Warning: There is a small lime section in this chapter, same as before it will be in the Author's POV. So if you don't like limes just skip past that section when you come to it.
Your POV:
Erwin walks in front of me heading to where I assume would be his office. He doesn't say anything to me as I follow him silently. I wonder what this is about. Something about Marie maybe? Ugh, why am I even thinking about her, come on (y/n), that's none of your business and you know it.
Plus, I have no right to be sad if he did hook up with her, seeing as I hooked up with Levi. I definitely don't regret it though, my feelings for these 2 men are messy and complicated. All I know for sure is that I like spending time with both of them. And hell, I don't have that much time left, so I'm going to get as much sex as I can from the both of them.
When we reach Erwin's office, he holds the door open for me politely. I thank him and walk past him into his office.
As soon as he walks in after me and closes the door, he pulls me into an embrace right away. His lips kissed mine hungrily, and I eagerly accepted. Definitely wasn't expecting this, but I'll take it.
After a few moments he released me so he could look at me, "Sorry about last night, it was kind of an awkward situation."
"A little bit, you don't have to tell me about it if you don't want to, it isn't my business after all. I'm sorry for the way I reacted, it wasn't appropriate." I reassure him with a small smile.
"I don't mind telling you about it," He sighs heavily and goes to sit down behind his desk, "Have a seat."
I'm an avoider, I don't know if I want to hear about what happened, ignorance is bliss as they say, "Actually, if it's about Marie, I really don't need to hear it. So if that's all, I think I'll-"
"Sit."
Uh oh, he's using his stern voice, it doesn't seem like he is up for dealing with my usual shit when it comes to pushing buttons, "Okay," I raise my hands in surrender, "You're right, or I can just sit down and shut up. Thank you, sir, very good advice."
I see a small smile form on his lips when I finally sit across from him, waiting for him to speak.
"I'm sorry about last night," He started, "I didn't know Marie was going to just show up like that. She just waited in my office for me while I was away."
"What did she want?" I try to ask casually.
"To talk about our past and you mostly," Erwin explained, running his fingers through his hair, "It was basically her last ditch effort to see if there is anything still here."
"Did she get the closure she needed?" I inquire, looking down at my hands, trying to look unbothered.
"I hope so, she said everything she came here to say and I listened, that was all I agreed to do. That's why I kicked you out by the way," I could feel his eyes on me, so I raise my head to meet his gaze, "She wasn't going to leave if I didn't hear her out. I did, so she won't be bothering me again."
"I wouldn't be so sure about that," I smile, "You're a lot to lose, Erwin. I can understand why she is still clinging to you after all these years."
I seemed to have taken him by surprise when I said that, judging by the shocked expression on his face, "What? I can be nice and give compliments! Not everything I say is sarcastic."
"I know," He chuckled, "I was just a little surprised."
Erwin sat back in his chair a bit and studied me carefully, "So, what happened yesterday? You seemed like something was really bothering you."
There it is. I knew it was coming, but I still wasn't prepared for it. I can't talk about it, not about Peter, about my mother, about Katrina, any of it. I can't open up, not to anyone. I won't put my burdens on someone else, especially not someone I care about. Erwin has enough stuff to worry about.
This conversation already feels like it is getting too personal, "I just wanted some alone time with you, and I was a little taken aback that you already had some company." I say as I stand up from my chair and walk around his desk to him. I'll get his mind off asking me more personal questions.
"Is that so?" He asked as he watched me approach him slowly, "You seemed a bit upset, was it because of the visit with your mother? Or were you just not expecting to see Marie in my office? Were you jealous, (y/n)?"
I pause at that, was I jealous when I saw Marie in his office alone with him? I mean... a little... I would be lying if I said I didn't want to punch her face when I saw her there looking all smug, does that count? Probably.
"(Y/n)?" Erwin pulls me out of my thoughts.
Should I tell him the truth? Would he be a little uncomfortable if I admit I was a little jealous? No, I should just bite the bullet and be honest, no point in lying about it.
"Yes." I admit, avoiding his gaze again.
Immediately I feel his hand on my arm and he pulls me onto his lap and kisses my lips roughly.
I hum into his lips and run my fingers through his soft blonde hair. I can feel his large hands go under my shirt to feel my body. His hands are warm and gentle as he traces circles on my back.
I bite at his lip eliciting a deep growl from him as he bites back at mine, shoving his tongue into my mouth before I can fight back.
