Enoch and I stayed in bed for a while, after making out passionately, we stayed in each others arms listening to our heartbeat. I don't know why, but Enoch was very gentle with me this time.
Maybe he didn't want to stress me, because he made his every thrust as slow as possible, making sure I enjoyed every bit of his caresses. His touch, his moves, kisses everything was so tender and pleasuring that I couldn't have enough.
"We have to get you something to eat, get up and dress, we're going out." Enoch said after a while.
" I don't want to go out, let's just stay like this." I said, snogging to him even more.
" Okay then let order something, or send someone to buy you food, you can't stay hungry for another day. " He said and I could see he was hungry too.
" Don't worry about that, I'll make something for us to eat, " I said while getting out of bed, and all he did was to look at me.
" I'll be in the kitchen, you don't have to follow me there, I'll be back soon. " I said as I was putting on a loose dress, before stepping out of the bedroom.
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We sat at the dinning table and ate the rice balls I prepared, without saying anything to each other. I kept looking at him from time to time and I could see he was really calm than usual.
we went to sit in the sofa next to each other after eating, and I knew this was the time to talk, but I wouldn't start a conversation I don't know how to go about, so I kept quiet.
" Will you tell me or you are still going to keep it to yourself. " Enoch asked when he noticed am not talking.
" I want to tell you, but I don't know how to, it's not easy to explain." I said.
" Then let me make it easy for you. Why did you send me that text?" Enoch asked and I could feel a little strictness in his voice.
" Am pregnant. " I said, and started crying again.
" And should that make you want to die? He asked and I felt disappointment in his voice, but he still looked calm.
" You don't understand, it's not as easy as you see it." I said, still crying.
" Make me understand it then." He asked again, almost loud.
" I want to get rid of it, I can't be pregnant now." I said between cries, and I noticed he was still calm as if he already knew my decision.
" Okay, tell me when you're ready, I'll take you to the hospital." Enoch said with his usual expressionless face, making me wonder if he cared at all.
"Aren't you going to say anything?" I asked, hoping he'll stop me from going through with my decision.
" You own yourself, and you can do whatever you want. I think I have to get going now. " Enoch said, standing up from the sofa.
I looked at him with hopeful eyes still crying, hoping he'll stay and maybe, stop me from my decision.
" Queen, don't think am leaving you, I don't know when I'll be back but I promise I'll be back soon. And for the pregnancy, you know what to do." He said but I looked away and didn't say anything, so he continue talking.
"Look at me, Untill you know me better and trust me enough to believe in me, I can't tell you what to do. And untill he's not your fiance anymore, I'll say you own yourself, and can do whatever you want. I'll get going." He turn to leave but stopped.
"Your passport will be available by next week, let me know if you want to go for it or want it delivered to you. And don't think of locking yourself up again." He said and left without saying goodbye.
*He left, without stopping me, and here I was, thinking he cares about me, he didn't even loved me, and I stupidly gave myself to him yet again. Why keep the pregnancy if he's not going to be there for me.
I'll be shamed for getting pregnant for a man am not married to. And my parents will kill me if they find out. On top of that, I'll be alone without a father for my child.
I made the right decision, and am going to go through with my plans, I don't care what happens next, he doesn't care anyway.*
I cried all I could, took my shower and went to bed early, I had work the next day and I need to look good.
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I got to work the next day and everyone was looking at me as if they've seen a ghost. If they're looking at me this way knowing am sick, how will they see me when I abort the baby later? I can't keep it any longer, it has to be now.
I stayed at the canter without stepping out even once, till my working hours was over, I went home and after freshing up, I took my phone and sent Enoch a text.
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I felt like shouting my lungs out when I got out of her house. Who will hear my silence cry? The one who is to hear me had her ears blocked.
"Did I hurt her that much? To the point she doesn't want to keep my child, and she'll die if she does." I know she wanted me to stop her, but how can I, when I can't assure her I'll be there for her.
Why would I let her go through pain and agony when all can end in a day. If getting rid of the pregnancy is what going to keep her safe and us together, then so be it."
I kept thinking and couldn't sleep in the night, and the only answer I got to my questions was to let her do what she wants, maybe she'll change her mind.
I kept looking at my phone, hoping Abigail would call or text me, saying she changed her decision, but nothing happened till the next morning.
I went to work and return but still nothing. "Has she perhaps change her mind?" I thought as I was getting out from the bathroom, when I heard the sound of my massage tone.
I run to the phone knowing who the message was from, but I wish I didn't. I read the massage and I almost cried.
"Mr Damtis, please am ready to go to the hospital tomorrow, I'll meet you whenever you say, so let make it after work, thanks."
I don't understand why I was feeling that way. I didn't have the right to stop her, so I called a doctor and booked an appointment for her, but I couldn't tell her till the next morning.
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Enoch and Abigail were not ready to let go of the pregnancy, that's what going to keep them together, but non of them wanted to stop the other.
Abigail dressed up in a simple knee length straight dress. Even though it was little, she could see the changes in her body. she had an appointment to catch and she can't afford to be late.
According to Enoch's text, they were to meet at the bus stop at the next city, and she had no time to change into something else, she was running late.
Thankfully, she got a cab as soon as she got to her junction. "Cape Coast, please harry am late." She ordered the driver as she settled in the cab. She got to the place they were to meet and as expected, Enoch was already there waiting for her.
"Good day." She greeted him, to which he respond with his head.
He wordlessly took her to his car and drove off without saying anything to her, but he could not take his mind and eyes off her slander body, which looked even more attractive in his eyes.
His heart was telling him something, while his mind was saying the another. He needed to focus on what was on board as his mind was saying, and stop looking at her, before he stops the car and bounce on her and have a rousing sex with her, just like what his heart wants.
They reached the hospital in no time and they were directly sent to the doctor's office. Abigail was a bit hesitant, but she was here already, and there's no going back. Enoch saw the fear in her eyes and thought he could use it to his advantage.
"Are you okay, or you want to say something, do you need anything." He asked, hoping she'll give up on her decision.
"No am okay, I just feel a little weak." Abigail lied. But how was she to tell him she was scared, when she was the one who wanted this.
" Queen, it's going to be painful" Enoch played his last card.
" Don't worry I'll be okay, I've been through more pain than you can think of." She assured him, making him give up.
He couldn't say his feelings in words, but he felt like something dear to him was missing, like he just lost someone.
"Mr Damtis, we'll have to leave now, you can wait for her in my office or at the waiting area." They both looked at the doctor as he said that, and you could see fear written boldly on their faces.