The warmth began to seep under my skin and my muscles relaxed. I stayed under the spray longer than usual, trying to gather myself again.Closing the water, I stood still for a moment and closed my eyes. Stay strong. Don't break. Don't show weakness.Taking a deep breath, I opened my eyes again and stepped out of the shower.
Stay strong. Don't break. Don't show weakness.
Quickly drying myself, I dressed in the same clothes I had been wearing for weeks now. My black maid dress.When I was finished, I glanced in the mirror, looking at my reflection in silence.My eyes were red and puffy. Tiredness was clearly written all over my face. It didn't come as a shock to me. The face in the reflection…I had seen it a million times. Looking exactly like that.
Stay strong. Don't break. Don't show weakness.
I walked away without a second look. Alex's suit jacket remained on the floor, where I had left it before.
I bent down and took the jacket in my hand.I was trying so hard to avoid what I felt last night. There was no way to describe it. No words. I never felt that way before and I was still trying to wrap my head around it.Peace. That was what I felt. In the middle of yet another panic attack, Alex's jacket brought me peace.
He brought me peace.How was that even possible?My mind was a mess when I walked into the kitchen, where Maddie and Lena were waiting for me. When I walked in, both of them gifted me with genuine happy smiles.
"Good morning," Lena said, standing by the sink.
"Good morning," I mumbled, trying to act as chirpy.
"What are you doing with that?" Maddie asked, pointing at the jacket in my hand.
I ran my hand over the soft fabric before replying. "I forgot to return it yesterday. So, I'm going to return it now." I felt like I was in a daze.Maddie took a big bite of her apple.
She stared at me with a strange expression and a smile on her face. Almost like she was having an inside joke with herself. She twisted her lips ruefully, trying very hard to hide that smile, but I still saw it.I placed the jacket on the stool before turning to Lena. "I'll help you set the table for breakfast."
She nodded and handed me a tray of fruit. We were setting out the last plate when I saw Alessio and his men coming down the stairs.They were all dressed in their black suits, as always. If it weren't for the guns attached to them, they would have looked like high class businessmen.But the guns kind of took that away. It made them look deadly instead.Everyone took their seats in silence as Maddie and I discreetly walked away. Instead of going into the kitchen, I stopped at the entrance. I didn't know what came over me, but I turned slightly and stared at Alex from the corner of my eye.
I sucked in a shocked breath when I saw his focus already on me. Viktor was talking animatedly but Alex wasn't listening. His eyes, his whole attention was on me. Biting on my lips unconsciously, a shiver went through my body and I quickly swiveled around, breaking the connection.
"Ayla, hurry. I wanna get this done," Maddie called from inside the kitchen.
"I'm coming," I said softly. I walked in to find Maddie eating her breakfast, with another full plate beside her. She nodded toward the plate. We quickly ate, and then cleaned while the men were still eating.By the time the kitchen was spotless, they had finished their breakfast. Maddie and I walked out to see them getting up, and everyone scattered around the house, returning to what they'd been doing before breakfast.I walked into the kitchen to see Maddie holding a tray. As soon as she saw me, her face lit up and she gave me a huge smile. "Oh my God, you're literally a life saver."
Giving her a confused look, I untied my apron from my waist. "What do you mean?"
Instead of answering, she pushed the tray into my hand. She placed a glass full of white stuff on it. "What is this?" I asked.
"Protein. For Alex. I need you to give this to him," she said.
"What?" I didn't want to see him. And I sure didn't want to be in the same room as him. He was too intense. I had to stay away.
"Please. Do this for me," she begged.
I shook my head. "Maddie, why can't you go by yourself?"
"Because," she replied, biting on her lips nervously. "You know…"
"Maddie?" I asked, raising my eyebrows in question.
She was about to say something else, but then stopped. I turned to see what she was looking at, and saw Artur walking by.
"Ayla!" Maddie whined. When I didn't move, she glared at me and leaned forward to whisper in my ear. "He wants a quickie."
