After the mission was completed, I refused to leave the world.
I'm married to my wife.
After the fifth year of marriage, I was diagnosed.
He wept with joy.
He has always been indifferent, and both times he has failed because of me.
Kyoto everyone knows, he loves me like life.
But I know that he kept a bedroom outside.
The children are three years old.
This time, the system asks me: "The mission has been successful, is it out of the world?"
I laughed and laughed:
is...
01
Congratulations, Mrs. Bao is delighted.
When the doctor said this sentence, my eyes were red in an instant, I held my hand tightly, and I was happy that I could not speak for a while.
is not like the king of the four kings killing in the courtyard.
, we finally have a baby of our own
Yeah, we've been married for five years.
The expectations of children are getting higher and higher, but the more hope, the more waiting.
He is an only son of the princedom, and his son is very important, but because I have a lifetime of two people, I categorically refused to take the mother.
He said that he only loved me, even if he had no children, he would only keep me alive.
He is so faithful, how could I not be touched.
I am the most delicate person, but in the past five years, I do not know how many bitter medicines, how many needles, and how many prescriptions I have tried.
It's painful, it's hard.
But I know it's all worth it.
Now we finally have a child.
Recalling the past, I only felt sad, tears fell uncontrollably.
He wiped me with tears, very gentle, as if I was his most precious treasure, and it would break if I touched it.
I stared into his affectionate eyes, shaking and crying.
I know that his deep feelings are not fake.
He really loves me.
But he could also hide it from me, make outer rooms, and even have a child with that woman.
is three years old.
He kept it from me for three whole years.
02
All people in Kyoto know that the waiter loves his wife as much as he loves her, and fears her like a tiger.
He swore not to disobey, and it was no use to anyone to persuade.
That year, when the Emperor saw that Bao Wei had no children, he gave him several beautiful consorts, and I heard the news and was angry, but his Majesty did not dare to quit, so he arranged for the next person to clean the house.
But at noon, he came back alone.
was hit with fifteen plates on his back.
It was that he refused the reward, and his Majesty was annoyed to beat him.
My heart is in tears, but he usually laughs at me.
"I just need you"
He smiled so beautifully that his eyes seemed full of stars.
At that moment, all I heard was my heart beating.
He will be promoted as a waiter very busy, but will bring me back to the government when I love to eat pear flower cake, will be for me in the morning, will fear that I will be bored in the residence, he will ignore the status, for my own weaving, but also afraid that I play with the cold, and then ordered others to add clothes for me.
one by one, telling me over and over again
He loves me very much.
How can it be fake?
I murmured, "The system, you say, he loves me or not?"
The system didn't respond, and it was dormant since I refused to leave the world.
But I think that even if it is awake, it probably cannot analyze the complexity of human feelings.
03
Maybe it was overthinking, I had a very bad morning sickness.
In just half a month, I lost 10 pounds.
Anxious good temper can't help but also anger at the subordinates and the doctor.
Later, he did not know where to find out that an old sister-in-law around the empress had a way to treat pregnancy vomiting, so he ignored his face and asked for the Empress.
The empress laughed and scolded him for being strict with his wife, but lent him his sister-in-law.
He red face, but nod to admit this statement, thick face belt away grandma.
Several harem girls present at the time laughed at all.
Less than half a minute, the news of this matter boiling.
Even when my mother came to the door, they all laughed and told me that I was blessed, and that there was such a good man who loved me so much.
, the pavilion has a new hibiscus, clear and tired, you will like it.
He placed the cake carefully in front of me, with a smile on his eyebrows.
But I just took a bite and put it down.
said:
"A mango, the almond blossoms, you accompany me to Xiangshan to see tomorrow."
His smile becomes stiff for a moment, and then there is nothing wrong with his smile: "Tomorrow rain, the mountain slips, you just got pregnant, or don't run around."
, you want to see almond flowers, I accompany you to see how the almond flower cabinet, can also drink a cup of your favorite almond wine.
I stared at him, trying to find a glimmer of guilt in his expression.
can't be found.
He really seems to care about my body, just said this.
"Again, wait for the weather to be good, and your husband will accompany you to Xiangshan on the day."
He holds me in his arms, and the warm breath strikes at my ears, a familiar fragrance.
But I was keenly sniffing the smell of almond flowers.
went to Xiangshan today.
There lived his outer chamber.
He pampered the woman in the fragrant mountain building, spring, almond flowers in the branches, the entire yard is surrounded by almond fragrance, beautiful.
Like me, as a crossing woman, there is no fighting spirit, willing to be trapped in these four sides of the sky, can not move.
04
Half a month later, the princess invited me to the almond feast she hosted, and she always treated me well, and agreed.
When he was about to get into the carriage, he still took my hand with worry, "I can't go with you today, you can be very careful."
, there are thousands of instructions to my maid, to know the heat, to add tea, some small things, he must be sure before peace of mind.
