March 6, 2009 [8 AM at Tokyo]
A typical day goes by without a hitch. Until I reached graduation from Minami Tama High School,
the cherry trees were blooming, the branches and leaves were blowing in the wind,
the third year students were sitting in the hall listening to the principal's speech
"Shin..."
"What's wrong, Kamiki?"
"somehow I'm bored~"
"come on, we were just listening this speech"
"ah~ I want to drink cola"
"Look, your parents are staring intently at you there"
"huh!?"
"you better be careful next time"
"uh.....looks like I'm going to get scolded after this graduation ceremony"
"...that's for sure..."
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March 6, 2009 [9 AM at Tokyo]
"you stupid child, why are you talking when someone is talking in front"
"sorry sorry! please don't pull my ear any more than this!"
Kamiki and his mother looked very close, and so did his father, who was looking at them arguing with me
"these guys, everywhere, always causing trouble..."
"ahaha...but that is one of the characteristics of your family's harmony, Hiro- san"
"...*sigh*.."
Hiro-san and Tsumiki-san are Kamiki's parents, and both of them have helped me throughout my life in Tokyo
"Shin"
"yes? What's wrong Hiro-san?"
"....your family...want you to come to your grandfather's birthday party.."
"..."
birthday party huh....I don't visit my family anymore
"You don't have to come if you don't want to, I I will tell Suzuki-san and Mayumi-san that you have something that needs to be taken care of"
"..no need, Hiro-san, I'll come
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To be honest... the relationship between me and my family is very bad, since I entered junior high school, my family has started to separate me from them
for work reasons, but I knew
from the start, my mother didn't like me because I was a child born out of wedlock.
My father only loved my mother. , and he doesn't really care about me, when it comes to Mom, Dad will act like the greatest person
since their marriage, I finally have a younger sibling, and she is very beautiful. When I entered the first year of junior high school, I went alone,
I didn't really care about this, I often saw my sister being accompanied by my father when going to school, and I always thought that it was for my sister's safety.
But day after day, week after week,month after month began to pass until
the day of graduation arrived
When everyone was happy with their parents, I stood alone under the cherry tree.
I hoped that someone would come, be it Father, Mother, Uncle, Aunt, or whoever,
but it was all in vain, even when the wind had stopped blowing. , they didn't come
I had expected this, but it still hurts
"congratulations on graduating, Shin-kun"
"...?..."
a white haired woman came up to me while giving me a bouquet of flowers
she looked very beautiful, and from her clothes. ....why is she wearing such strange clothes? the clothes are like clothes from games or anime
is she a cosplayer?
"...um..thank you...a lot..."
"..."
she smiled and handed me a handkerchief
"...ah...sorry about this..."
whether I realized it or not, my eyes rolled out These tears
were the first time someone praised me for my hard work.
I took a handkerchief and a bouquet containing white lilies
while wiping my tears with a handkerchief. I tried to ask the name of the person who gave me these flowers and handkerchief
"Can I ask what your name is? "
"..."
but no answer came out of her mouth, only the sweet smile she showed me.
The wind suddenly blew hard, and I closed my eyes because I couldn't stand the strong gust.
The woman suddenly disappeared from my sight
. I was shocked. but at the last moment, I could see her mouth moving and saying a name
"....Thir...ta?.."
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In Tokyo, I met Kamiki, my childhood friend from elementary school
and he was an otaku.
We went to school together until graduation
and I lived with him.
It was all an idea from Hiro-san, who has been an acquaintance of mine since childhood.
I am very grateful to Hiro-san and Tsumiki-san. because they wanted to accept me in their house
and even though in the end, I had to immediately move somewhere else
"I've actually thought about this...but...are you going to continue your education?"
"...well...I'm going to go to university and look for a part-time job to support myself..."
"..is that so..."
Hiro-san's face looks a bit sad, is there something bothering him?
"Shin-kun..."
"..?"
Hiro-san seemed like he wanted to say something
"no, forget it, I hope you can graduate soon and work together with me"
"...hehe,by then you will already have gray hair"
"how is that possible, I will always look handsome"
"...that's true..."
Hiro-san....since I met him, he has never changed
*tick
the wind....stopped?
*tic
"Hiro-san.."
"...."
Hiro-san also stopped moving!?
there-what is this
*tic
the sky turns dark? Are the clouds moving? even though there's no wind...
".....huh?"
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Everything stopped moving
even the birds flying in the sky
the clouds didn't move, but a huge shadow started passing through the sky of Tokyo slowly
Shin thought it was just the clouds moving
however, that expectation was easily shattered
"...h-hahahaha...what the hell is that.."
