Celine:
Past:
Nate gulp back his wine and started to come off his seat when i stopped him ..
I stare up at his face, he actually smiled but there was a frown not far behind
I couldn't handle it, I couldn't handle loosing this opportunity not when it had to do with Lucas
Tyson ..
I almost felt my blood pressure rising with the thought of losing the chance of meeting with him
Nooooo nooo
He has to link me up, i must meet with that deadly looking guy even if it had to take the last of my
breath ....
I pushed out a deep breath of relief when he sat back on his seat ....
I inched slightly on mine cause as a matter of fact the thought of him changing his mind send a
chill to my heart ...
But what about Silvia???
Gosh she is just an innocent girl who knew nothing other than martial art .....she doesn't even know
how much obsession we have with this guy..
Now that her dad is dead, all she kept herself busy in was the martial art school
I can't do this to her ....noo never
I glanced around nervously before giving him a pleading glance
"This is so unfair Nate, I don't wanna push Silvia into this, she's far too innocent to push her into my
shit, I can't just set you up with my friend like that ,, I even barely know you"
He remained silent for a moment before he poured himself another cup of wine ...
His chin came up and I saw right through that the reply he was about to give wouldn't be a very
good one ...
"What do you take me for?, a destroyer, who destroy the lives of innocent girls right"
My mouth quivers as I fight back the shakiness in my voice, the thought of him calling off the deal
sends my heart pounding like hell .
"try to understand she's my best friend, and I really want the best for her"
"I want the best for her too, just set her up with me and after I ask her out, your job is to
convince her to accept me and its done, you are gonna be meeting with Lucas Tyson much too
earlier than expected.."
My eyes lifted to his the moment he made mention of Lucas,
what choice do I have ...I have to set him up with Silvia ...
Or else, what would be left of this feeling inside of me, this uneasiness and eagerness
"what if she doesn't like you"
He glance at me for a second before he gulped back his wine ...
"She must, or else the deal is off"
"This is such a difficult task Nate, and the sex part?"..
He grinned wickedly
"of course, the sex part is still on"
The mere thought of him having s*x with me and yet went ahead to ask my friend out made my
chin crawl..
I drew up a sad face but the guy doesn't even seems like some one who cares ...
"No matter how I think about this Nate, this is irritating, do you wanna sleep with Silvia and
dumped her too"
"Whatever relationship I have with her afterwards doesn't concern you, the more you make it
earlier, the more you meet up with Lucas sooner"
I stab down the remaining wine left in my cup and shook my body at the shiver it gave ..I wipe my
mouth with the back of my hand slightly ,,more in a big girl manner
"How am I even sure the linking up is real, what evidence can you prove to me, you know Lucas"
He studied me quietly for a moment, his eyes was reflecting the wonder of antagonism that had
sprung up between us..
He took out his phone, not taking his eyes off me when he dialed a number ...
"Lucas this is Nate"
At the sound of that, my heart skipped, I widened my eyes at him...
he truly knew him, he knew him
"You coming to the club tonight, I have some girls already for you in the taken"
At the sound that instantly I felt jealousy battered my form,
I narrowed my eyes at him as anger filled them ....
when he finally dropped the call...I shook my head at him.
"So you hook up girls for Lucas"
He smiled before rubbing his hand on his face
"I work at the club Celine ,I hook up girls to rich guys, and the guy believe me he is too good to
have any commitment with any girl, so are you still willing to meet him, if he breaks your heart, am
not responsible for it "
I shook my head at him as if I was so sure of myself ...
"Never ..
he can never break my heart I am too sexy for him to"
"I can see that"
I covered my hand on the top of my b**st when i noticed he was skimming his gaze on the exposed
part ...
He almost managed a chuckle at the cause of my reaction ...
"You are so funny Celine, I think I like you, but I like your friend more"
"Whatever meet us at Nantes close at 7.pm at night ....
Silvia would be with me ,,,,
You will have to make it look like it was a coincidence"
"Deal"....
"Deal"
And less I forget Nate ...