My beautiful girl bamboo tone with a few envious:
"The man can really love Madame, full of Kyoto can not find a second man like the man, such a rare achievement, and know cold and hot men -"
Without finishing, he was pulled by a branch.
She saw that my face was ugly, and she shut up and did not dare to speak.
I leaned back in the carriage, slightly closed my eyes.
"The Good Prince"
These three words, in the past I was complacent, proud, now listen to, but only felt irony to the extreme.
In fact, I cheated.
This time in Xiangshan, I did not participate in the almond feast.
wanted to see the woman.
I stood under the almond tree and looked at the plaque not far away
"Jade Cabinet"
is like jade.
seems to really care about her.
My heart clamped violently, and I only felt that there were thousands of cuts and cuts, bloody and bloody.
At this time, a familiar figure suddenly knocked on the door.
is a bosom.
I have known him for decades, and no one knows him better than me.
Then a woman opened the door and looked up with a bright face.
Her shallow smile caught the arms of the arms.
went in with her force.
Far away, I seem to hear him whispering:
"mother"
The voice is low and dark, full of desire.
He was moved by her.
05
When I got home, my arms were not back.
I looked out of the window at the swing and saw that all the flowers on the vine had withered.
The prosperity is not there, only the scars are left.
as well as my heart.
At this time, the woman came in.
"Are you happy today?Your husband brought you almond flower wine, tonight you taste two mouthfuls?"
He took me by the hand and led me to the stone table.
I sat down and stared at his neck.
Two spots of red are left on the white skin.
is like showing off, and it's like bragging.
I lifted my hand lightly on the red mark, the fingertips are cold, stirring a layer of goose skin, he laughs to hold my hand, I suddenly open: "why, what is your neck?"
With a slight tension in his eyebrows, he explained: "Probably a mosquito bite--"
I interrupted him: "It's spring!"
He said: "It may be allergic, I accidentally out of a piece of fish today, did not care at the time, I did not tell you."
As he spoke, he knelt in front of me and shook my hand hard, as if to prove his credibility.
But I'll never trust him again.
I stared at his beautiful curved eyes, smiled slightly: "waiting, you said that you would be with me for a lifetime, you also said you would never lie to me, these words to this day, still count?"
He looked at my face, as if he saw a trace of it, and his panicked hands trembled, and he took me into his arms.
Very hard.
He said over and over in my ear, "I love you, I only love you."
You see, the mind never lies.
So he only said that he loved me, but he didn't dare answer any of my questions.
He lied to me.
I know.
Even now, I doubt that his love, so many years of love, is not a fake.
I want to be clear.
06
When I got up in the morning, I kissed my cheek and told the girl not to bother me before I left.
I listened to him leave, got up slowly, and walked to his study.
He was never defensive of me.
So I soon found a wooden box.
Pear trees.
It is marked with my little letter -
B. B.
This is what I made with my own hands, and I gave it to Bo as a gift and a crown.
He looked at the scratches on my hand and red-eyed with pain.
In front of me, he was never an indifferent prince, but a crying ghost who would sell well.
, this box I will surely treasure, put my favorite most precious thing!
After the marriage, I did not intend to look, but found that it was all my portrait, and he said that I was his most precious treasure.
My face is ashamed, but my heart is very happy.
But now, I see another portrait
Women's red dress, beautiful posture, and she is sitting next to a small doll, like a childhood bosom.
There are also four words in the bottom left corner -
"The Most Precious"
My heart clamps, the force of my hand is subconscious.
Tear.
has torn a corner of the portrait.
At this time, a familiar voice came from behind:
, what are you doing here?
It was as if I should have flung the portrait before him and questioned him as to who it was.
But I didn't.
I put the portrait inside in silence, covered the box again, and turned to him.
laughed shallowly, as if before.
I said:
It's okay, I'm just looking around.
Look at how a man I have cared for for decades cherishes another woman.
Love is love.
Not loving is not loving.
If you tell me that he is in love with his woman, I will be sad but I will not be obsessive.
But he shouldn't lie to me.
In the late evening of the night, my arms are already asleep, and my hands are still unconsciously patting my back, gently appeasing me.
I opened my eyes.
hand slowly outlined his corners in mid-air, very handsome ah, and the past little man is clearly a person ah.
But he has changed.
I know.
My voice is very soft, very quiet:
"Hopefully, it is you who told me never to undermine me."
You lied to me.
07
I first saw it in the second year of my journey.
My new task has only one -
assisted in the closing.
When I first arrived, even if I was deeply loved, I was still full of fear, for fear that if I did not pay attention to revealing my identity, I would be burned alive as a demon in this era of worshipping ghosts and gods.
My parents loved me, but they valued my beautiful posture even more.
Sister loves me, but she values more the right to let her step to heaven.
Therefore I am cautious in everything, and I say little and not much.