The shadow flying in the sky had four very large wings, red scales, golden eyes, and a horn in his snout
emerged from a mysterious hole, he was a dragon born from the dimensional gap of the illusion of a dream
dragon dream that could go anywhere he want
Great Red flew wherever he wanted
for some reason, Great Red flew through the human world
as if he was looking for something, and that was proven by his eyes moving
and finally, his eyes met Shin
Shin was surprised and swallowed his saliva
in Shin's mind, he was confused Was this a dream or a reality,
sweat started to appear from his hands, back, and even his neck,
that look felt like the end for Shin,
however, there was someone who walked up from behind Shin and greeted Great Red
"Great Red, it's been a long time since we met, but can you don't just scare someone..."
Shin glanced to the side and found a woman with white hair and wearing a white dress.
She was the woman Shin had seen in middle school.
"...you are-"
"sstt"
Thirta silenced Shin by pressing her index finger to Shin's lips
then Thirta walked and disappeared at the same time as Great Red started to open a dimensional gap and disappeared slowly
all still not moving
but the wind blew hard and made Shin close his eyes
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"...in"
"..."
"S..in"
"..."
"Shin"
"Yes!? what's wrong Hiro-san??"
"...are you not feeling well? You've been daydreaming and not saying anything even when I called your name."
"...."
Shin looked around and the Tokyo sky
he thought whether it was all an illusion or a reality
"No....it's okay...."
Shin then tried to forget everything that happened today, and unfortunately he wouldn't be able to
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January 12 2010 [10 PM at Tokyo]
"You're back again?"
"...yes....Sensei.."
I came to Satou-sensei, a psychiatrist who helped me overcome the hallucinations I've been experiencing lately
tells how these hallucinations began
namely when I first met Thirta, then the creature flying in the sky and meeting Thirta again
then the dreams and hallucinations that I often experience lately, such as dreaming of seeing angels flying at the same time as devils and dragons. At first I thought this was just a normal dream, however, as the days went by, dreams that were related to other dreams kept appearing
a group of demons and dragons trying to save the world
demons, angels and angels with black wings have a meeting
red and white dragons who are always at odds wherever they are
everything is getting chaotic, I always thought this was just a dream that people often say "Lucid Dream"
but I couldn't control the dream
instead I felt like the dream was controlling me
"...so Shin-kun, try to tell me what you dreamed about today.."
"..yes, Sensei.."
I told you everything I dreamed about today
especially from the part of a little boy who is going to destroy the world
then there were many other creatures who tried to stop the little boy
such as angels, devils, black-winged angels, dragons, and many more
I even told him what I did in the dream
"...so when everyone tried to stop the little boy, you and the little boy sat and chatted?"
"...rather than being called chatting, it's like it's just me talking and the little kid listening..."
"..hm..."
Satou-sensei wrote down everything I said very carefully
different from the psychiatrists I've been seeing, they just said I should relax my mind and stay away from things related to the imaginative world for a while
Satou-sensei was actually interested in what I told him and tried to find a solution
"You also said that the hallucinations have been happening more frequently lately?"
"yes"
"What did you see in that hallucination?"
"...."
I lament my strange fate
"This hallucination of mine is probably the worst"
"Is it getting clearer?"
"No, but... my hallucination this time was the scariest hallucination I've ever experienced..."
"..what's that?"
"....I..I can see a seven-meter tall mechanical humanoid with five eyes in total. Two on each side and one on his forehead that shines with gold. His body has a tint of black and purple with thick limbs."
"...Is that creature doing something?"
I looked out the window and noticed the creature
"He's looking at me, out there, right now"
Satou-sensei adjusted his glasses and looked outside too
all Satou-sensei could see were trees and a peaceful public park bustling with people, and a clear sky
However.... the sight I saw was trees that were destroyed and burned, a garden that had no form, people lying lifeless, a gray sky, then among it all, stood the mechanical humanoid that I mentioned earlier looking at me as if staring at me. a prey
This is a hallucination that has exceeded normal limits
".....okay, let's end it here..."
