and thrusts hard into you again. You scream from the intense pleasure of the harsh thrusting as he hits you deep inside right away.
"Fuck (y/n)," Levi groans loudly as he feels your tightness around him again, "You feel so fucking good." He's said it before, but he feels he can't say it enough to you.
In this position Levi is able to teach even deeper and you start digging your nails into his back. He leans up so he can get a better look at your face, wanting to see how your expressions change as he pleasures you.
But you felt a little embarrassed of the lewd expressions you were sure you were making involuntarily. Your face was red, and you try looking away from him.
"(Y/n), look at me." Just him saying your name made your face go even redder.
He stops thrusting, even though it pains him to do so, but he wanted to see your face. He was going to deny you release until you show it to him.
"Levi, please," You protest, desperately wanting him to continue.
"Look at me." He repeated.
You sigh and look up at his face. Your face was red, plump lips agape as your panting intensified, (e/c) eyes hooded with lust as you stare up at him.
Levi had never seen such a beautiful site; he didn't understand why you wanted to hide it. He could get used to seeing this face, he wanted to see it more.
Levi watches your expressions as he starts thrusting wildly into you again, causing you to let out more loud moans.
As he is distracted by your bouncing breasts at his movements, you took that as an opportunity to attack him. Taking him by surprise you push him off of you and onto his back on the soft mattress.
Now it was your turn to smirk down at him as you grab his wrists and hold them above his head, just like what he did with yours when he bent you over his desk.
Now it was your turn to tease him a little bit. You almost remove him all the way out of you, but kept his tip in. Whenever Levi tried thrusting up into you, you would move up a bit more, "If you don't fuck me senseless right fucking now, I'm going to throw you against the wall and fuck you hard enough for you to get splinters." He growled at you.
"Well, since you asked so nicely." You giggle and lower yourself back down his length, still holding his wrists above his head. He desperately wanted to touch you, but he was too distracted by your tight walls squeezing him to fight for the use of his hands.
"Levi," You moan into his ear, giving him goosebumps, "Your cock feels so fucking good."
You let go of his wrists so you can sit up, allowing Levi to go deeper again. As soon as you let go of his wrists, he gripped your hips tightly and helped you bounce on his cock faster.
He had a craving to kiss you again, so he propped himself up to capture your lips once again while you were still on his lap. This time you bite down on his lip harder, he growled into your mouth and grabbed your ass roughly.
Your tongues are locked in a battle for dominance which you're losing. But you didn't care, you were more focused on getting yourself and Levi off.
You spread your legs further, basically doing a split on Levi's lap, taking him in even more. Your movements become a little sloppier as you reach the peak of your climax. Levi's lips leave yours to suck and nip at your neck, "Cum for me, (y/n)," He groans deeply against your neck, sending vibrations throughout your body, "Show me how good I make you feel."
His words and low voice push you over the edge. Your legs spasm and your movements slow as you're sent into a state of euphoria. You moan his name loudly as you come down from your high.
Levi lifts you off his lap and pushes you onto your hands and knees. He wastes no time in thrusting into you again hard and fast, close to his own release. He was hypnotized by watching your ass bounce against him and he grabs your cheeks roughly. You look over your shoulder back at him, "Levi," He looks up at the beautiful site of you straining to look into his eyes, "Please, cum inside me."
"Fuck (y/n)," He growled at you, "You have no idea what you do to me." With a few more powerful thrusts he began to get sloppier as he finally reaches his own release.
He moans your name loudly and collapses on top of you, caging you underneath him, "Did I tire you out, old man?" You tease him, running your nails gently along the length of his arm.
"Shut up, brat." He grunts and wraps his arms securely around you.
Too tired to move, both of you fall asleep, too comfortable in each other's arms to move. You relish the warmth of his body and you both fall asleep almost right away.
Your POV:
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'God I can't stand this old pervert. He never sticks with just one female, so why am I different? He takes me to one party and now he's been requesting me like every other day for the past couple weeks. I wonder why he didn't just take his wife with him. So annoying.
As annoying as he is at least he has an interesting relationship with Laurie. That's enough for me to grit my teeth and endure his shameless behaviour.
"Of course you're here again," I hear a female voice coming toward me. At first, I thought it was his wife, who is well aware of his gallivanting. But I was wrong.
"Nice to see you too, Freida," I smirk at the dark-haired girl, "You know, everyone I speak to who knows you says you're an amazingly nice girl... I don't see it."