However, at a peach flower dinner, Miss Ming, who has always had grievances with Sister Sister, has repeatedly mocked Sister Dauphin, but I was angry with her to argue with her, but she was pushed down the pond.
That time, I really thought I was going to die.
But I didn't.
was the one who saved me.
He put the fox on me, and in three words half-dead the lady.
When she was gone, he looked back at me and slightly bent his eyes.
"Sister Shen, are you all right?"
He laughs beautifully.
is brighter than peach flowers.
At that moment, my heart moved quietly.
He is the little prince, is today's queen's nephew, handsome and beautiful, the status can not be said, Kyoto do not know how many women secretly.
I was only twelve years old at the time, and it was no surprise that I was in love with him.
But I just liked it.
I want to go home more than I do.
More is to want to see him a few times before leaving.
Look at his brace in the martial arts field competition, look at him talk with his sister, when the ruling dynasty, see him frown sometimes, sometimes laugh.
But whatever that looks like, it's undeniably beautiful.
That day, I bumped into the bosom that was about to leave.
I apologize.
But he raised his hand and straightened my hair, and laughed two times.
Miss Shen, your brother and sister are different.
It's cute.
I looked up at him, and with one glance I was red in the face.
The sun was shining just that day, but it could not withstand the temperature of his eyes.
I ask myself.
Really just like it?
is not.
I'm in love with him.
I can't lie to myself any more.
When I was 16 years old, I was pregnant with my family.
"Miss Shen Er, I have been pleased with you for a long time, I only want to be with you, not separated, only willing to accompany you around the white head, you will marry me?"
He promised me a lifetime double, promised to always love me and love me.
How could I refuse?
So on the day after the seal, the system asked me: "The task has been completed, is it off?"
I refused.
did not hesitate for a second.
The system seems to have anticipated my decision, and only sighed one sentence:
"A man's delay may be said, but a woman's is delayed, not to be said."
At the time I just felt uncomfortable.
did not expect, but a word.
08
I don't like the place where people are very cluttered, and I can avoid Miss Kyoto's party.
Chi saw that I was upset, the fetus had been seated, and then coaxed me to go to the Fangji restaurant to eat new dishes.
may not really happen.
I was sitting at the window, and as soon as I looked down I saw my arms.
Carriage beaded curtains raised, a lively jumping child first jumped off the carriage, the mouth shouted "daddy."
holds him in his arms with a smile, does not suggest that the child kicked his robe dirty, it is difficult to imagine this is because in the martial arts field kicked by his brother dirty clothes corner will have to bathe and dress.
A woman got out of the car and looked at this scene gently.
The father is kind to the son.
They are like a family.
and I, but a short time to steal the arms of thieves.
My heart slammed.
"Lady, Madame, are you all right, Miss?"
Until the anxious call of the branch calls me back to God.
I look at her, but I see her face full of tears.
Miss, don't cry, stop crying...
Crying?
What to cry.
I didn't do anything wrong, how could I cry...
But I lifted my hand and touched my cheek, and my fingertips were cold.
Miss, how about we go back to Shen's house, and we'll tell the old lady
"No!"
My refusal didn't hesitate for a second.
Sister, although she is the queen, but all sides of the embarrassment, the mother is already working, at this time can not be upset because of my affairs, how can her body bear it.
This is my business.
This is the path I have chosen.
How it goes, I decide for myself.
I look at the backs of the three departing, and my eyes are clear.
"I want to think, I need to think."
09
After returning to the residence, I sent someone to investigate the nurse.
I always want to understand, for what kind of woman, I can betray my own oath, and deceive me for so many years.
Shen's secret guard was very efficient, and in less than three days, I knew all the emotional entanglements between the two.
This woman was actually the cousin of Bo, Zhao Yan.
Four years ago, the old lady saw that I had not yet conceived, and then from my home to find my mother, while I went to the palace to meet with my sister, and gave the drug, the two people had a husband and wife.
The next day when he woke up, he wanted to raise the sword to kill his wife, but also the elderly lady pleaded hard, so that he put down his sword.
The old lady wanted to give her a credit, but she did not agree, and the old lady did not dare to force him again, only to put her mother in Fangshan.
did not shake his head.
Later, my mother had a child, and she treated her coldly, but went to see the child.
Once, twice, three times...until now.
Chi said next to him: "Lady, the prince is also secretly counted--"
She said it all to herself.
"He has a long experience in the sand field, even the poison has a three-point resistance, how can he be the medicine of the tiger and wolf, and the first time is an accident, the next three years, is it all?"
I laughed two times, put the letter in the furnace, only one instant, white stained with flames, only a pile of ashes.
He just wanted to do it.
May want to have children.
It may be that the woman is indeed beautiful.
He went along with it.
10
When she returned home, it was dark.
He was so for many days, but the woman was not willing to let him go.
Otherwise, the woman's smell will not get heavier.