I can feel him harden underneath me and I grind teasingly slow on him. He grabs my hair in response and yanks my head back, giving him better access to my neck.
I gasp as I feel his lips on my throat and his hands grab onto my ass, encouraging my body to rub against him faster.
Then of course there had to be a knock at the door. I pull away from him and giggle quietly at the frustrated look on his face.
"Erwin, it's me," Mike's familiar deep voice can be heard from the other side of the door, "I'm coming in."
I slide off his lap in a hurry and hide underneath Erwin's desk, with Erwin still sitting in his chair. He pulled himself more into his desk, trapping me under it.
Well, that is unexpected, but I can't help but giggle a little bit. What a compromising position to be found in. Maybe I should have a little fun with this...
Author's POV (Lime):
You weren't really paying attention to what was being said between the 2 men, when Mike sat down across from Erwin. You had a plan to mess with Erwin for a little bit, or maybe torture would be a better word for it.
Erwin's legs were very close to you, if he sat too far away to give you more room that would look a little odd. He didn't have to look at you to know what you were planning and that you had a satisfied smirk on your face.
You run your hands teasingly up his legs, starting from his lower leg. He tensed up immediately when he felt your hands on him, knowing exactly what you were planning on doing. But he didn't yet know if he would try and stop you or not.
You quietly readjust yourself under the desk, so you are sitting on your knees. Your hands reach up to his knees now, putting some pressure behind your movements, massaging your way up his lower body.
Erwin tried to stay focused on listening to Mike, but it was proving to be rather difficult. All he could think about was your soft but firm touch creeping up his body. Plus, it didn't help that he was already hard from your interaction before Mike arrived.
All he could do was try his best not to show any reactions on his face, but on the inside, he was screaming for more from you.
Your hands have reached his thighs now, you move your hands up and down them as you creep closer and closer to his belt and zipper.
Occasionally you'll listen a little bit in on their conversation, but you didn't really care what they were talking about.
"Are you okay, Erwin?" You hear Mike ask with concern.
"I'm fine, Mike," Erwin replies, trying to keep his voice even, "Continue." He wanted Mike to say what he came to say and leave quickly. Not that having you hidden under his desk is particularly a bad thing, but he does prefer having a little bit of control. But this way, he is at your mercy.
You brush your hand over the big tent that has formed in his pants, causing him to push into your hand slightly more. Trying to make it look like he was just shifting his weight around to Mike.
Slowly and quietly you start to unbuckle his belt and undo his zipper. Your slow pace was driving Erwin crazy because he couldn't do anything about it, and you loved it.
You spread his legs apart more so you can get closer to him. You pull out his throbbing member and he has to bite back a moan of relief.
You love when Erwin loses his composure, you didn't care that Mike was there, you wanted to see how far you could push him.
You could see Erwin's knuckles go white as he clutches at the arms of his chair, as you rubbed your thumb over his head. His teeth were clenched tight trying to listen to what Mike was saying. He knew you were trying to make him lose his composure, and he was determined not to lose to you.
Smiling to yourself you start licking up and down his impressive length, making his fingers clutch even tighter on his arm rests. It took a massive amount of self-control for Erwin to not make any sounds, but it was proving to be very difficult.
"Are you sure you're okay, Erwin?" Mike asks him, confused by his odd behaviour.
"Yes, continue." Erwin didn't trust himself to speak for too long, one or two word sentences was all he could safely manage.
You had to keep yourself from laughing evilly at Erwin straining to remain calm. You slowly started taking him into your mouth as much as you could.
"Alright, well you seem a bit preoccupied," You heard Mike comment, "I'll talk to you more later."
"Okay." Erwin replied through gritted teeth.
"Oh, and (y/n)," You freeze when you heard Mike say your name, "Finish up quickly, Hange needs to speak with you, she says it's urgent."
"Yes sir!" You surprised Erwin by actually answering back. 'Who cares,' you thought to yourself, 'he already knows I'm here.'
You can hear Mike chuckle as he leaves Erwin's office.
Once you hear Mike close the door behind him, you sigh dramatically, "Well, I better get going."
"Don't you dare," Erwin growls, "Finish what you started, then you may go."
You smirk at his impatience and lower your mouth down on him again, using your hand to add friction to the areas you couldn't quite reach.