"You don't deserve kindness," She snapped, narrowing her eyes at me, "I know what you're doing, Peitho. My father may not see it because he gets too distracted by you, but I do. You're scum, just like your father."
"Awww, that's not fair, Freida," I sigh, "I don't call you a philandering whore because of your father. By the way, you best be careful with what you say to me, I am petty enough to screw your father and make you my stepdaughter."
Instead of continuing to argue, Frieda walks past me before I make her stop in her tracks.
"Are you heading out to see Historia?"
She slowly turns around to look at me, a shocked expression on her face.
"How did you-"
"She's your sister, right?" I interrupt her, "She looks a lot like you, well with blonde hair instead of black."
I continue to smirk at the glare she gives me, knowing she is panicking, trying to figure out how much I could possibly know.
"Peitho!" I hear a male voice coming from behind me, "There you are, I'm ready for you."
"Goodbye Ms. Reiss!" I smile and curtsy sweetly at a scowling Frieda.
"Shall we go, master Reiss?" I grab onto Reiss' arm and give Frieda one final look over my shoulder.
I had my suspicions about the Reiss' for a while, but now I can confirm they are up to something shady. I don't know exactly what it is yet, but if the information I read is true, this could be huge.'
...
I slowly open my eyes and wrap the blankets around me more when I feel a chill on my bare back. Levi must be up already, I should probably get up and out of here. I doubt he wants to have to deal with me, so I'll make it easier for the both of us.
But it is so warm under the blankets, I'm still so tired and I'm also still naked... Maybe I'll stay a bit longer.
What was with that dream? I definitely remember kind of knowing Rod Reiss, but I didn't know I knew his daughter too... And who is Historia? From our conversation I guess it's another one of Reiss' kids...
Why did Frieda appear to be upset when I mentioned her name? Secret love child maybe? But why would her reaction be that concerned with what I knew? No use trying to figure it out now, I don't have enough of the memory to go off of; I'll just have to wait and see if anything triggers more from that particular memory.
My stomach growls loudly, taking my mind off the short memory in that dream. I guess that is to be expected, I didn't have dinner last night. Alright, I guess I have to get up.
I wrap the blankets around my body so I'm not walking around with absolutely nothing on. I may steal one of Levi's shirts, his punishment for ruining mine.
I lower my feet onto the cold floor and stand up, but once I try to take a step I fall right to the ground. At first, I thought it's my legs giving out on me again, but then I realize I'm just really sore and my legs feel like jelly from last night... Levi wasn't kidding.
"That has to be the most ungraceful thing I have ever seen." I hear Levi chuckle from his bedroom doorway. Ugh, I didn't even know he was still here.
"It's your fault," I giggle, "Just because my legs are able to bend a certain way, doesn't mean they should. My legs hurt, I'm not as flexible as I used to be."
"I beg to differ."
"Alright, well I'm going to use your bath, hope you don't mind." I say as I sit myself up on the floor, blankets still securely wrapped around me.
"Fine, but don't you think we should have a conversation first?" He comments as he folds his arms, looking down on me.
"You know, actually, I think I'll just go to the regular showers." I start picking myself up off the ground.
"Will you stop, we have to talk at some point."
"You know, I think maybe I'll go listen to those religious fanatics who worship the walls. Maybe they aren't all crazy, I mean Pastor Nick seems semi-normal." I tease Levi, entertained by his frustrated expressions.
"(Y/n)-"
"I would love to stay and chat with you, Levi, really I would, but I have some socks in my room that just need to be folded so..."
Before I can take a step away, he pushes me back down on the bed, looks like I'm really trying his patience... But I can't help it, it's too easy to wind him up.
"Do we have to talk about it?" I complain, "Can't this just be easy? What do we need to talk about?"
"What is your relationship with Erwin?" Levi asks me as he crosses his arms and glowers down at me.
"Coming in hot, huh? It's not really a relationship, strictly speaking... More of an understanding of sorts."
"Where does that leave me?"
"I'm still going to hook up with Erwin, if that's what you're trying to ask. I like him, and I like you. So, I'll put it simply," I stand up from the bed to stand in front of him, "I enjoy your company, and would like to do it again. But I also like Erwin and enjoy his company as well."