I nodded and thanked Satou-sensei for checking my condition
he then told me to take some medicine to calm my mind
when I came home, I immediately took the medicine that Satou-sensei gave me
according to his recommendation, I have to take this medicine at least once a day, if after two weeks of use my hallucinations still persist, then I have to go back to Satou-sensei
After taking the medicine, I immediately walked to the window and saw the scene
the clear sky, the trees that are green and standing firmly, I can see all that now, even the humanoid is no longer there
however, it didn't last long
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December 21 2011
I finished my studies early because of my hallucinations
Day by day, I feel like these hallucinations are getting stronger
I even needed to take mind calming medication several times
Luckily I have Kimiko who always accompanies me, he started to worry since he found out I had this hallucination disease
every day he looks after me and even takes care of the needs that I should be responsible for myself such as washing dishes, cooking, and so on
oh, and he did all that at my boarding house
Kamiki started staying here because he was worried that I wouldn't come home
Actually, I don't want to bother Hiro-san and Tsumiki-san anymore, especially with hallucinations like this
but, whether they were understanding or just a coincidence, they sent Kamiki to check on my condition and in the end, Kamiki decided to stay with me
and several months passed, we both worked as office workers at Hiro-san's boss company
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December 1 2012
it's been a year since we worked at boss Hiro-san's company. and we have worked hard until now
Even though I still have to deal with my hallucinations, I can somehow take care of that with Kamiki's help
"Shin~"
"..what's wrong, Kamiki?"
"You know...I confess Kudou-san today~"
"seriously?"
"yea~"
By the way, today Kamiki and I were on our way home after a drinking party at the tavern near our office
and as you might expect, Kamiki was very drunk
he started telling me about love at first sight and blah blah blah how he was accepted and blah blah blah, then finally, he told me about the anime he recently watched
"Oy Shin... are you listening to me??"
"Yes...I hear you..."
"Then come on, hurry up!"
"...where..?"
"Didn't I tell you earlier, we will go to the park near Satou-san's house?"
"....."
I don't know what to say today
"Hurry up.....I must immediately receive an answer from Kudou-san today"
"...*SIGH*..."
I helped Kamiki walk towards the park near Satou-san's house
and as Kamiki said, Kudou-san was waiting there
sitting alone in the middle of the park
for some reason I felt afraid of the atmosphere
I walked slowly with Kamiki towards Kudou-san who was sitting
then Kudou-san got up and dusted off the dust on her skirt
"You're finally here, Shin-kun"
"....Kudou-san?"
For some reason...Today's Kudou-san is different from the usual Kudou-san
"I'm sorry, Kamiki was drunk and came here to receive answers from you."
"Oh my.....what's that?"
Kudou-san turned around and looked into my eyes while smiling
"Kudou....san?"
"yes? what's wrong Kamiya-kun?"
"um...."
"Come on, do you have something to say?"
"Are you really Kudou-san?"
"hm~ why do you doubt that?"
I doubt? isn't it obvious?
"As far as I know, Kudou-san is a person who doesn't smile easily, and also, Kudou-san doesn't call me 'Shin-kun' "
"...."
Kudou-san smiled even more and chuckled
"Why? Is there something funny?'
"No, it's just that I'm amazed by your thoroughness."
"...."
"Then I will introduce myself again"
"...."
"Nice to meet you again, Shin-kun"
"...that voice.."
"yes, I am Thirta"
Kudou-san's hair turned white, and even her whole body no longer looked like Kudou-san
"I am the Goddess of this world"
"G-Goddness?"
"tahts true, don't you believe it?"
"no, it's not like that..."
Honestly, I believe what he said, all this time, there has been no one crazy who wants to claim to be a goddess in this world, except for the woman in front of me.
she has repeatedly appeared, and what's even more crazy, she stops time
I put Kamiki down and drank some mind calming medicine
Thirta who saw this grumbled and looked annoyed
"Do you think this is an illusion?"
"...I think, seeing such a beautiful goddess in person makes me not believe that this is reality."
Thirta smiled again and laughed
"really, what did you say in front of the goddess"
"..I'm just honest with my feelings.."
she finally stopped laughing and came closer to me
then she held my cheeks and our foreheads touched each other
"..um...Thirta-sama.."
"sstt"
"..."
Thirta told me to be quiet
that means I have to be quiet
but not long after, a memory began to burden my mind, it felt very painful
all the dreams began to return, without a single dream being missed
These dreams are about dragons, demons, angels, humans, gods, and monsters
DxD world
I held my head because I couldn't stand the pain
and at the last moment, I saw him again
A Mehcanic humanoid standing within the chaos
like the end of the world
When I was about to faint, Thirta hugged my head and fell backwards
I couldn't stand this pain, and I also fell following Thirta
somehow it felt like a hug from a lover
"I'm sorry for making you experience these hallucinations, dreams, and pain..."
Thirta said that while stroking my head
"but I have no other choice, this is all for you and me"
In the end Thirta continued to stroke my head, and I felt the pain slowly starting to disappear
and I came to one conclusion
"...Why should I.."
"...."
Thirta stopped stroking and immediately answered
"...I actually don't want to choose you...."
"then why...."