Erwin was finally able to let out a deep moan as you work your way up and down his length. He uses one hand to grab onto your hair, holding it behind your ears so he can have an unobstructed view of your face.
"Fuck, you look so hot like that, (y/n)." He groans as he watches you.
You hum in response causing Erwin to tighten his grip on you, feeling overwhelmed by the intense pleasure you gave him. You hollowed out your cheeks and he started hitting the back of your throat, making you gag a little bit.
You use your hand to play with his balls, driving him even more crazy, "Damnit (y/n), I'm going to-"
He can no longer form coherent words as you start bobbing your head faster. His breathing becomes heavier, and his groans become a little louder as he reaches his release.
Erwin throws his head back as he cums in your mouth, "Mmmm, (y/n)... Fuck." Is all he can say as you swallow and look up at him. You smile at him as you release him from your mouth and stand up from your knees.
"I'll see you later, Erwin." You kiss his cheek before turning to leave, "I better go see what Hange needs."
"Alright," He says, still breathing a little heavily, "See you."
Erwin's POV:
I watch her as she winks at me and exits my office. What am I going to do with her? I've never had to work so hard to maintain my composure.
I thought I would care more when Mike admitted to knowing (y/n) was in here. But I didn't, I didn't really care that it was completely unprofessional. What is this woman doing to me?
I was frustrated when I couldn't find her last night. I could tell from her face that she was upset by something when she came to my office. I felt awful for sending her away when Marie was here, but it was necessary.
Marie just went on and on by how hurt she felt by my actions, past and present. I didn't know what she was expecting to get from me. I decided apologizing was really the only thing I could offer her. Even if it was insincere, it seemed to work. In my mind, I don't believe I have anything to apologize for. But I believe she has the closure she needs, and she can go back to Nile and leave me alone for good.
After she left, I tried looking for (y/n). I even tried going to her room myself, but her roommate told me she wasn't there. My stomach dropped because I knew she was likely with someone else.
Whatever was bothering her, when she came into my office last night, it was clear something weighed on her mind, and she was looking for some sort of distraction. And by me sending her away, it's likely I pushed her to someone else.
She smelled different, obviously she showered recently, but she didn't have her usual lavender scent. Which must mean she showered using someone's personal shower, rather than grabbing her soap from her room and going to the communal showers for the scouts.
I can't be angry with her, we made it clear to each other that we can't have a relationship. It's not my place to bring it up to her, because I know she wants to keep our 'relationship' casual. I'm afraid if I bring it up to her, she will figure out I'm too invested in her. If she knows, she will end whatever this little arrangement is, and I don't want that.
When she is not with me, she is always on my mind, and when she is around me I can't keep myself away from her. Is it because she is the only woman I have had any interest in for years? She's a beautiful woman, but good-looking women have expressed interest in me before, and I have always turned them down.
There is something different about her and I can't get enough of her. So, if I have to hide my jealousy, I will do my best, I don't want to lose her. Our little arrangement is still pretty new, maybe she'll allow herself to pursue something more serious with me. Even if she doesn't, this will have to be enough for me.
Your POV:
Crisis averted; I can avoid talking about personal problems for another day. Avoiding is fun if I get to have more play time with Erwin and Levi.
I knock on Hange's office door and await her response to invite me in, "Come in!" I hear her say cheerfully from the other side of the door.
"Section Commander Hange," I salute her politely as I enter her office, "You wanted to see me?"
"Yes!" Her face lit up when she saw me, "Please, have a seat."
I sit in the chair across from her on the other side of her desk, "So, what's up?"
"I was wondering if I could get that book from you that you found from Banning's," Hange explains, sitting down in the chair at her desk, "I wanted to read through it and see what other plants are listed in there."
"Sure," I nod at her, "Is that all? Mike said you needed to speak with me urgently. Seems like something that could have waited."
"No, there is something else," Hange sighed and fiddled with her fingers nervously, "What is going on between you and Peter?"
I stiffen in my chair, "I don't know what you mean."
"Come on, (y/n)," Hange said seriously, "The boys aren't going to notice your change of tone when Peter sat with us, they are too distracted by you. But I noticed that change in you, you tensed up then like you tensed up just now when I mentioned his name, so what is going on?"
"Hange please," I look up at her, "Don't make me. You don't want me getting into it."
"What happened? Did he do something to you? Or is it the other way around?" Hange asked me, leaning further over her desk toward me.