"A traditional relationship," I continue, "Is not something any of us can really offer. We don't have that luxury in the scouts. But we all need a way to relieve stress, without talking about feelings, hopes and dreams. I'll understand if you don't want to be involved, but as I said I'll still be seeing Erwin, so it's up to you. What do you want, Levi?"
He seemed kind of shocked at my openness, he doesn't take long to give me an answer, "I think I've made it quite clear that I only have an interest in you. Now that I've had you, I won't be able to get enough of you."
My face goes red at his words, "Good, glad we cleared that up, but I really do need to shower so..."
"I don't mind, I'll help you." Levi smirks down at me.
"My body has been through a lot recently," I giggle, "It needs a break."
"Shower is in there." Levi points to his bathroom as he leaves me alone to do what I need to do.
"Oh, Levi," I call to him one last time, "Just for the sake of fairness, of course I wouldn't say anything against you seeing someone else as well."
"Yeah," He snorts sarcastically, "Because I was doing so much of that before you came along."
"I was just letting you know," I laughed, "Oh, and Levi, try not to fall too hard for me." I wink at him as he rolls his eyes at me.
I see that Levi folded the clothes I had on last night for me. It looks like he put one of his shirts on the top of the nearby pile. Good, it would be awkward to run into anyone on my way back to my room and explain why my shirt no longer had buttons on it.
I turn on the water and hop into the shower. The warm water feels so nice on my sore body. Last night was definitely fun, and it worked as a distraction for sure.
Should I tell Erwin right away? He was the one who said I could see other people if he was busy. I don't think I'll go out of my way to tell him, but if he asks me, I'll tell him the truth of course. I hope this doesn't get too complicated, I like them both a lot.
I like how Erwin is gentle and loving toward me, and I like how Levi is rough and demanding. The contrast is a real turn on. I am a little worried about catching real emotional feels toward them. I don't want to be in that position again, especially when I don't have a lot of time left. And I also don't want to put them in a position for them to get stronger feelings for me. It will just make it harder for them when I die. I'll have to keep conversations to a minimum, just a physical relationship is better for all parties, and less conducive to an actual loving one.
Maybe I should go along with Kenny's plan... Who knows what kind of information I have stuck in the corners of my mind. Whatever it is I feel like it could be valuable to the scouts, I need to act fast though.
After I finish showering, I quickly get dressed and get ready to head down to the Mess Hall for breakfast.
Levi is still in his office, waiting for me. He stands when I enter the room, "Shall we?" He heads toward the door first and holds it open for me.
"... Was last night that good? Why are you being so polite?" I punch his arm playfully.
"Shut it." He growled at me. As I giggle and walk past him, he grabs me and gives me a quick kiss on my lips. It definitely surprised me, but it was a nice gesture. Then he topped it off with a firm slap to my ass. Ah, there it is, I was starting to worry.
We walk down to the Mess Hall together in a comfortable silence. My thoughts do linger on what went down last night, and how my legs still kind of feel like jelly and sore. Not that I'm complaining, this is the type of soreness I do not mind.
We reach the Mess Hall and the only table that had any openings was a table currently holding Mike, Gelgar, Nanaba and Hange. I decided to go over and sit with them after I grab my food, Levi following closely behind me. I tried looking around to see if I could see Erwin anywhere, but I don't see him.
"There she is!" Hange exclaims when she sees me, "How was the party the other night?"
"Interesting," I smile at her as I sit down next to her and across from Gelgar, "I'm sure you have heard by now what happened."
"Yeah. Trouble does seem to follow you wherever you go." She replies thoughtfully.
"Facts!" I laugh at her comment, she is definitely not wrong.
"Are you going to come with us, (y/n)?" Gelgar inquires.
"Where?"
"Mike, Nanaba and I are being sent outside Wall rose with some cadets from the 104th group." Gelgar explained, "Commander Erwin wants us to keep an eye on them out there, monitor how they behave and interact with each other, or if they try anything out of the ordinary. Also, he wants Mike to keep his nose on the lookout for any strange plants growing out there."
Plants, huh? Erwin must have taken what I said about the possibility of there maybe being some kind of plant that can help camouflage our scent against titans to heart. That makes me happy, hopefully they can find something. There has to be something though, why try to hide certain plants in that book if it doesn't have anything to do with the titans?
If Laurie and Banning know about something like that, why would they try and hide that information? Why do they want to stay trapped in these walls, what is hiding out there they don't want us to find?