First he summoned the branch to ask me how to eat food today, branch age is small, can not hide, the attitude is very cold, he frown, but did not say anything, let her leave.
I look, but only feel sad.
You see him, the next person so offensive, he endured the anger, only because she is my wife, do not want to hurt my decency.
late at night, he carefully applying to me, the tone gentle: "you are always some unhappy recently, tomorrow husband to accompany you to the fragrant mountains to relax it."
I looked at him, and the candle fell on his face, and it was dark, but his eyes were bright.
Like countless evenings all these years.
I closed my eyes slightly in my arms.
He tapped me on the back and told me the story of the day.
The voice is low.
I was sometimes amused by him until I went to sleep.
He kissed me on the cheek and said I love you.
At the time, I just thought these were ordinary days.
However, that ordinary, but can not go back.
I want to laugh, but feel very tired, tired of the thousands of times for his heart, all slowed down.
"No need, the flower period has passed, the almond flowers have also failed, and it is useless to go."
At this time, the system that has been dormant for a long time suddenly sounds -
"Hello host, you can leave at any time after the task is completed."
"What happens to this body after it's gone?"
"Death of the Body"
Heard that my fingertips trembled.
As if he sensed something, he held me tight in his arms.
Don't leave me, I love you.
I have always been soft in my heart, but this time I want to see it.
If I should die-
will not regret today, to my betrayal of deception.
11
When I went to Xiangshan again, it was in June when I was pregnant.
Under the god Buddha, I appear particularly small.
I knelt on the ground devoutly, and held my head three times
as a child, I wish him a happy and healthy life.
2 is shen's family, and I wish the family prosperity and prosperity.
Three for the bosom, I wish him a long life, years old unforgettable me.
walked to halfway, the day suddenly rain, the road more slippery, a group of people came to the Xiangshan cabinet to shelter from the rain.
Going to the door, I looked up
"Jade Cabinet"
three words are no longer.
All that remains is the cold fragrance pavilion.
is no stranger.
Jade has been cherished another place to put, jade pavilion and what is the significance of existence.
I stood in front of the porch and looked up at the peach tree in the middle of the courtyard.
The first time it was seen, it was not yet leafy green today.
Suddenly, my eyes were locked in a little red
is a delicious bag.
Probably left in a hurry, missed.
Zhi took it to me, and I opened the fragrance bag, and there was a note in it
"I wish you well-being and a long time with you"
"With wishes"
The words above should be written by the nurse, and the words below are familiar to me -
is a bosom.
I watched it for a long time, then slowly put it back and gave the bag to the branch.
Put it away...
These are to be returned to the future.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry.
It was really someone who could be so good to me at the same time, hoping to grow long with other women.
At this moment, my eyes are sour.
can't shed any more tears.
Just a gentle, gentle sigh.
The world is uncertain.
The flowers blossom.
12
The rain lasted for a long time, until it was a little dark before it stopped.
Zhi has already packed the room and intends to rest here for the night.
But I categorically refuse.
Wei and the nurse here do not know how many times over the clouds, I just think, I nauseous dry vomiting.
This place is dirty.
Zhi's heart will accept, and my heart will hold my cold hand distressed.
Zhi let people pack the carriage, and light the stove, for fear that I would freeze.
I leaned on the fox, and I looked at the poem in my hand
"For a man's delay, even he can say it; for a woman's, it must not be said."
, old, old make me resentful. The shore is the shore, and the sea is the grave.
"The dinner of the general horn, laughing and laughing, swearing and not thinking about it, instead of thinking, it is already uncomfortable!"
I read over and over again.
Until the face is full of tears, no more words.
I was really, really sure that I would not become a sad woman in poetry.
But in the end, it is difficult to escape.
I covered my face and cried, covering my crying under the rain.
But I am not grieving for it.
I feel sorry for myself.
can't go down together, separated and reluctant, crying that I am in a dilemma, cries that I'm cowardly and timid, and crys that the love I get is fleeting.
At this moment, the horse suddenly exclaimed, and a sharp arrow wrapped in the wind penetrated the window.
is not close to me.
Zhi's face was white, and he quickly helped me out of the carriage.
The guards were also solved one by one by the sudden appearance of black men.
Bloody smells like rain.
I consciously vomited.
The footsteps were slow, and the arrow came straight at me.
I softened my legs and subconsciously closed my eyes.
"Bee!"
The arrow penetrates the flesh.
Blood splashed on my face.
I opened my eyes and my eyes trembled.
"with a..."
He tried to bring out a calm smile, but the next second he fell straight into my arms, and blood rushed from the wound.
Until the last moment of his fainting, he still whispered in my ear:
Don't be afraid...
He told me not to be afraid, but I was very afraid.
I'm afraid he's alive and he'll keep hurting me.
But I am more afraid that he will die, and that I will be forever indebted to him.
I hate him.