"Mmmmm"
"I want you to keep this a secret, I don't want any of my friends knowing about this "
He rested his back on his seat and winked at me
"Sure , if that's what you want , your secret is safe"
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Present:
What am I gonna say lord????
I took a deep breath hoping it would help me come up with an answer but it didn't ...
Almost nervously I found myself settling for the easiest way out.
"Nigel I don't wanna talk about it"
Of course I don't , I mean what should I say, should I perhaps tell him everything, how I decided to
keep my affairs with the rich guys secret because of my greed ...
No of course not, or how I normally lied to my parents in pretence to go spend some time with my
non existent boyfriend whom I have serious relationship with only to come hide in this luxurious house
just to keep my relationship with the guys in mutual terms.... If I never lied am some rich girl whose
parent was out of the country....
will he be able to keep his relationship with me ....
I did all this the best possible way I knew was right ...
I have to stay close to him, despite the fact that I know my pretence and lies is a stupid thing to
do....just that am not ready to give up on Lucas, not ever, not yet.
He reached out for my hand and touched it slightly ..
Gosh Nigel is the coolest guy have ever met, he is nice, caring, mature and very handsome, in spite
of having such good looks he was never as one quarter as good looking as Lucas...
Anyone should have understand how deadly good looking he must have been ....,
"I understand everything far more than you do Celine, you are obsessed"
At sound of that fatigue darkened my gaze as I look up at him..
I felt suddenly busted, the words in my throat took precedence over the other, it reached out and
touched the chord somewhere inside me ...
I had to choked at the feeling it brought ...
I raised my cup and gulp back the remaining left of my apple juice
not quite sure what to say, I only sat there staring at him as my blood shiver into the highest
degrees ...
."you are obsessed Celine" he repeated
Staring at me this time ...
"So you wanna keep your friends out of knowing you had any relationship with us, so they won't
ever meet with Lucas right"
Shocked, I glance up and frown at him, the sass of unspoken words vanished while I nervously
blurted out the words
"How, I mean how"
I watched him pushed his hand through his hair as if coming to a conclusion that his guess was
right ...
Slowly he brought his gaze back to me while he manage to mu|ed a gasp ...
More like the feeling of unbelievable ,, irritation , or ungratefulness on his part ...
He slid his hand into his jean and took out a cigarette from the pack before he lit it ....
"You care for one" he offered
Silently breaking eye contact with him ,,I answered more like someone who has just been attacked
by the flu,
"No thank you, am heated enough, the lantern is doing enough"
He puffed out a smoke and smiled ...
but I realise it was not with his eyes he didn't feel it, it didn't come from his soul...
With that I felt so wrecked with the thought of being an asshole...
Will he perhaps continue his relationship with me
And right at that moment I immediately hated everything about Lucas, I hated his eyes, his lips, his
body, his damn face, I hated him so much for loving him ...I hated him so much I wish he just die so
he wouldn't exist anymore
If only it was him, if only I was obsessed with Nigel instead, after being there for me so many times,
I tried repaying his kindness for s-x ...
But what about loving him ...
I felt so disgusting right now ....
i wish i wish ...
Goshh if only the ground would open and swallow me up ...
He pinched the bridge of his nose before biting back a reprimand that might have likely be in his
tone..
And right there I felt as if my heart is about ripping out of my chest ...
"I suspected you were hiding something right from the day we came to play baseball match at the
local field ,, I suspected something when I saw you in the same cheer leader dresses along with
three other girls have never even seen around you before ...
I understand why you couldn't come further to meet with me now Celine,"
He took my hand and squeezed his hold on it ...god it hurt but I dare not speak ...
"You were afraid you'll get busted right, I saw you that day Celine, your eyes was all over Lucas ,, I
saw the jealousy in that eyes of yours when I let that woman whom I didn't even knew was your
friend into the field ,, I saw how uneasy you were, so I had to look back only to realise Lucas was
talking to the lady, I stood there looking at you Celine., gosh I can't believe this , do you even
noticed I was at the field that day, your eyes was all over Lucas, just him"
He widened his eyes towards me as anger flared in them ....