"Commander Erwin said you found some book from Dr. Banning's office that has given you some intriguing ideas," Gelgar continues, pulling me out of my thoughts, "What makes you think such a thing exists outside the walls?"
"There are pages intentionally ripped from that book, why would they do that if there was nothing out there? If there's no such plant out there, why rip the pages out? When people still occupied the areas in Wall Maria it would be easy for Laurie and others to make sure such things remained a secret. They could have sent people out to destroy them as they grew. But it's been years since humans have been able to live within Wall Maria, so if mysterious plants are out there, they should be easier to find." I explain to him.
"I love your mind!" Hange squeaks as she pulls me towards her to kiss my forehead.
"Well, we are leaving early tomorrow," Gelgar replies, "So this may be the last time I ever see you."
"Gee, promise?" I say playfully.
"Any last minute advice on being out there? Since you survived a week out there on your own."
"Alright, but lean in, I don't want this getting out," I gesture for him to lean across the table closer to me and whisper in his ear, "Don't die."
"Brilliant, why didn't I think of that! Also, since it is your fault that I have to go into Wall Maria, how about spending a night with me before I leave?" Gelgar asks jokingly.
I see Levi out of the corner of my eye giving Gelgar a rather menacing look that even made me a little scared. Gelgar may be a little hopeful, but I know he is kidding... For the most party anyway.
"No thank you," I smile sweetly at him, "I value our friendship too much. Or insert other excuse here."
"Okay, well if you are going to keep me in the friend zone, you can help me screw one of your friends from the capital, new best friend." He says, smirking at me.
I chuckle, "Okay, how do you feel about tall blondes?"
"Yes."
"Amber eyes, fit, will sleep with anyone. Oh, his name is Conrad, hope that's not an issue."
"Pass."
"That's probably for the best," I nod, "He's basically the human personification of period cramps."
"It's a good thing you're hot," Gelgar comments, "Because you say the weirdest shit. Don't you have a female friend you could introduce me to?"
"None that like me," I sigh, "Not a lot of the girls really liked me, except Celeste, but my brother beat you to her."
"Isn't that weird for you?" He raised his eyebrows at me.
"Yep."
The conversation between us paused as we continue to eat our breakfast. I really want to go with them when they leave. Maybe if I talk to Erwin, he will let me go...? It is my theory after all, I should be there too.
Now that I have eaten, I feel really tired again, I could fall into a food coma right now. But I better participate in some training today. Plus, I want to see how my titan boy is doing, it feels like I haven't seen him in ages.
"Good morning, Dr. Thompson!" Hange greets Peter as he walks by our table. My head snaps up and I look in his direction. He looks unsure, but Hange waves him over to sit in the empty spot on the other side of her. Now what do I do? I can't be hostile toward him, they will notice and ask unnecessary questions. I'll try my best to just ignore him unless he addresses me directly, I suppose.
I hear Hange and Peter engage in regular chit chat and I can feel myself getting more and more tense. I jump when Levi puts his hand on my thigh to get my attention, "What's wrong?" He asks me, noticing my change in disposition right away.
I don't say anything, just trying to focus on something, anything else.
"So, are you actually going to volunteer to come with us, (y/n)?" I hear Mike's deep voice from beside Gelgar, it's like he can sense a change in my mood and is trying to distract me. I sigh with relief and give him a small smile, "I will, but I have to get permission from Commander Erwin, he may have something different planned for me."
"For sure," Gelgar cuts in, "Because volunteering to die by Titans is better than being ordered to."
"I'm not worried about being killed by Titans." I laugh, at least not in the traditional sense, I'm being killed by Titans in a different way.
"Oh yeah?" Nanaba chuckles, listening in on the conversation, "You're a soldier, most of us die by the Titans eventually. How do you think you're going to die then?"
"Probably being sarcastic at the wrong time." I answer her thoughtfully, "Captain Levi, write that on my tombstone."
"Ha!" Hange laughs loudly, "That's probably an accurate prediction!"
I can still feel Levi's suspicious eyes on me, I just hope he won't ask about it. I'm not really up for talking about what is going on between Peter and myself. Plus, I don't want Levi to worry about me.
I can feel myself starting to get drowsy again, the voices around me make me feel more tired.
I feel a sharp pinch on my side and jump a little bit. It was Levi, "Pull yourself together, what is going on with you?" He whispers to me, concern evident in his tone.
