Apollo pov
I started heading towards jade room to inform him about the shift in magic binding ceremony date , but soon head butler approached me with a letter in his hand
He looked in hurry and respectfully handed me the letter , looking at the golden phoenix seal on it one can guess it belongs to royal family, I sighed knowing full well that my free time might be cut short .
I asked the butler to give my message of delay in ceremony to jade and move towards my office.
My office is simply elegant , it been so long since I entered this office, after her death i couldn't bring myself to approach this room , knowing full well that every corner of this office contains her touch, from the beautiful white roses on my desk to the black velvet couch , from the beautiful golden black pen with red lining to the sea like paper holding stone , from the curtain to the matching chair that makes me remember her trying to get me to stop working and eat something, her knowing full well that once I start working I'll only stand up after finishing my work.
She excelled in distracting me , her pouting light while showing cat like eyes , I just couldn't focused and would always give in...
After so long I am finally going to enter this room , after marrying jade i decided to leave to guard front lines just because I couldn't look at my son face , his face that shows the betrayal he felt , and finally after coming back and again betraying my love right after , how I'll be able to look at her face in afterlife
It's been Two minutes since I am standing in front of this office holding the door, but still my legs just won't listen to my command..
"Master " my head butler voice came " is something the matter" his face showing concerned and sympathy.
* See love even my people can see my desperation, but you can't* with a soulless laugh i shocked my head as no and finally with enough courage i entered the room..
Since the time i came back from front line and decided to work in my room and not in office, i thought I'll be able to handle entering this office after some time but guess I still couldn't help but miss her presence..
" I am going crazy" with a little laugh my thoughts slipped from my mouth, after putting the letter on the desk , i touched the once fully blooming but now dead roses , everything in the office seems clean but same as before and i guess they decided to pity me and didn't moved the vase .
With a single gentle touch, roses petals broke and fell , " I'll ask the maids to clean these roses" my head butler said , I knew I can't do anything about these flowers but they were the last flowers my love putted in the vase , " no " I said , he looked like he wants to say something but after looking at my face he stopped, do I look desperate, pitiful or what , i shocked my head and again gently started touching the places where we used to sit together and talk , or should I say her talking whatever gossips she used to heard and i being the crazy lover who used to just admire her , remembering all the memories a simple smile descended on my lips . Like a dead flower learning to bloom I smiled and finally decided to focus on my work ,
" Can we do something to preserve these flowers " i asked," I can ask the jeweler to make a bracelet of these petals if you want " he suggested, i hummed in agreement and he took the flowers in a pouch with him
After staring at his back till he closed the door behind him , I took the letter and opened it , first came the greetings then praise and finally his motive
" This bastard wants to match my son with his daughter, who does he think he is , my little rose is someone who comes once in every million year and he thinks his daughter is beautiful enough for my son , no...no nothing likes this will happen
Even if the girl is gorgeous like goddess but still my Ambrose is just a little kid and I am sure he will regret it if in future he fell for someone else while being engaged to someone else..so a big no will suffice" reading the letter and understanding the emperor intension full well , i won't let my son fall in this trap but he is emperor
He wants me to send Ambrose to the palace to get training that i can understand but he will be the playmate for the crown Prince and
His twin sister ...I can clearly see his intensions...but no matter what nothing could be done ,I can only tell my son to be careful
With a final sigh of frustration, i ringed the bell and head butler came in , asking him to send Ambrose inside, I stand up and looked at the big window that shows the green house clearly, I used to like seeing her roaming around the garden and taking care of the flowers in green house, now Ambrose is also doing the same , taking care of the flowers,his mother worked hard to cultivate and roaming around the garden in free time
Just like his mother he likes to play piano and humm a melody while walking around, when he small he would ask me if i had nightmares and i would like to just hear him sing the lullaby his mother used to sing for him ..he was such a cute and kind kid , he still is but he just learned to hide this side of his...
One day he will be able to show his true self to the person he loves and maybe that person will help us full the gap between us...
I just have to be patient..