I have never seen him so scary before and right at that moment i felt as my heart pushed out a
double pounding like never before ...
As if noticing how scary his reaction was making me feel he took another long pull of his cigarette
and puff out the smoke to air .
This time he inched closer to my lips ....
He studied them for a moment, I could see the tension in the Lines besides his eyes and the
grooves that was carved into his lean cheek on either side of his mouth like some parenthesis
"I have always loved you Celine, why Lucas, huh ...I gave you almost every thing ever since he
dumped you in the pool of blood that night, I gave you another life ....yet look at you,,
you couldn't let go of the feelings you have for him, despite all I have done,
"let me ask you this, have you ever loved me"
He gave me a questioning glance, but I dare not answer cause i don't, I only cared about him, but
not love, I only like him so much but not love....
Gosh am such a fool, what should I say.
Without replying
I blinked rapidly and immediately took the cigarette in his fingers before taking a deep drag that i
thought should have been calming, but burned my throat instead ....
Instantly
I fell into a coughing fit,
But he was quiet, what was I expecting, for him to say sorry, or pat my back, for him to cuddle me
in his arms like some baby,
For him to calm my breath, noooo
I was just a bitch for f-cking with him through this years without loving him ....
I noticed as he lean back on the sofa while I cough ....
he sighed as though he just got an answer to his question...
He sat there watching me quietly while I couched my lungs out ...
Guess when he couldn't take it anymore, he stood up and went ahead to pour me a cup of water ....
He took the cigarette from me and reached out the water ...
Without meeting with his gaze, I collected the cup of water with a trembling hand before gulping it
down as fast as I can ...
Heat drifted through me as more uneasy feelings ripped down my spine ...
nervously i lay my head back on the sofa before reaching the cup out to him...he took it from me
and laid it on the table he was sitting on
"Is there more for me to know about you" he asked quietly ...
With that, I look up at him as if I just saw a high mountain, inside I was reeling yet I try to strain
away the urge to run away from this humiliation and embarrassment ..
I looked at the hurt in his eyes, I tried stopping it but
I couldn't help the tears as it fell from my eyes like rain water ..I have been lying to him all this
years, how must he be feeling inside,
"Am sorry Nigel., am sorry I hurt you, I am sorry I used you, am sorry Nigel, I wish I could just die
right now, someone like me do not deserve some one as kind hearted as you ..
. I hate myself"
For a moment he only watch while I cried miserably like baby hen in search of his mama...
Slowly i watch as he moved towards me and sat beside me, he cleared my tears away and kissed
my fore head ...
"We'll talk about everything after you get better ..."
I knew this look he gave me, more like jealousy ,, I knew he was angry, but he was trying to hide it
...he only stare down at me while I crawled up to myself and cried,
Was I excepting him to feel sorry for me, was I excepting him to say it would be alright, when it never
will ...
What was I excepting him to do?
He took the picture of Lucas that was behind me ,, he glanced at it for a moment before smiling ...
I knew it wasn't a genuine smile
"I understand you Celine,
He pulsed for a moment just glancing at the picture before smiling again
"Lucas is beyond captivating enough, it sounds somehow funny, but sometimes when I looked at
him I find my self drooling at his looks too,
I almost forget I was a man sometimes"
He rose up slowly and walked towards a direction, when I heard the sprinkle of glass I knew right
at the moment, he already broke the picture frame ...
He stared back at me while I cry out in shock ,,I knew he looked crushed and angry but what was I
to do ...he picked up the picture after wiping the glass away from it...
He squeezed it so tight I could feel him burn in rage ...
"Celine is there still more of Lucas pictures in here "..
At the sound of that I lifted my chin and widened my eyes at him ,,
"There is ....right, show me, get the hell up and show me Celine" he shouted angrily
As he walked angrily towards me, panic rose in my chest, he must never see that room ,,noo what
am I gonna do...if I couldn't provide any other pictures what was he gonna do to me,
have never seen him like this before ..... ???
"Nigel please, I will show you ..pleaseeeeeee"
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