Hange notices my behaviour too and cuts in, "Are you okay, (y/n)? Rough couple of days? Maybe you should talk to Dr. Thompson before training starts. Or have a nap..?"
I scuff at her advice and offer a snort of derision toward Peter, "Oh don't worry about me," I say as I get up from my seat, "I'll sleep when I'm dead, right Peter? Haha!" I give him a firm slap on his shoulder as I walk behind him to leave the Mess Hall.
Rough couple days? More like a rough fucking life. As soon as I leave the Mess Hall I head straight for the training grounds, I'm really in the mod to punch something. It can't be Peter, so the training dummies will have to do.
I walk briskly toward the training grounds, and I was too distracted by my anger with Peter that I ran right into Reiner.
"Uh, (y/n)," He laughed and steadies me before I fell over, "You really have to watch where you are going."
"Sorry Reiner," I sigh, "I'm in my head too much these days."
"Well, I'm happy to see you, I haven't seen you since before you left for that party. I'm sad I didn't get to see you in a dress, you must have looked stunning. But this is good timing, I'm leaving tomorrow and I wanted to say goodbye to you before I go."
"Ah, you too huh? Who else is going?" I ask as he walks with me to the training area.
"Bertolt, Christa, Ymir, Connie, Sasha and a few others." Reiner says, listing off names on his fingers.
"Sounds like a good group," I comment, "Do you know what this mission is about?" I'm curious about what they have and have not been told. A lot of the scouts going on this mission are under suspicion, so what have they told them this mission is about?
"Some kind of survival drill for the rookies I think, I'm not all that clear on the details. But we will be gone for a few days, so try not to miss me too much." Reiner chuckles and pats my shoulder.
"How did that party go by the way?" Reiner asks, "I hear things kind of went south, are you okay?"
"Yeah, nothing I can't handle," I give him a reassuring smile, "I don't suppose you want a sparring partner? I need to do some hand-to-hand combat."
"Sure, if I'm going to be thrown to the ground by someone, I'm glad it's you."
We get to the training area and there are only a couple people around, good.
Before I take up my defensive stance my arms start jerking out of position. Damnit, why now?!
Reiner notices and gives me a worried look, "Are you okay?"
"Fine." I reply curtly, lunging forward at him to start the combat session.
At least I still got it, it doesn't take me that long to send Reiner tumbling to the ground. We spent about an hour going back and forth, I let him take some jabs at me here and there, but he would usually still end up on his ass.
After I sent him into the dust a 5th time, I suddenly feel my legs buckle and give out underneath me. Come on! Of course it has to be in front of someone else.
He seemed a bit hesitant to bring up whatever just happened to me, but he sat down next to me and chuckles slightly, "You know, you are the only other person who has been able to throw me around like that, apart from Mikasa and Annie."
"The female Titans?" I raise my eyebrows at him.
"Yeah, I didn't know her very well, but I did spare with her a few times." Reiner replies, rubbing the back of his head.
I study him closely causing him to grimace slightly. He clears his throat and decides to address me about my legs, "What is going on with you?"
I don't really know what to say, there is no way I can explain what is really going on, but Reiner is a persistent one. I trust Reiner, maybe I can let him in a little bit.
"It would appear I am beginning to suffer from the same illness my mother has. Got to love genetics, huh?" I laugh uncomfortably.
Reiner looks down at his hands, not really knowing what to say to that, I imagine. He seems to be deep in thought about something. I wonder what is bothering him.
"Hypothetically speaking, what if there was somewhere you could go, where you could get more advanced medical treatment?" Reiner asked me carefully. Where is this coming from?
"You mean the capital?" I ask him, "I don't think they would do much to help me."
"I didn't mean the capital."
"Then what did you mean?"
"If there were a place you could go where you could get better, but it meant leaving this place, would you do it?" Reiner inquires again, staring at me intensely.
What kind of a question is that? There isn't anywhere else I can go. I guess I can technically still be treated by Peter, but I'd rather die than be experimented on by the likes of him.
"Sure, I guess," I shrugged in response, "But we don't live in that world, Reiner. It is what it is, come on let's continue."
"(Y/n)," I freeze when I hear a familiar deep voice call my name.
"Commander Erwin," I greeted him with a salute as well as Reiner.
"At ease, I need to speak with you."
"Oh course," I nod at him, "See you later, Reiner."
Reiner looks disappointed to see me go, but you can't argue with the Commander, so he held his tongue, and I followed Erwin out of the training area.