It's weird seeing Hange like this, concern is written all over her face. But I can't burden her with this information, it's not that I don't trust her. I just... Can't tell her. I can't tell anyone. Even if I did tell her, so what? Nothing can be done about it, the damage is done and nothing will happen to the people who are responsible for this. It would just be more shit to pile on top of everything else going on.
"(Y/n), please don't keep things to yourself," Hange pleaded, "If there is something wrong I can help you. I know you're independent, but sometimes it helps confiding in someone else. To you it probably seems like I enjoy participating in gossip, which is true to an extent, but anything you tell me will stay between us. I promise."
I'm thankful that she cares about me so much, but I can't tell her. If I tell her, it will be a bigger conversation. And it will probably involve talking about Kenny's plan for me, and she will try to stop me.
I don't want to ruin her relationship with Peter, as much as he fucked up with me, I also know that he is at least trying to change. Regardless of my past with him, it's my past, my problem and it should stay between us.
"I'm not a virgin anymore." I blurt out in a panic; this should get her mind onto something else.
"... Eh?"
"It's just weird to be around Peter," I sigh heavily, "I know he had feelings for me at one point, and I just don't want to give anything away."
"No way!" Hange laughed, "I mean, I figured something might happen, but I just thought it would be a kiss or something, but sex? That's... fast. Who with? Was it Erwin? At the Party? After the party? Details!"
This should be enough to distract Hange for now. It's much easier to talk about my sexual escapades than it is to talk about what is really going on between Peter and I.
"Yes, it was Erwin," I admit to her, "Um... Levi too though."
"What the hell, (y/n)!" Hange shouted, "Not just 1 but both of the scouts most desirable men?! What does that mean for your relationships? Do they both know you slept with both of them?"
"Erwin and I have an understanding," I reply, "Erwin told me when he is busy, he doesn't mind if I see someone else."
"Did he use those exact words?"
"Maybe not those exact words, but he definitely said I could."
"Ah, so he said you could, but he didn't say that he doesn't mind it." Hange points out.
"... What are you getting at Hange?" I narrow my eyes at her. Angry that she is trying to pop my bubble.
"I'm saying I have known both Erwin and Levi for a long time," Hange continues, "And I have never seen either of them show any interest in any woman, not even just in the scouts, in general."
"Don't worry, Hange," I laugh, "You don't have to worry about me getting my feelings hurt by them only wanting a sexual relationship, I'm embracing it actually."
"I'm not worried about you, (y/n)," Hange smiled sadly, "I'm more worried about them."
I pause at that, what is she getting at? I'm sure they are more than fine with just a physical relationship, aren't most men?
"Your concern is adorable, Hange. I'm not a bad person, they are safe with me." I wink at her.
"I'm not saying you're a bad person," She reassured me, "I'm saying they have never experienced any sort of attachment or feelings when it comes to sex. You have had emotional attachment and feelings without the sex. You're experiencing something new, and sex may not be a big deal for you because you have learned to shut off emotional attachment as a result of what happened to your husband. But it's obvious you're different to Levi and Erwin, I guarantee it's not just sex for them."
I brush off her comments, "Yeah yeah, I'm sure it will be fine. If they have a problem with our current relationship, they can tell me-"
"They won't tell you, (y/n), they don't want to lose you." Hange interrupts me, but I continued, "Relationships, no. Sex, yes. That is how it is, I'm trying to enjoy their company before I die, just let me live for the moment!"
"What does that mean?" Hange gives me a worried look.
"I don't mean anything," I give her a small smile, "It's just something people say, right? Don't worry."
"How is your mother doing?" She asks suddenly.
"She's well, for the most part, I suppose." I reply, a little surprised by the sudden change of subject.
"And how are you doing?"
"If you just wanted to talk to me about the book, I will go get it and bring it to you now." I get up from my chair, officially done with the conversation.
"(Y/n), wait!" Hange tries to call after me, but I ignore her and leave her office.
I had to get out of there, I felt like if I stayed, I would have eventually opened up to her. I can't do that, I have to keep this to myself. I refuse to burden anyone else with my problems.
I'll just grab the book for her now. I headed straight for my room, avoiding anyone who tried to stop me to chat along the way.
I run into my room and close the door behind me, "Hey! Coming to training today?" I jumped when I heard Sasha behind me.
"Ooo, a bit jumpy huh?" She laughed at my reaction, "Everything okay?"