Hate that he does not love me at all, but also to make this deep feeling, let me struggle with pain, repeated self-doubt.
is in my arms.
Why did you give your life to save me?
I die, you and her, you with your children long long, not good?
That's what you want.
Tears fell, drops fell on his shoulders.
, I hate you.
Really.
hates you.
13
Arrow through the chest.
Naturally no minor injury.
is extremely dangerous today.
old lady hurried to see the blood, anxious eyes black, but do not forget to rebuke me uneasy in the room, all day remembering to run out.
I have no intention of arguing with her.
looked up and saw a woman behind her.
Zhao Yu.
Her face is white, her eyes are red, and she is constantly wiping tears.
More worried about safety than this wife of mine.
She noticed my eyes and subconsciously shrank her shoulders, as if I were a beast.
Madame Pao noticed this, and quickly blocked in front of her for fear that I would injure her in any way.
This is the treatment I have not received for many years after my marriage.
I may be the Virgin of God, but I don't intend to embarrass her.
Women in this world are difficult, why embarrass each other?
When it is settled, the heavens will be bright.
I only felt a slight pain in the small abdomen, probably caused by fatigue, and I drank a bowl of abortion pills and planned to sleep for a while.
I did not expect that the old lady was so eager to wait.
Until you wake up, you will confront me.
This is her cousin, and I intend to make her a dear sister to her.
I look down, unconsciously pinching poetry.
Seeing that I did not make a statement, she said with impatience: "For many years, even if you have a son, you have no children, you are worried about you, and now you have children, the position of the right lady is also steady, always can not let the eldest son of Houmen have no title -"
At this point, I realized why she couldn't wait.
she is aware of the waking up to determine not to allow zhao yu into the door, then forced me to nod, then Zhao wu to enter the house, the best to my heart, and she is free from mother and son grievance.
. Three arrows.
is a good idea.
I put it in poetry, very lightly.
"okay"
old lady for a while, even the unopened Zhao Yan also looked up at me, did not expect me to be so cheerful.
After all, I have been alone for so many years.
I laughed and my eyes lit up.
"I agree, old lady chooses the day let her in the door"
14
When I woke up, it was already half a month later.
The day he woke up, I didn't go.
Zhao Wei went with Bao Mingnan, but was soon driven out.
The child rejoiced and said to me:
Miss, you don't know, when you see her, Master Hou's face is very ugly, one pushed her to the ground, let her out of the house, the dude was crying, the grandfather was more loud, only to let Miss you pass - ""
Without finishing, a figure suddenly rushed in.
is a bosom.
He still has a bandage on him, so that blood is seeping outside, but he heedlessly embraces me in his arms.
"Beep, beep!"
called my name over and over again.
also takes care of my pregnancy, and my hands are careful.
I did not struggle, and whispered, "Whispering, you are shaking, what are you afraid of?"
My shoulders are warm without a sound.
He was crying in silence.
So the sound is a bit hoarse:
"I am afraid you are gone, I am afraid I am very afraid -"
I patted his head like it was calming.
Don't be afraid, I won't leave, I'm still pregnant with your child.
He hesitated and looked up in surprise.
"For ever?"
I'm not going to lie.
So I just laughed and said nothing.
His eyes were instantly dimmed, and his hands shook my shoulders trembling.
"I know I was wrong, I shouldn't have lied to you, I was confused --"
You're not stupid, you're smart.
I looked at him and smiled gently: "You know that I know Zhao Yan's existence and will be sad, so you have been hiding it from me."
His face changed: "Beep, I-"
I put my hand on his mouth.
"In these years, you are probably more good to me because of guilt, I am more distressed for you, more guilt because of long-term pregnancy, in my child, drinking a bowl of bitter medicine, the whole arm, are you not with her, laughing at my stupidity?"
"You have been hiding for more than three years, you are not leaking, see how smart you are!"
He raised his hand to hold me tight, and I didn't hide.
This time, he held me very tight, like to put me into the body, breathing in my ear, and he said sorry over and over again.
But I smelled a sweet fragrance on him.
At this moment, I am very clear and understand, even if the distance between me and the arms is close at hand.
But their hearts have long since changed.
He's not him.
I'm not me.
We are no longer in this world.
I leaned on his shoulder, very lightly but firmly
Don't be sorry, this is the path I chose for myself.
"I love the wrong person, I trust the wrong people, I am the stupidest and most confused person in the world"
"I give up, I give up"
Let's go.
15
On that day, they fled.
But what use is there to escape.
The facts are set.
I don't go out in the hospital, I walk occasionally, I just take a few steps in the yard.
On this day, when I suddenly heard the lively wailing sound in the square courtyard, I remembered
My mind is not secretly coming to see me today.
It was Zhao Yu who was coming in.
In the beginning, the body is naturally unwilling, even if the old lady repeatedly searches for life is useless.
However, one night Zhao Yan hanged himself, and when the rescued people were already dying, Bao Mingnan even knelt for a long time before the bosom study.
