There's something special about that dream of yours, truely something special that will make you jump in joy just by thinking of having it on your palm at last.
Through the roads in Lumsberg's Avenue, with the puddles that's been made due to the heavy rain currently falling from above, not showing any signs of stopping like it was kind of comforting me at the moment. Tears were always flowing these past few days, since i didn't want to believe what they have said to me. I didn't want to believe something that they would announce out of the blue, i didn't want to believe that he was— dead....
It's been been a month ever since he was announced missing and weeks since he was announced— dead... Have they searched enough? Makes me wonder... How can they just give up on such a spectacular person? Have they ever thought about the feelings of those people that they hurt because they weren't looking enough? Makes me wonder why they gave up in such a small period of time... Makes me wonder why they held his funeral without even his body inside the casket.
"Allison, don't move those boxes until i say so." Mom warned and went to the living room get her phone that was so loud due to the continuous ringing.
I looked at the boxes for a moment and slowly read the labels, clothes, utensils, school necessities, towels, fragile glass and so on... What really caught my eye was the one labeled Ezra... Who packed this up? Did Mom do this?
I approached the box and slowly undid the tape that was the only thing that kept it closed, with my long nails i cut through it— finally it opened and a nostalgic feeling towered seeing the things that was onced belonged to Ezra... And without even noticing, i was slowly ramaging everything and place all of them in line so that i can scan them properly— together...
"What happened to my words, Allison?" Mom suddenly popped up with her confused look as she looks at me, her face screamed even more confusion when she looked down on the things i lined up on the floor.
She took a moment to realize that it was Ezra's belongings, she quickly went on her knees and quickly picked up Ezra's belongings and returned it to the box where it was once belonged... Or atleast that is where she put it.
"You told me to not move the boxes until you say so.." I repeated her words and followed. "I only opened one box and ramage all the things inside it, you didn't say anything about opening boxes..."
Mom just sighed and went back on her feet, she knows that she can never win against me. "Just please get ready, okay? We are moving out and the moving truck would come any minute now." She uttered and went to the kitchen to help Dad with cooking our last meal here in this house.
—FLASHBACK—
"What are you gonna do when there's so many food on your table?" Ezra chuckled and sat across me.
He was wearing his usual smile as he looks at me, his gaze went to the food and suddenly his tummy grumbled.
"Must be really hungry." I jokingly uttered.
I could see how his ears turned red and took some of my nachos and dip it on the sauce, he was pouting as he ate some of my nachos.
—END OF FLASHBACK—
I looked back at Ezra's belongings and returned it back to the box, i don't want to remember anymore, it feels like it's tearing me apart half.
I sealed the box once more so that his belongings won't scatter as they move it to the new house, even though i'm trying so hard to forget, it feels like my heart doesn't want to.
I sighed and walked to the kitchen, Mom and Dad was finished preparing the food on the table, the two of them smiled at me to give me comfort. They know that these past few weeks has been hard for me, they understood it and i'm thankful for their understanding...
"Lunch is ready," Dad announced still smiling at me. "Come and sit." and offered that.
I did what he said and sat on my usual chair, i looked at the food that was on the table, all of them looked plain— i just don't have any apetite right now.. My tummy was beggining to swirl when i saw a familiar dish that was on the table, cheesecake... It's ment for dessert..
"Sweetie, it's okay shh.. We're here..." Mom suddenly hugged me and caressed my hair.
I didn't notice that my tears were claiming their attendance, my heart felt heavy as i watch Dad give me the cheesecake signaling me to eat it hoping for me to calm down, but that only made it worse.
"I'm full.." I announced and dashed to my room, i could even hear my parents calling my name with worry, but i choose to ignore it.
An empty-plain-looking room welcomed me when i entered, i quickly locked my room incase my parents would decide to check on me. It felt like just yesterday... Just yesterday that he was just sitting on my bedside laughing because of my jokes, smiling because we're together... Don't hunt me anymore... I try so hard to forget you, why won't you let me?!
I touched my necklace and roughly pulled it leading it to be detached in the wrong way, together with it being broken, i throwed it far from me.. The ring that was clinging on the necklace rolled and rolled until it calmed down on the rug that was once under my study table.. Why didn't Mom packed this?
I slowly picked up the ring and put it inside my pocket, I coughed while I was rolling up the rug, I winced in pain when my knee hit something sharp. I looked under and saw a door handle, that was the cause of my pain..
Out of curiousity, I went to the side and lifted the small door on the floor, a gush of dust towered the room and the sound of my coughing echoed. I waved my hands near my nose and mouth like a fan to stop myself from inhaling the dust. When the dust cleared up, i quickly looked down and scanned, it was a small compartment and the only thing inside it was only a medium sized wooden box, it had all sorts of design carved on it, but what stole my attention the most was the initials on the centre... A.E..
Even though I don't remember putting this inside, I quickly picked it up and place it on the floor. And without any second thoughts, i opened it without hesistation. A sudden melody began to play, another nostalgic feeling visited and hugged me, hearing the melody that was once played by his guitar..
I regained my insanity when the melody stopped, I wipped the tears that kept flowing, despite my blurry vision i managed to discover one handle, being fast, i pulled it and a letter appeared labeling My Allison, my name...
Without any second thoughts i opened it and read the contents of it, i'm sure that it's ment for me..
One thing i want to see, is you reaching your dreams. The first time i met you, you mesmerized me. Don't forget about me and i'm begging you not to move on.. Come find me.
That was just like a signal, i suddenly dashed out of the room and opened the box being labeled Ezra, again i ramaged his belongings until i found a certain book being labeled as Achieving Dreams. I knew that this was Ezra's book, this was the only book he wrote down every specific place he wanted to go, every specific opinions and what to do in every location.
Are you perhaps in any of these location? That circulated my mind as i read the heading.
A journey i want, a risk to take, sacrifices i must face, in a journey to achieve my dream and find what is lost.
Funny... It feels like he knew he would disappear.. Funny that you wrote find what is lost, what did you lose? What did you lose to disappear without a trace and become one of things you always wanted to find.. You disappeared making you being someone who's been lost by people, how can is it so worth it to find what you have been looking for? How can you sacrifice yourself? How could you?
"Allison... What happened..?" Mom and Dad asked in unison as they looked at me with worried faces.
Their faces screamed confusion when they saw what i have been holding on my hands, Ezra's book and his letter... They realized who the letter was from and their face couldn't be described as they try to figure out what was happening and what was i doing.