"Yeah," I smile, "Just have to grab something for Hange, I'll see you down there."
"Wait, where were you last night? You never came back to the room; I was getting worried."
"That's classified." I tease her.
"Commander Erwin was looking for you, did he speak to you yet? What did you do?"
"Nothing that wasn't consensual."
"What?"
"Sasha, I really have to get this book for Hange, we can talk later."
Sasha relents and nods at me before leaving me alone in our room. I go to my bag to grab the book when out of the corner of my eye, I see the file Kenny left for me last night.
I grab it and open it, Digman's portrait looking at me as I flip through it.
...
'"Oh, you will do nicely," I heard a man say as he quickly made his way over to me, "Wait, you look familiar." The man frowns when he gets closer to me.
My eyes go wide as he studies me, I try to back away from him, mama always warned me about keeping my distance from strangers. But he grabs onto my arm and pulls me closer to him.
I can't do anything, all I can do is stand there, terrified at what the man might do. Mama has been warning me about children going missing, what if that happens to me? What will happen to mama?
"Hey!" I hear another deep voice yell from behind me, "Get your hands off my daughter!" The new man growled to the man that had a hold of my arm.
The new man had the same colour hair and eyes as me, he does look kind of familiar... But I'm too scared to think straight right now.
The man with the same colour hair as me punched the man that had a hold of me hard. He let go of my arm as he fell to the ground.
"How long are you going to hide the capital slut, Seth?" The man on the ground snapped at the man named 'Seth', "And stop pretending that you are any better than I am, just because you're not in the life anymore doesn't mean shit. We are still the same."
"Come near either of them and I won't be as merciful, Edmund." Seth growled at him.
"And what would you do if I did? Unlike you I'm protected. Just try it."
Seth picked me up and started walking with me, "Why the fuck are you out by yourself, huh? Where the hell is your mother?"
"Home." I say in a shaky voice, scared of the man's tone, "She told me to go outside, there is a man talking to her at home."
"Who?" He glared at me.
"I don't know." I start to cry, tears flowing freely down my cheeks.
He rolls his strange yet familiar (e/c) eyes at me, "Don't go near that man again, understand?"
I nod nervously at him and remain silent as he brings me home to my mother.'
...
I open my eyes again and I realize I'm sitting on my bed now, the file still open next to me. When I was younger, I didn't even recognize my father, he was around so rarely...
My fragmented memories are really starting to irritate me. Maybe after training today I will try going down to the underground and see what I can find out about this Edmund Digman.
I guess seeing his face again triggered that lost memory. I recognize the man in that memory as a younger version of the man in the portrait in the file.
In the memory he had brown hair, but in the portrait, he was bald with a familiar tattoo on his temple. But I recognize him, his icy blue eyes were devoid of any emotion, or empathy.
What did he mean when he said my father and him were the same? Now that I think about it, I don't really know what my father did when he was not at home. I know he was a hired hitman a few times, but other than that I don't really know.
I look up at my closet and see the hood I wore when I first came here. When I was only known as (y/n/n). I smile at the memory; a lot has happened since then. But maybe it's time to use it again when I go to the underground. I don't know what's going to happen, but I need to go. I need to understand my past, and if finding this man and getting rid of him will help me do it, so be it.
I won't be able to stay down there for too long, but I think I know where I should go. I do remember when I was little my father would talk about this bar he would go to 'find jobs'. It wasn't too far from my old house, maybe I should start there.
I'll deal with this later. I stand up from my bed, grabbed the book and made my way to Hange's office again. Hopefully she'll have more knowledge than I do about the plants in this book. If anyone can figure something like that out, it's her.
I walk into Hange's office without knocking and am surprised to see Moblit there too, "Hi Moblit, are you well?" I greet him politely.
"Yes, thank you. Are you heading down for training?" He asks, smiling at me.
I nod my head and return his smile, "Just dropping this off for Section Commander Hange." I place the book on her desk and get out of there before Hange could interrogate me more.
As I rush out of her office, I hear Moblit rush out after me, "Mind if I walk with you?"
I narrow my eyes at him suspiciously, ".... Okay."
Did Hange say something to him? I like Moblit, but we aren't exactly friends, we don't really speak with each other much.
He walks with me quietly, looking at me out of the corner of his eye occasionally.
"Something on your mind, Moblit?" I ask him, growing frustrated with his silence, "Hange, say something to you about me?"
