Am gonna be using my POV for the start
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Am scared to be alone
To be shunned
I'm scared to do the wrong
and loose him forever
I'm scared he will hate
When he learns my true name
I'm scared I'll cry
And never see his face again...
I want him to love me
No other But me ...
Those lines has always been her daily lullaby ...
Ever since he'd sprayed the cash on her and left
Heaven knows she tried ..
Oh love, how inhuman you could be
Despite her social personality
She could not help the tears ....
She was crying while she sings ...
Her eyes were sweating because she wants to excrete the horror of physical function,
she wants to drive the memory of Lucas out through her pores,
To feel them prickle down her arms and legs and bre**t before evaporating into the heavy air
....to purge herself of the memory of how he feels so good inside of hers when he had made love
to her ...
To make herself clean and start her life all over again....but could she
So she sits and let the tears, salty as sea water run in the rivulets down her eyes ..
Her body was also sweating
But still she feels so cold...
. she was cold and icy, cause the sweat was an invisible one, the one that came sliding down her
body internally,
.....the central heating become turned up as high as it slides down and it feels just like a portable
heaters that's about to blast and scorching out enough air out of her inner skin...
She was madly in love ...
Madly in love with the man who doesn't even remember she existed anymore ..
Last night hurricane couldn't have done more worst than good to her night,
Even if she kept dreaming about him, she was glad morning broke so extravagantly....
After pulling off her night gown she glanced at her reflection in the mirror
Small nose, brown eyes, quite a square face,
her jaw comes across sharply and it dips slightly in the middle ...
full breast , well rounded hips and a beautiful face
Sure
She was a perfect figure with a kind of feminine shape all men couldn't have wished for,
She tried to lift her foot but it felt incredibly heavy.
Naked in her own bathroom and cold like a clouds of steam she climbed the tub and felt rooted to
the spot with fear...
She puts her hands on the either sides, holding it right so she doesn't slip and swing...
Her whole body was weak, it just felt as if the water will rear up and bite her any moment...
Memory of the way Lucas had touched and kissed her materialize her, she thought she could
move on with Nigel, but could she..
She dunks a cloth in the water and begins to dab at herself,
Under her armpits, across her chest, between her legs as if cleaning her most intimate parts will
compensate for the part of her greediness, and her refusal to immense herself ...
She smears and wipes with increasing fury, trying to make herself so angry that she'll leap into the
bath,
Anger against fear, anger born from fear...
She wished she had never traded her friend all in the name of meeting him
She wish she'd never gave herself to that guy all in the name of meeting him,
She wish she hadn't think of moving on with his friend, all in the name of getting closer to him..
She wished she'd never been so greedy enough just to have him all to herself from the beginning
of it all
Feeling disgusted of herself, she yanks at the plug chain just below the overflow channel,
The water sloshes impassively back and forth as the bath starts to drain...
She stood up, wrap a towel around her and went towards a room that was connected to her
bathroom ...
What was in the room was her little secrets, her greediness, her love, what she wanted for herself,
who she'd been obsessed with since the first day she set her eyes on him .....
and when she opened the door,
Dark colors with the smell of air freshener blew out,
she put on the light and there,
The pictures that was seen hanged and plastered at every corner of the room was non but Lucas,
She stood in the doorway and glanced across the room
"Lucas" she breathed softly
She glanced up to the ceiling
and sucked in a breath through her teeth as the florescent stabbed into her eyeballs like needle ..
She entered and touched the pictures on the wall slowly, she tipped her head forward against the
wall frame and let out a slow deliberate breath in an attempt to calm the squall churning through
her stomach....
She kissed on the pictures and rubbed a hand against her chest where her heart had begun to
ache..
She loved him heart and soul,
She loved him die...
Even before she met him she'd been crazy about him
She made her way across to the room and slid her hands on more of the pictures on the wall..
No amount of guys,
this guy was her life, her world, her problem, her secret, and her entire life....
She squints against the tears in her eyes and grit her teeth against the urge to moan out more
tears...
She loved him, she loved him so much and its so hurting that he never for once did..
She had once carried his baby and this realisation that someone else's had a son for him made the
warms in her stomach shivered for revenge...
She never wanted revenge not until she finds out he had a son...
A son he never even knew existed..
A son who has his blood running through his veins...
She made her way across the room and tore her gaze around....
She kept on watching his pictures and couldn't but admire his whole,
amazed at how perfectly God had created him, amazed at how s*xy and good looking he was...
. the mere sight of him was enough to chill the cold and sweat with in her ...
She touched his lips on one of the pictures and kissed it ...
If only it was real...
She wish to taste him again,
She wished to have him again..
She want him for her s*x urges and not his friend, him and no other...
This was how much her love was worth,
She's ready to do anything just to have him again and she doesn't want to involve his friend in this
kinda of game..
No matter how much he loved her and wanted to help her in this revenge Lucas was still his friend
and she couldn't just trust him enough with her plan...
