Chapter-43
"Hey,did you heard anything about Taehyung-ssi and Jennie-ssi?" A staff woman tells another.
Jungkook is setting up the equipment for shooting.
Taehyung is not here today.
So Jungkook is feeling low.
Now, hearing these things is not helping.
Last week, Jungkook would listen to the stuff gossiping about Taehyung's dating rumors.
Jungkook doesn't want to bother. It's normal for Taehyung to have a girlfriend. Taehyung isn't gay or he doesn't like Jungkook that way.
But it still hurts.
"I heard that Taehyung-ssi took her on vacation," another staff says.
Jungkook rolls his eyes.
Taehyung was with him all the time.
"They look so cute together," says another staff.
"Do you think how cute their babies will be?" A staff chims excitedly.
"Right,kid," Jungkook thinks.
Taehyung loves kids.
No matter how much love Jungkook can give him,he can't never give Taehyung a kid.
"But, Namjoon hyung also loves kids," Jungkook thinks.
Namjoon loves kids even more than Taehyung.
But he is still with Jin who can't give him a kid.
"Don't be foolish, Jungkook. Remember what happened three years ago," Jungkook reminds himself of that harsh truth.
It works like a slap on his face, waking him up from his foolish day dreams.
"Hey, Jungkook-ah,come join us for lunch," Namjoon says.
He comes everyday to have lunch with Jin. As Taehyung isn't here,he is calling Jungkook to join them.
"Ok, coming, hyung,"Jungkook says putting away his camera.
"Jungkook-ah, what happened?" Namjoon asks when he sees Jungkook not eating.
"Hyung,how much do Jin hyung loves you to not want to have kids?" Jungkook asks timidly.
"Huh?" Namjoon asks again not fully understanding.
"Hyung, you love kids but Jin hyung can't give you kids. Then why do you still want to be with him?" Jungkook says. Namjoon chuckles.
"When you love someone without any condition that's true love, Jungkook-ah," Namjoon says.
"I love kids but I love Jin hyung most," Namjoon adds.
Jungkook nodes.
Times like this,he gets jealous of Namjin. He wants to have such a great relationship with Taehyung.
"Hey,did you see this photo?" A staff member is saying to another showing a photo.
"Wow, they're looking so good," says the other staff.
"What are you guys looking at?" Jungkook asks.
"Oh, director-nim, it's a photo of Taehyung-ssi and Jennie-ssi," says the staff showing the photo.
It is a photo of a restaurant.
Two people were smiling and eating. Taehyung seems so happy.
Suddenly, Jungkook feels like his heart is hurting so much.
"No,shit," Jungkook thinks going to the bathroom.
It's been so long since Jungkook had a panic attack.
Jungkook sits on the bathroom floor and starts crying.
" It hurts, hyung," Jungkook thinks. But there is none to hear him.
"Director-nim,are you okay?" the assistant director asks as Jungkook comes out of the bathroom.
"I'm going home," Jungkook says heading outside.
He doesn't want to be with people now. He just wants to go home and cry alone.
"Who is it?" Jungkook groans as he hears the door bell rings.
He opens the door and Taehyung hugs him immediately.
Taehyung was shooting a commercial for a week. So he couldn't see his bun for a week. He came back as soon as they finished the shooting.
"Why are you here, hyung?" Jungkook says pushing Taehyung away.
Taehyung is confused.
This is the first time his bun is refusing his touch.
"Because, I've missed you so much,bun," Taehyung says.
"Don't do this, hyung," Jungkook says. Tears start to fall from his eyes.
"Bun, what happened?" Taehyung says hurriedly.
"It hurts, hyung. It hurts," Jungkook says crying.
"Bun, did you get hurt somewhere? Show me," Taehyung says checking Jungkook's body for injury.
But nothing is there. He doesn't understand.
"Bun, baby,tell hyungie what happened," Taehyung says hugging the crying Jungkook.
"It hurts seeing you with others" Jungkook says.
"What are you talking about,bun? Who?" Taehyung asks.
He's gonna kill anyone who's hurt his bun.
"No,go away,go to your girlfriend," Jungkook says pushing Taehyung away.
"What girlfriend?" Taehyung asks again.
"Your girlfriend. You don't have to pretend, hyung," Jungkook says smiling sadly.
Taehyung's heart hurts watching Jungkook like this.
So,he does what he wanted to do for so long.
Jungkook realizes what is happening and his brain stops working.