"You know... in this world... there are lots of souls"
Thirta explained about the cycle of reincarnation
"all living creatures will continue to die and be reborn...even demons..."
Yes I know it...
"And actually, there are many worlds that are similar to that..."
...so like that...
"However.... in a world where the cycle of reincarnation should occur... your soul will not be able to be reincarnated..."
"...what does it mean..."
I looked at Thirta and Thirta also looked at me with the saddest gaze
"Shin-kun... your soul is an imperfect soul..."
"..imperfect?"
"Yes... if your soul goes to heaven... then... your soul will be mixed or even the worst part will be removed from this world."
"...."
Why did it happen?
"...in the past...God created various kinds of souls to inhabit this world...but...God made a mistake..."
"....."
"Trihexa...a disaster for this world....a creature that will bring the end"
Trihexa...
"When God was about to create your soul,..Trihexa began to destroy this world. Therefore...God abandoned the creation of your soul and went to seal Trihexa at the risk of his life."
"...."
"And when Trihexa was successfully sealed... God's power was greatly drained... until finally... your soul was not made perfectly. You were born into this world... without perfection, even your fate was very sad."
"...Then, what should I do..."
"...."
Thirta tightened her hug and looked up at the sky
"I will exchange your soul for one of those souls.."
"..exchange? But I cant be reincarnated?"
"Yes, but exchanging souls isn't reincarnation, it's like transferring ownership."
"..I see.."
"...you looks unhappy?"
of course...what about the people who have gone through difficult times with me
"..Im...."
"You don't need to worry about the people who are going through hard times with you, I will take care of it"
"....Thank You..."
"...your pleasure.."
Thirta finally looked at me and smiled again
"As a gift, I will give you three powers that will help you in the new world later"
I listened carefully
"The first is True Domination of Weapon, this ability will help you master any weapon you want to master."
"this skill is really great"
"True, but not as great as your second skill, namely Irregular Learning. You will pass and understand anything quickly. This skill can help the True Domination skill, and also your final skill."
"but...I think just two skills are enough for me..."
"...no~, you won't be able to survive with just those two skills alone."
then Thirta held my right hand and suddenly a blue light began to shine brightly, illuminating this quiet and peaceful night
"...this power is called the Gate of Tranquility..."
"Gate of...."
"Yes, you will be connected to a realm that is completely different from any other realm."
I don't understand
"You have to find out for yourself how to use it, okay?"
"..but.."
*crack
a crack occurred in the sky, opened up a blue and black spiral dimension
the crack pulled me in and left me helpless
"Huh!? What is this! Wait, there's still something I want to say!"
I'm trying to escape the pull of this dimension
but Thirta seemed to know this would happen, she just grabbed one of my hands and held me in the air while saying
"let's meet another time....next time...I will definitely spend as much time with you as possible"
with the end of those words, Thirta slowly let go of my hand
"I...I will definitely see you again, my Goddess!"
"....yes.."
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After Shin left, in this quiet world, only Thirta moved
she continued to look up at the sky and looked at her hand which was holding Shin a moment ago
Thirta hugged the hand and muttered
"I will definitely meet you"
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darkness
that's what only I can see
my body went numb, and my eyes couldn't open
Am I trapped in another dimension?
no, I'm definitely not trapped, but why does it feel so hot, like I'm on fire
ah... the sound of a baby crying...
"congratulations Ms. Hyoudou...you have given birth to two boys"
"...*pant* *pant*.."
"My God..thank you..My God..."
someone said two boys
and someone else is grateful...
there is the sound of a baby crying...but why do I feel like the sound only comes from one baby? didn't I hear two boys?
*beam
light?
*BEAM
the light grew stronger. What is an exit sign?
I have to chase it, I can't miss it
reach, my hand, please, REACH IT!!
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"My son...my son"
Miki was holding Issei in one of her arms, and Shin was next to him
"...Miki...why doesn't this child...make any crying sounds?"
"eh?....my son?"
the child didn't move and just closed his eyes
Miki's face started to turn pale and panicked
"please wake up! please!"
Miki shook Shin repeatedly, but there was no response
in the end, the doctor took Shin and examined him
The doctor didn't feel Shin's heartbeat
"...this child....he..."
the doctor will say that Shin is dead
but before he could say that, Shin opened his eyes
"...."
"...w-what?"
The doctor was surprised because Shin suddenly opened his eyes and the two looked at each other
Gorou was surprised and happy, he immediately took Shin from the doctor and looked into his two blue eyes
Gorou cried, then he hugged Shin and fell limp
Shin is Issei's older brother, so he will definitely come along and bring the same fate as Issei.
'I'm...Issei's brother?'
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