The mind is hard on anyone.
But this kid is soft to the pee.
So he compromised.
I'm not really surprised by his choice.
Today's wedding dinner, he did not invite me, I will not go.
I don't want to see him, nor do I want to receive Zhao Yan's royal wedding.
But I really did not expect that Zhao Yan would take the initiative to come to the door.
"Lady, my wife is already pregnant in April, the old lady said that until the birth of the daughter-in-law, she will be promoted to a common wife."
She wears gold and silver, her eyebrows are proud, and she has no previous cowardice.
This is probably her real face.
as well.
A woman who can catch her arms, how can she really be a simple white rabbit?
I looked at her and didn't take her word.
She went on, "What does Madame think?"
"This is a matter for your family, you have to ask."
My tone is faint, drink a mouthful of hot tea: "It is not that I am not willing to ask for it."
This remark seemed to penetrate her false pride, and her face was slightly shy.
"What did you say to the prince, although he married me, but he delayed not to touch me, even if I was pregnant, he did not have a happy look, are you behind the ghost!"
"Shen, do you think that you can occupy his heart by overwhelming his people?"
The voice was still falling, and I took a hand and slammed it in her face.
She was beaten.
"You hit me -"
At the same time, the arm slowly came in.
Zhao Yan fiercely closed his anger, his eyes were red, and he jumped at him with weeping: "Sir, I don't know where the body has annoyed Madame, but the lady who provoked it has done something to her body."
Embrace but do not look at her, stupid look at me.
"She hits you, you take it, this is what you deserve"
She hesitated, then lowered her head.
"It is..."
I look away from Zhao Yu and Bo Bo.
But no more heart.
was disappointed.
16
After that day, I found that Bian was unusual for Zhao Yan, and even a little cold.
But I could not tell if he was acting again.
I don't bother thinking about these things either.
Chi saw that I was lazy every day, and he coaxed me to go far.
After a while we went to the pond.
At this moment, Bao Mingnan suddenly rushed in front of me.
I was shocked and almost fell to the ground.
Seeing that I was supported by the branches, Pei Ming was disappointed in the south, but with teeth, hateful voice said: "I am a bad woman, bully my mother, take away my father, your child must not die!"
It was like a bomb went off in my head.
No one dares to curse his child in front of a mother.
I was angry and bloody, and lost my mind.
Just wanted this man to die!
, what are you doing!
Until it was violently drawn away.
I just got back to it.
South neck is ten fingers of tears, covered with blue purple.
is my pinch.
"I -"
I was shaking, and I was staring at my arms: "with arms, he says he cursed my child--"
Mingnan was lying in her arms, crying softly: "Daddy, I didn't, I just said a few words to Madame, she was going to strangle me, I was afraid."
When he said this, he coughed violently, his throat was hoarse, and he was pathetic.
patted him on the back with distress, turned to look at me, but was full of disappointment.
, I know you're mad at me, but how could you kill a child?
At this moment, the sun is shining.
I only felt cold, and the cold that came from the heart carried to every corner of my body.
"You don't believe in me, and you do not believe me..."
But he turned his head away from me, and his voice was cold.
These years I have surely kept the promise of a lifetime and a couple of people, only to keep you alone, but I have been twenty-five, you are not pregnant for a long time, and I am a housewife, always have a son to let the family peace, how can you not understand me?
"Hopefully, how long have these words been hidden in your heart?"
I laughed awkwardly, "I don't know, originally you think so, you think of me so ... ..."
This is the case.
It was all my wish.
I was wrong and I saw the wrong person.
I trembled with my hands and turned back.
Behind the arms is probably aware of my wrong, want to catch up.
"I'm sorry, I said the wrong thing in a hurry -"
The next second, Zhao Wei shouted.
Master, look at Nan.
He looked at me, looked at Bao Mingnan, and finally stopped and embraced Bao.
17
After that day, I never went out.
I trapped myself in the house.
Look at the poetry again and again, over and over again delay my heart.
Until the last ounce of love disappears.
I am not willing to ask: "The system, the child really can not take away?"
system sound cold: "again reiterate: he is the thing of this world, can not take away also can not remove"
"okay"
This is also the reason why I did not tear my face with my arms.
I left.
My children are going to stay here.
He will face the rest alone.
And what I will do is to arrange his life properly before I leave.
I wrote a letter to Sister Yao, asking her to take the child into the palace after I left, I do not rest assured, I only reassure Sister Yan.
She has always been smart and courageous, and the child can learn a lot with her.
Then it will be over.
I gave the red bag I picked up and the new bag I made to the branch.
My fragrance bag is embroidered with a lonely grasshopper, and my little letter.
There is a letter that I wrote to my bosom.
is very simple.
but enough.
I arranged everything, enjoined Zhi: "When I die, be sure to hand it to Biao."