"Please don't take offence, she's worried about you, (y/n)." He says quietly.
"It's none of her business, Moblit. It's not her place to worry about me, she can worry when my presence here is more of a burden than a blessing. I'm aware I have given probable cause to worry, but it has to do with my personal life, not as a soldier. If I start being a bad solider or team player, then she can interrogate me. Any questions?"
"It was not my intention to offend you," Moblit replied. Damnit, being angry with him is like trying to be angry at a puppy, you just can't stay mad at him, "Hange just doesn't want anything to happen to you is all."
"I'll be fine, Moblit, promise. Maybe you should take her mind off me." I smirk at him, raising my eyebrows suggestively.
"Wh-what do you mean?" He stuttered, face beginning to go red.
"You know," I smile widely at him, "'Feed the kitty', 'do the horizontal happy dance', '2 person push ups', 'test her humidity'," As I continue with as many euphemisms as I can, I notice Moblit's face gets more and more red and more and more terrified... This will work, no way he will stick around if I make him more uncomfortable.
"(Y/n), please stop."
"'Ride the skin wagon to pound town', 'attack the pink fortress', 'assault with a friendly weapon', 'tickling her tommy from the inside'," I continue, trying to make him as uncomfortable as possible.
Moblit starts to cover his ears, but that won't stop me, I can be very annoying when I put my mind to it, "'Disappointing the wife', 'plowing through the bean field', 'roughing up the suspect'," Moblit has finally had enough and he rushes away from me down the next perpendicular hallway.
"Hey! You chose to walk with me, I can do this all day!" I laugh loudly, satisfied by the end result.
"What are you doing?" Mike laughs, not far from the hallway Moblit just exited down.
"Giving Moblit life advice." I reply innocently.
"You are in no position to give anyone life advice."
"Fair," I agree, "Walk with me to training? This may be our last chance to hang out before you leave."
Mike nods and falls instep beside me, "So, get a chance to ask Erwin if you could come on the mission?"
"My mother told me I shouldn't speak with my mouth full."
"Whoa," He chuckles, "So forward, I was not expecting that."
I was going to ask Erwin about that, but with less superiors around it will be a good time for me to sneak away to the underground and do what I have to. I doubt I'll find Digman my first night looking for him, I'll have a few days in a row I can search after my regular daily tasks.
"Too bad," Mike says, "In that case..." He doesn't finish his sentence. He puts his hands gently on my shoulders to keep me still and gives me a light kiss on my forehead, "I would have given you a proper one, but I know where that mouth has been not one hour ago. But I had to do something," He smirked at my shocked face, "Just in case I die." He continues walking down the hall as if nothing happened.
"Mike Zacharius!" I yell after him and punch him playfully, "If anyone is going to come back from that mission, it will be you." It's weird to see him like this, he is usually so quiet, it's kind of refreshing though.
We chatted the rest of the way to the training area and got to work.
Time skip, after dinner...
It was nice to get back to my regular routine. Eren has been stuck to me like glue today once he saw me walk into training with Mike. He also kept trying to figure out where I was last night, Sasha must have mentioned something to him.
I haven't seen Erwin or Levi around, that's probably a good thing. They don't typically take part in regular training with the newer cadets, they have their own work to do. If one of them were to be around I'm sure I would be convinced to stay instead of leaving to the underground.
I make it to my room and grab my hood, this feels kind of weird. I haven't worn this for a long time... But I have to conceal my identity down there, there will be a lot of trouble for me if I don't.
Hange's POV:
I can't get my mind off of what is going on with (y/n). Something isn't right... Why is she moving so quickly? This is the kind of behaviour I would expect to see in someone who is dying. It wasn't long ago she blushed whenever I even mentioned Erwin or Levi's name, and now she is just nonchalantly admitting to sleeping with both of them? Get as much living in as they can before they die...
Why would she be at odds with Dr. Thompson, though? Does she have her mother's illness like she feared? What is going on?
I'm startled out of my thoughts by a knock at my door, "Come in!"
A woman with dark brown hair pulled up in a tight bun on top of her head, grey eyes and glasses walks into my office.
"Hello, do I know you?" I ask the woman, studying her carefully.
"No, not officially," She replies, sitting in the chair across from me, "My name is Katrina Sanderson, I'm (y/n)'s oldest sister."
My eyes go wide, so this is Katrina. The sibling (y/n) appears to hate, "What can I help you with, Ms. Sanderson."