I gasped, but said nothing.
"See! Now you understand," she said. "C'mon, I can't deny him anything. And we couldn't do it for like two days. I'm sexually frustrated, Ayla."
I couldn't believe I was having this conversation.
"Close your mouth, Ayla."
I did so but then shook my head. "Maddie, I'm not going to Alex. No way," I said.
"Why? You are supposed to see him anyway. You need to give him his jacket back, right?"
I was about to refuse again, but she folded her hands together and pressed them underneath her chin, looking at me with big, hopeful eyes. "Please?"
I couldn't say no. Not when she was making that face. "Fine."
Maddie jumped up with excitement and quickly blew me a kiss before running out of the kitchen. I sighed and looked down at the tray. God, I really didn't want to do this.
Balancing the tray in one hand, I took the suit jacket in the other and made my way out of the kitchen. Alex's office was in the left wing and it looked the same as the rest of the house.
I walked down the long corridor toward his office and admired the large landscape paintings on the wall. They were beautiful. So serene. A big contrast to the people living in this house. As I neared the wooden double door, I saw Nikolay standing outside. His hands were behind his back, his feet shoulder apart with his back stiff as he stared straight ahead. His eyes were on me, watching my every step.
"I'm here to give Ale…I mean, Mr. Ivanshov his drink."
Without answering, he reached beside him and opened the door. Swallowing hard against the lump in my throat, I gave him a tight smile and walked in on shaky legs. Inside the office, huge windows overlooked the back garden.
The room was bright. The big desk sat in front of the windows, and Alex sat behind the table, his chair pushed back as he faced the door. But then I saw a head of brunette hair on his lap.
Wait—what?
Oh my God.
My heart stuttered when I saw her head moving up and down. Alex's hand was fisted in her hair, controlling her movements while he pushed his head against the back of his chair as he groaned.And then I heard a loud moan.
I froze, and he glanced in my direction, his eyes making direct contact with mine. They flared with surprise but he didn't move. I saw his mouth tilted upward in a small smirk. I hated it.He was by no means embarrassed. Instead, he held my gaze until he orgasmed. I was rendered completely speechless, and when I felt the tray shaking in my hands, I realized my entire body was shaking too.
"We're done here." His hard voice made me jump. He didn't sound or look affected by what had just happened.Releasing the grip he had on the woman's hair, he pushed her upward. "Leave," he ordered as he zipped his pants and tucked his shirt back in.
She stepped away from him and grabbed her handbag, then sauntered past me, her steps confident. She didn't appear like she cared that someone else had seen her in such a position. The evil glare she gave me told me everything I needed to know. She was pissed they'd been interrupted.
The door closed behind me, but I stayed still. "What are you doing here?" Alex asked.My heart thumped in my chest and I was suddenly feeling light-headed. He was completely calm as his eyes raked over my body, while I was practically hyperventilating.
"Well?"
My body shivered at his voice and I licked my lips nervously. When I saw his eyes following the movement, I quickly sucked my tongue back in and pressed my lips tight together. "Maddie…I…" I stumbled over my words, then took a step forward and placed the tray on the coffee table. "Your protein." I kept my focus on the tray. I couldn't look at him, not after what I just saw.
I heard his chair squeak and from the corner of my eye, I saw him standing up. After fixing his suit, he walked around his desk and made his way toward me.
Panic filled my body and I scrambled backward.
Dropping his jacket on the couch, I kept my head down and mumbled in a rush, "And here's your jacket. I forgot to return it yesterday."
"It's—"
He'd started to speak, but without giving him a chance to reply, I sprinted out of his office.Closing the door behind me, I leaned against it. Blood was roaring in my ears and my heart pounded.
"Sorry about that. I didn't know the boss had her inside," a deep voice said.
Letting out a squeak, I moved away in fright.
"Woah. It's just me," the man said.
I turned around to find Nikolay standing there with his hands up in mock surrender. There was no way he hadn't known what Alex was doing in there.