Chi crying, holding my leg, only know nod.
I touched her head, softly calming: "Small child, what are you crying for, your lady is going to have a good day, you should be happy before you are happy?"
She looked up at me, her eyes shining bright.
"Lady has suffered in this life, and she will have a good life in the next life!"
I have no idea.
Have I suffered in this life?
doesn't seem to be.
I came across, scared day by day, but pampered to the great.
When I was a child, my parents and sister supported me for a day.
After marriage, there is a mind for me to support the sky.
I fell in love with him and depended on him, as if I had really become an ancient girl.
But I know better than anyone else.
I'm not.
I am full of novel ideas, I make wine and swords, I can draw more gorgeous mules, I will design more beautiful dresses, but I will not dare to show them.
I am a family daughter.
I represent not me, but the Shen family, my every move represents the honor and decency of my parents and sisters.
So I don't do anything.
I sometimes wonder, if only I had been born in this era.
In that case, the daughter-in-law will take it well, and I will do my best to the grace of my righteous wife.
But I am not, nor can I share a husband with another woman.
I just have to live a lifetime with two people.
When he could do it, I stayed to love him.
He couldn't do it now, so I left.
Just, my departure must not be silent.
I am going to give you a gift-
A blood-colored gift with my death as the end.
I am sure that he will be unforgettable for life.
18
Seeing again already when I was pregnant in August.
For a few months, I never met him.
I knew that he would look at me from a distance every day, but I ignored him.
But on this day, I took the initiative to go forward.
He was ecstatic and told me many things, and I listened quietly, rarely responding.
At last he said that he was going out and would be back in about a month.
I looked up and said, "Can you come back on the day of my birth?"
He nodded without hesitation.
I will definitely be back.
I laughed a little.
He looked and shook my hand, and his voice whimpered: "I know I was wrong, but I really love you, and we'll have a good life later, I'll just hold on to you!"
I watched him for a long time.
saw that he had some vague desire to divert the conversation.
I nodded, "okay!"
He was full of surprise, careful to touch my stomach, look at me again, as if to carve me in my mind.
waited for the soldiers to come and urged him to leave.
I looked at him, his back, and suddenly I called him:
"Look, you'll be back early."
My smile was very gentle at that moment.
It's like going back to the naive look I had when I first married him.
So in an instant, he red eyes, focus on the head:
You wait for me.
19
But I did not expect that this would be the last time he saw her.
He fought in conquest, and the enemy army he fought was defeated every day.
The people made him a god of war, but he often looked at a bag of money.
, wait for me.
He put a gentle kiss on the lips, and his eyes looked as if Shen was right in front of him.
Suddenly, the camp tent was opened behind him, and a soldier rushed in, holding the envelope and shaking his hands
Master, Mrs. Hou bled out when she gave birth, and the young man was harmless, but ... but Mrs. Ho
With a dramatic change of face, the voice with a trembling sound: "You dare to curse, I will kill you!"
He will raise up his sword and cut it off, but the soldiers will only bow their heads, their foreheads will be blood red, but they will not change their mouths.
"Mrs. Hou is really in critical condition, Master Hou!"
The sword fell violently to the ground.
A loud bang.
"Beep!"
He broke his heart and cried, and went out mad.
Three days and three nights.
He did not rest for a while, exhausted six horses, and finally arrived at the Kyoto capital.
But it's too late.
The prince's white handkerchief hung, and the white lantern peeled and hurt his eyes.
He doesn't believe!
He will not believe that He will forsake Him.
"Beep, beep!"
He was not willing to shout the name of his beloved, hoping that a woman in pink dress would come out to meet him with a smile.
, how did you come back?
But he waited a long time.
did not come out.
She was surely still mad at him, it was all right that he should go to her.
promised him, and when he returned, he would not be angry, and he would live well with him.
He already knew he was wrong.
He will have plenty of time later to make up for it a little bit.
20
stepped into the main room, and at a glance saw the bed lying on the bed.
, I'm back.
He walked joyfully to the bed and put his hand to hers.
is freezing cold.
The expression on his face froze for an instant, and he could no longer deceive himself.
is really dead.
He only felt as if a heart had been cut alive.
leaves only a bloody hole.
, don't be angry, I came back to accompany you, I know already wrong, you are the kindest and most beautiful woman under heaven, how can I scold you viciously, you hit me or not?
His throat was sweet, and he spit out a mouthful of blood, and a drop splashed onto his body.
Blood is warm.
, but not hot.
"Lady, grandfather, the lady has gone--"
Zhao Yu pounded forward, crying tears.
But the words were not finished, but they were thrown into the heart with a foot in their arms.
Her eyes were black with pain, but her chin was pinched in her arms.
"She died, you are not very happy, do you think you can replace it?"
His eyes are clear, his lips are bloody, like the king of death.
Zhao Yan's face was white with fear, and he only dared to shake his head.
