" I need you "
My throat go dry by the time I let out the words, the line go silence and my heart rate speeding as every second pass by. God I should have shut up. I mentally slapped myself.
I know he might be shocked.
Seriously Ben, he is obviously more than shocked. And i try to correct my throat before uttering anything stupid again.
"I meant that for Ness."
No I was not. I knew it was stupid of me to think that maybe, if just maybe he could come. I knew I was stupid to think at this moment but some way I was tired and I wanted to take my mind off from Adren and Jadyn was the way. The way to make me cool off to not rip my best friends head off her neck. Or was it that i just wanted to take him off guard. I just wanted to know how will he react and every thoughts drift right away when i heard his deep heavy sigh.
" I need- " I was hesitant as i repeat thinking he might not have heard me but his deep hum made me think so and after a second I heard him laugh. A very deep chuckle which made me think of what did I utter such rubbish to hear him mocking at me, laughing hard.
“ Oh darling, you’re funny “ he said, leaving a breathy sigh controlling his titter, “ I want to make sure I heard you right.”
I knew he was just enjoying the fun of me pleading him. And I re-think my decision to call him and get his help.
“ You know what never mind and just jerk off, you sit head “ I find my words too harsh and it wouldn’t surprise me because Jadyn brings the worst of me.
“ Only if you cooperate “
“Get lost “I said gritting my teeth with annoyance. Asshole.
“Chill sweetheart” he said, giggling at my annoyance. If just he could have said anything but that, I might have endured it, ignored it but sweetheart, made me feel fluster every time he uses such names.
" You- " I held my every urge to put him in his place but shifting my gaze towards Ness. I try to ignore it. Closing my eyes to keep my mind cool and not just stir up my anger any further.
"You want my help.. in what?" he said playing around. Sure he could hear the sobs of his cousin but he liked to play dirty. My hands rolled up into a fist clenching the phone tight against my ear while i hear his audible laugh. I huffed a breath.
" Neressa is... unwell?" I wanted to put on correct words. My gaze snapped towards the girl who was now bawled in the other side of the bed away from me.
“Okay." He said and I heard the line got cut. What the-
I knew Jadyn wasn't the type to care much a lot about people but a rare population and he people I knew where his family and friends mostly Adren. And i thought Neressa was one of the people, in his list. One of the people he cared to show a little emotion. And the fact that she is his cousin.
And my friend, that was probably the reason I was mad. At least he could have offered a little help, even if he won't do anything.
I watch Neressa. She wasn't crying anymore but her small sobs didn't make the situation less in control. Her eyes and nose were red, cheeks puffy while the skin underneath her eyes turns red. God she looks so...miserable. And I felt bad to not able to do anything.
“Hey Ness should I bring you something?" I try to distract her. Maybe if she do her... girly stuffs? I was being insensitive I know but some way I knew I wasn't the way she is. She is more into make-ups, put on clothes or dresses which were usually pink and light shades. She won't eat anything if she finds it have way too much calories like girl at least eat chocolates. That much was fine right.
But still she was beautiful and kind. Unlike me who is way too opposite from her. Not that I hated makeup or putting on dresses. I just didn’t like to have one told and makeup is not my kind. It makes me feel self-conscious. And light shades of dress don’t go well with my skin. Atleast that was what I felt after wearing a coral dress I sneak to try at the mall.
My thoughts soon drifted off when the bedroom door wide open and the tall figure come straight to my sight, for a moment i thought it was her small brother. Who magically got six feet just after a hour when I teased him for his small height. I knew I shouldn’t have said that but the way his doe eyes and chubby cheeks seemed so kid like.
A good fifteen year kid. Instead, the person I didn’t expect to come showed up with a grim look and an infamous grin.
“Missed me “ Jadyn stepped inside before shutting the door. Pulling off the hood of his black hoodie, some of his strand fall over his eyes which he tried to push back running his hand through his dark brown hair. Meeting his gaze staring at me before switching towards Neressa who didn’t seem to get affected by his presence but was lying on her bed. Her back facing the door, curled up while holding her knees close her chest.
“What’s with her “ he eyed Neressa before taking a slow yet steady steps towards us.
His tall frame dressed in his dark outfit seemed so out of the wardrobe in this room. The room which was specially designed with pink and white paint while Jadyn black pants and hoodie seemed…illegal.
I watch his long strides walking towards us. The sweet cologne filled the room or was it just me I thought. Inhaling the intoxicating scent of his sweet fragrance. I felt myself get attracted towards it.
“Nessy…“ he utter with a low yet calm tone pulling out the softness in his ocean deep voice like a sweet caramel chocolate. His attention on the small curled up body lying at the other end of the bed. Before I could have let the best of my mouth he crouched down near the bed taking a seat close to her while slowly caressing his hand over her head taking me off guard.
I have never seen him be this soft, towards Nessy..no Ness,
Nessy. Jadyn had always called her that. He always had a nickname for everyone but the difference was, mine had far so pleasant to sound that I could beat him till he turn blue and black.
A pang of jealousy slowly evading inside me watching the two so close to each other.
God Ben they are brother and sister. I try to tell myself.
“ Are you okay?“ he pulled out the small strand of hair out of her face before tucking it back behind her ears. Neressa turning over to meet his concerned gaze before her eyes filled with more water.
“ Hey baby, it’s okay “ he said wiping the tears off her face.
I couldn’t ignore the way Jadyn was so soft to her like she was too delicate to even touch. For an unknown reason I didn’t like the way he sound, the way he was too close to her, touching her. Wiping tears didn’t meant to be touching the way I pulled it to be, I knew but I couldn’t help. He was too conscious of his tone, gentle and the way he hold her arms. Sure their relationship was close. They shared a bond. A bond I was getting uncomfortable off.
And I was feeling was too awkward, out of the place as I watch him hold her in his arms. Slowly stroking her hair to calm her down while he whispers something which made her chuckle in between sobs.
I didn’t know when or how but my legs head down the bed and outside the room. Breathing in a good amount of air as if I was out of breath and was really in a need of it. As if it was too much…or was that, I never saw this side of him ever. Or was it just me that he hated to be gentle and kind.
“Brenna?” Emily calls out snapping me off my thoughts, of Jadyn. Her brows lifted up staring at me with a confused look while I my eyes widen at her sudden arrival. Does she knows Jadyn is here, with Neressa, alone?
“ What are you doing outside the room? Do you need anything? “ she said and my eyes shift towards the tray she was holding, hot chocolate. But that’s not what made me feel nervous it was the two glasses which she had prepared, not three.
“ Emily… “ I felt my throat go dry. Jadyn was Ness cousin, that’s what she said to me but the probability of thinking that he was the son of her father’s best friend. And not just a cousin.