Now that they hired her for whatever,
The first plan should be eradicated...
And now she should think about the next....
If she can't have him, no one will
She turned and moved towards the door... the face that was seen smirking out of the room was
non but.... Celine...
Silvia POV:
I opened my eyes slowly and it felt as if someone had a pack stuffed cotton down my throat which
was now sitting on my chest and using my head for a bongo drum...
I glance around carefully and took in the destruction around the room,
I just Hope the rain has stopped
I wish I hadn't remember most things Lucus did for me last night..
But gosh i remember every damn thing,
including the part of him stripping me outta my cloth
My God
this is just so embarrassing..
How am I gonna face him,
How am I gonna look at him in the eye...
Who could tell, being a spoilt brat he could well know how to take care of a woman that much
...especially a sick one.
God he even touched me,
He carried me in that strong arms of his...
Goshhhh
The flash back made me smile like I would look at a meat that have over stayed its welcome in the
refrigerator...
The way I was ruining curses at him while he feeds me...
I thought I was horror to him but yet he seems so unmindful to my words..
At least he came back for me..
Waoooooooo
Crickkkkk crackkkk sprinn rinnn rinnn
Silvia....
Silvia ....
yesss... what kind of thought is that, he hit you and left you there, if it wasn't for him you wouldn't
be this way...
what if you'd died before he think of coming back...
Nooooooooo
You are gonna let him know the hard head woman is back,
A Woman who was rapped and dumped by men
Their existence disgust you,
If he'd taken care of you so what...
And its better you keep your thanks to yourself he doesn't deserve it...
The screw in my head loosen and made a crack noise that I could hardly make out the exact
sound it made
I squeezed my eyes closed when i heard a crack of movement in the room ,more like a door
opening,
I knew that was him, I had to squeeze my eyes shut...
In the next second, I felt his shadow over me, his cool hand on my fore head sends an electric
shivers through my veins, I had to forced my eyes open and quietly close it back when I saw his
face...
Damn...Goshhhhhhhh.....damn
how could he be so deadly handsome....
What kind of space does this bastard came from
God what is this, what is this oh lord my mum forced me into this...
It was my mum
I never wanted to accept this job.... she pushed me into this..
I have blood, no matter how much I hate him so much...
I also have blood
How am gonna keep seeing that face everyday and not fall..
Am finished ..am finished lord, am finished...
Crickkkkk crackkkk sprinn sprinnn rinnn
Silvia
Yesss..... face the reality, you hate men, and that doesn't leave him behind ...
And who said you are finished...
Mtchewwww....make him realise that woman is back
I felt his presence again, I opened my eyes slowly only to realise he was sitting on the bed beside
me, his hips pressed against mine as he lean over ...
"Hey sleeping beauty, how are you feeling now"
I frowned and instantly used one of my finger to push his head away.
"Its better you go back to your spoilt and stupid self, calling me sleeping beauty doesn't suit you"
He narrowed his eyes at me,
The instant fading of smile on his face made me realise he wasn't that pleased...
He touched his fore head slightly and stares into space for a moment before smiling,
Of course that was the first time a Lady had ever done that to him....
When he stare at me again, I felt my whole body melting at his gaze,
Why is he staring at me that way.
Why God,
The bastard had seen my nakedness,
Does that gave him the right to stare at me that way...
Gosh I folded more of the duvet and squeezed it to my chest
"Am sorry I hit you yesterday, just that the shock of you beating up those guys got my whole
system disrupted, I wasn't thinking"
A chuckle manage to find its way past the knot in my chest...
Did he just apologize...
Without replying I roll my head back and closed my eyes
"Well how about this then"
I opened my eyes and glanced at the glass of apple juice and two aspirin he offered...
With the achenes in my body
I knew i needed that so much
"Am sorry I caused so much commotion, if it weren't for me none of this would have happened, just
take this, so you could eat and have your bath before taking the others, please, you can get angry
with me to any length, but for now please just let me take care of you.
I lifted one brows, and hesitated for a moment.. before struggling to sit up.... slowly i collected the
drugs without meeting with his eyes
"I'll have to give that some thought ,
I can see you damn well know how to convince a Lady, ugly duckling"
His sound of gasp made me realise he smiled...
I lifted my gaze slowly and frown only to see him licking his lower lips..
Damn!!! I had to shift my gaze away...
Why is he licking his lips,
Too tired to argued further, I took the drugs from him, although it was torture to swallow the
medicine but I felt better almost immediately ..
He took the cup from me and reached it towards the stool beside me ...
I raised the pillow and rested my head back ...
"What time is it" I asked
"Past six"
"Its not even morning yet,"
I closed my eyes against the pillow and signed ...
Suddenly I started to feel his gaze on me, just on me and when I opened my eyes slowly he was
fast to shift his side ways...
"what are you looking at" I shouted
Without replying, he rested his two elbow on his laps before sliding his hands through his hair ....
Any one could tell something is wrong with him...
I wonder what it is.
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