There is no such thing.
"Get out!" he shouted, and viciously scratched everyone, "get out!"
Bao Mingnan hurriedly helped up Zhao Yu, who was soft, and fled as if he left.
21
After that day, the people who did not eat or drink did not sleep and stayed by the ice coffin of Shen Ying.
old lady to persuade, Bao Mingnan to advise, there is no use.
He even took up the knife and wounded two people.
This is what you owe, what you do owe.
looked at the back of the two people running away.
He looks crazy and laughs up to the sky.
then jumped on the ice coffin, and looking at the ripples, he suddenly fell into tears again.
A drop of the past appeared in front of him.
smiled and looked at him gently, his eyes very soft.
seems to go back to the beginning.
Let's have a good time.
"Come back soon"
, almost.
Almost got them in the long car.
Why did God punish him so?
Even if it is punishment, it is also his fault, his disloyalty is his betrayal is his deception, why take away his life?
, I was really wrong, will you come back?
His voice was hoarse, and the next second it seemed like he was going to vomit bleeding.
It's getting late.
It's too late.
No one will be distressed by his wounds, his hippie smile annoyed her, she was ashamed, pampered and scolded him.
No one left a lamp for him at night.
He has no home.
After the sixth year of marriage, he had no home.
22
Madame Hou's coffin was delayed in burial, and there were discussions in the court, but no one dared to persuade the mad devil's mind.
or the queen sent someone to say a word to the bosom -
"Are you going to die without letting her go?"
's rigid eyes moved and two rows of tears fell.
This night, Shen's daughter found a chestnut.
gave the two bags.
Zhi's eyes are cold:
One was picked up in the tree when Madame went to the treasure pavilion, and one was embroidered before Madame died.
Treasury?
squinted, then realized what, and his face was fiercely white.
"Because -"
tears, but gnashing teeth, hateful voice: "yes, the lady early know that you have raised the outer room, is your good lady sent a letter, miss know everything, but she read your feelings, nothing said, a word did not say."
After that, she couldn't say a word, and turned away.
looked at the two bags in his hand, violently opened the red bag, and a note came out -
"I only wish you safety and well-being, and my mother and you will last forever"
"With wishes"
This is his handwriting.
But - but he never wrote anything like this!
But even if it is fake.
Betrayal is real.
Fraud is also true.
He trembled again, and opened another bag, which contained a note
"This life has been in vain, step by step wrong, you and I can't run away because of the fruit"
orchid fruit.
"Hopefully, the person who made me sad all the time, only you"
"I am the stupidest, stupidest and stupidest person in the world."
"You don't believe in me, you do not believe me..."
, that's what you think.
hopeless empty tears, like late, now fell in his heart.
Each one is heavy.
At this moment, a huge regret poured in.
His death was wrapped in it.
can't fight it out.
can only be eaten again and again by grief and regret.
to death.
23
The next day, the coffin is buried.
Embraced under the eyes, crying and laughing with the coffin.
The people in attendance understand
is completely crazy.
Because of the departure of Madame, the god of war who has not changed his color on the battlefield is crazy.
took the little nephew after the Shen in the palace, and the young son of the Boi family, who was less than a month, was a Marquis, completely broke the mind of Zhao Yan's mother and son.
When she was awake, she wrote a letter of divorce, and abandoned Zhao Yu, but she was struck with a sword.
He killed red eye.
It doesn't matter who stops it.
Bao Mingnan did not dare to appear before him again.
Gradually, the Houfu people went empty, and Mrs. Bai took Zhao Yu's mother back to her remote home and did not dare to show her face.
is mostly down this life.
The prosperous princedom of the past, stands tall.
There is only one girl who is late and refuses to leave.
Asked by others, her eyes were fierce.
I want to see him die.
He's dead, I'll leave.
She's got a vicious vibe.
24
Six months after Shen Yin died, the branches went to the main house as usual.
Miss is gone, but all her things are still there.
She can't let those things accumulate ash.
went under the willow tree, but saw a figure lying on the stone table.
She took a closer look.
is a bosom.
"If you want to drink, go somewhere else, don't bother Miss here--"
But halfway through, she perceived something.
She was the only one breathing here.
She lifted her hand and looked under her nose.
is not breathing.
He is dead.
is finally dead.
Chi does not feel fear, but happy.
The man who had depressed her young lady finally died.
It was not unjust that she poisoned him every day, even if he slept, she would give him smoke, so that he would not get a moment's peace even in his dreams.
She is to let the bosom live in fear every day.
It is not wrong for Miss to love him.
She laughed and wiped the tears from her eyes.
For a while, she seemed to see the young lady when she was a girl--
Her face was a little baby fat, and she wore a novel dress she had never seen before, with a bright smile and a delicate voice.
Zhi, I am very happy now, you should also go to your own life.
Happy every day.
"okay"
Miss, then I wish you eternal happiness and well-being.
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