I never thought I would get this feeling again. The feeling of eagerness of seeing him, the curiosity about what he is wearing but at the same time I feel like throwing up, wondering if he is going to like the food. Oh God, what if he doesn't like it?
Wait, I'm I wearing too much perfume? I shouldn't, I spray the same amount I always do. What if he doesn't like the smell? Would it hurt his head?
I bet he is going to look so cute. Wait, how far am I from his place? Checking my phone, the GPS said five minutes. Wait--five fucking minutes!? Shit, my heart is not prepared enough.
Okay, okay, let me calm down. It is going to be a good lunch date. Not that this is a date.
"Turn right" I heard the GPA say, breaking me out of my thoughts. This is really happening.
Turning right, I parked my car in front of his apartment building: it has a modern look to it, with I'm guessing about 12 stories high. But I can tell that it is a little on the expensive side.
Before I got out, I texted Kaname that I'm outside and that he can take his time getting ready. God knows I need to compose myself.
"You better not fucking embarrass yourself," I muttered to myself. Do I look good enough? I'm I too overdressed?
Fuck man, I'm acting like a teenage girl. Calm the fuck down, everything is going to be alright. After calming myself down, I didn't realize how long it took me until I looked up and saw the brightest star that puts the sun to shame.
Despite his dark clothing, he is illuminating. His maroon fitted t-shirt, and black jeans, with black and white vans. I dare say that his clothes fit him so well, I can practically see the outline of his body.
I never notice how slim his waist is, yet it has this very seductive curve to it. The more he got closer, the more breathtaking he is. Especially his icy eyes, the way the sun reflects it reminds me of a sky full of diamonds, with the moon reflecting off of it.
How the wind carries his hair lightly, made it seem like he was going to fly away any minute.
At this moment I made a bold decision to do what I can to get closer to him.
What is even more embarrassing is the first thing that came out of my mouth is telling him that he looks beautiful. The smile I have shown him didn't falter, my face was frozen. Great Axel, now he is going to think something is wrong with you.
This moment couldn't become any worse when I tried to explain that the comment isn't want I meant but at the same time, I did. I wish someone stabbed me right in the heart or cut my tongue off.
Sadly none of that happened, but at the same time, I'm glad I made a fool of myself when I heard a heavenly laugh coming from him. I would become a king's joker himself if it meant continuing to hear his soothing laugh.
After a little uncomfortable moment afterward, we finally left. It didn't go unnoticed when he was checking out my car. I felt a little prideful when I saw the look of admiration in his eyes. I made a mental note to know what car interior he is into.
The drive there couldn't have been any more unpleasant. When it comes to my social skills, I always pride myself on begin able to hold my own and getting my points across. But why is it that since the first time I met him, I have become clumsy with my words and actions?
It wasn't like that with her. I hated the fact that I was unable to strike up a conversation and when I did it was very short. But I know the more we go out the more we will be comfortable with each other and that means we can have a more natural conversation.
Just thinking about that time to come had me feel giddy inside. My heart was filled with so much ecstatic when I saw his adorable side when he was looking out the window. His eyes were filled with so much awe, I deliberately slowed down a little bit, letting him take the time to take in his surroundings.
Even when we got to the restaurant when he asked me simple questions, he was so cute. Times like this I'm glad to have gotten successful in life, that I am able to show him a whole other world and afford it.
As we got shown to our table, I couldn't stop feeling anxious. I suddenly remember I requested them to put a yellow rose on one of the plates, I wanted to give him a gift but thought against it, yet It didn't feel right for me to not give him anything so I just thought of a single rose that represents friendship and new beginnings.
I was prepared for him to throw the flower at me or say something along the lines of not getting ahead of myself or something, but what I was not prepared for was to see him picking up the flower and say it was sweet with a barely noticed smile.
Taking our seats, I couldn't stop sneaking glances at him. I mean how can I not? His beauty is unparallel.
After we ordered, I couldn't help to thank him for agreeing to go out with me. He doesn't understand how deep that goes, how much I was looking forward to today.
I do agree with him when he said I looked like a desperate puppy, I practically begged him but now that I decided that I want to learn more about him, I would be more persistent.
But there is something I am curious about.
"Why did you agree to go out to lunch with me?"
"Minus you being like a desperate puppy? I was curious, really." He said quietly.
Curious about what exactly? About me? As I was about to ask what he meant, the look on his face was clear that he didn't want me to ask any further so I didn't push.
"Well, I hope today can fill in your curiosity." I smiled at him.
"I was also wondering if this lunch goes well, would--umm-- you be open to spending more time with me?" I hesitated.
" We'll see." was his only answer.
I got to make this the best lunch he ever had. Okay, try not to be so clumsy. With a new-found determination, I strike up the conversation first.
"What made you become DJ Kan?" I asked. He stared at me like I was asked something in a different language. I got a little scared that I may have crossed the line.
"Sorry if that was too personal--"
"No, you're fine. It just took me by surprise is all."
I looked at him questionably, urging him to continue but letting him know he doesn't have to.
"No one has really asked me about that, or really ask about me in general..." he trailed off.
"What about that friend of yours?" I questioned, starting to become curious.
"He learns threw his eyes, so he doesn't really have to ask me anything."
I didn't say anything, I waited to see if he would continue to talk.
"I'm not going to go into details but I stumbled upon DJing when I was 17, the current boss at Cherry Pop, was the one that took me in and helped me learn what I am now known as DJ Kan." He finished.
"I may not know the full back story but I know that you are really passionate about the type of music you make. I saw that when you're on stage and right now when you talked about it." I gave him a genuine smile.
If I ever bump into his boss, I gotta remember to thank him.
Just as I was thinking about that, the food came. I got to say it smells delicious. Taking a glimpse at him, I couldn't hold back my chuckle. It was like his eyes turned into stars when he saw the food. I can only imagine when he actually gets to try it.
After our lunch, I suggested we walk in the park, of course with the excuse to let our food digest.
I have got to say, it has been one of the smartest decisions I made yet. It seems we both let our guards down, letting each other enjoy the conversations we were having. Shared our first laugh together. Creating a fun memory.
Our time together was definitely worth being a desperate puppy. Kaname even bought us drinks as we sat on the bunch. We sat there watching people go by, looking at trees. It was relaxing.
At the end of our day, I drove him back home, not without telling him how much of a good time I had with him and that I'll text him when I'm home. You can't imagine how fast I drove home.
After parking my car in my driveway, I fly out of the car and rushed inside. Only to pull out my phone and text him letting him know I'm home and that I hope that we can have more opportunities like this in the future.
I didn't expect him to reply fast. I prepared myself for rejection only to read the text twice to make sure I read it right but I still can't believe it.
"Make sure it's not too hot or cold," I mutter out loud. Wait, does that mean...? It has to be. I mean that is the only thing that would make sense.
He is giving me a chance. Pure ecstasy took over me. I know well that this feeling is entirely new. I am afraid that I might get addicted to this. It doesn't matters.
I have been given an opportunity and I am not going to let it slip pass.