"My sister found out some pretty devastating news yesterday," She said nervously, "And I'm worried she may have something drastic planned."
"What makes you say that?"
"My sister isn't the do nothing type, I gave her something yesterday and I think I may have made a mistake. I just saw her collapse and I panicked. It was wrong, I should not have shown it to her. I should have just dealt with things by myself. I didn't mean to get her involved and now I'm afraid she is going to get herself killed."
"Wait, what happened to her? What do you mean, what information?"
"I'm sorry, I can't go into detail, telling you would put you in danger as well."
"Why did you come to me then?" I narrow my eyes at her.
"I tried to visit (y/n) when she was rescued from outside the walls, I saw you speak with my brother and sister when they were visiting. They seemed to like and trust you, so I thought I would come to you. It's clear you care for (y/n), so I felt I could trust you to keep an eye on her."
"I don't know what you expect me to do," I say, giving her a confused look, "She's an adult, she is able to do whatever she wants, I can't stop her. Especially if I don't know what I'm supposed to protect her from."
"I only want you to keep an eye on her, and who she interacts with. There are a lot of people who don't have good intentions for her, even those who seem to be close with her. Please, I know you have every reason not to trust me. I was awful to her, I chose a lie of a marriage over my sister who needed me more than anything. I'm trying to make it right. I'm not asking you to get involved, I'm asking you to monitor and take care of her. Make sure you keep anyone you don't know away from her. Please."
Looking into her eyes I can tell she seems to be in a lot of distress. She looks like she's about to cry but determined to keep her emotions in check.
I was very suspicious when she first told me who she was, but I can tell she is being sincere. Whatever this family is wrapped up in sounds dangerous, and obviously effects (y/n).
"Is (y/n) well?" I ask her quietly.
"No."
"What's wrong with her?"
"I can't be the one to tell you. If she wishes to confide in you, I cannot stop her."
"Is Dr. Thompson involved?"
"Yes."
"In a good way or a bad way?"
"Both."
This is bad, can I even go to Thompson and ask him? Would he be honest? What is wrong with her? It must have something to do with her mother. That's the only thing that makes sense.
"Please," Katrina'a voice pulls me out of my thoughts, "Just do what I couldn't do, protect her. I'll do what I have to on my end."
She gets up from her seat and heads to the door, "Should I tell (y/n) anything?" I ask her before she walks out.
"No," She looks back at me and smiles sadly, "She still hates me, it's best if she doesn't know I was here. I'm trying to make things right, the only way I can." Without saying anything else, she leaves my office.
What am I to make of all this? Can I even trust Katrina? Should I try talking to Thompson and find out what is actually wrong with (y/n)? Should I mention something to Erwin or Levi? Would she have confided in them? No, she wouldn't do that.
Maybe I'll just go directly to her, just to check on her. I get up and head out the door. It's after dinner, she's probably in the shower or her room... Or maybe she is with Levi or Erwin...
I start making my way toward the women's dorms, might as well check there first. When I reach their door, I give it a few loud knocks.
"Section Commander Hange," It was Sasha who answered, "Is this about what happened in the kitchen? I told them I'm sorry! I get raging black outs when I haven't eaten for an extended period of time! I didn't mean to hurt anyone!" She says hurriedly.
"... What?"
"Oh, nothing ma'am," She laughs nervously, "What can I help you with?"
"Is (y/n) here?"
"No, she just left actually."
"Did she say where she was going?"
"No, is everything okay?"
"Yes, sleep well Cadet Blouse, you have to be up early tomorrow."
"Yes ma'am." She salutes me and closes the door again.
I guess the next stop is the showers then check with Erwin and Levi. I looked out the windows down the hallway when something catches my eye.
I see a hooded figure walking across the grounds towards the stables. I know that hood, I haven't seen it for awhile, but it is unmistakably (y/n)'s. Where is she going that she needs to hide her face?
I hurry after her but being careful to stay out of her site. I will have to be careful though, she is pretty in-tuned with her senses. She will notice me if I'm not extremely careful.
I quickly grab a horse and follow after her. This is so strange. why is she sneaking out like this? I keep a decent amount of distance between us as I follow her for about half an hour, and I finally realize she is heading into Wall Sina.
I follow her for another 20 minutes when she stops to tie her horse up to a post.... She is heading toward an entrance to the underground...