Michelle
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I walked into my office and sat at my desk still wondering what the heck just happened in Hyunmin's office.
I walked into his office having already practice all the cooked-up stories about my date with Seungwon, I walked in all excited as I narrated how my date went with Seungwon (Most of it was edited while some were added 😎) but that's when things went haywire. I could already see he was getting really pissed to extent that I could see invisible smoke coming out of his ears and nose like a cartoon character, he completely lost it when I said Seungwon kissed me. He stood from his seat with a somewhat devilish expression on his face as he slowly walked towards me like a predator about to corner its prey
He came so close to me that I was backed into a corner, he blow his breath on my cheeks which caused me to close my eyes and he even whispered in my ears.
I could feel goosebumps raising on my skin as I shivered all over, I opened my eyes and stared directly into his, he looked at with so much intensity I completely lost consciousness of anything else happening around me; I could only see his eyes, and live in that moment.
I couldn't quite tell what I saw in his eyes; was it love? was it lust? Or was it purely acting on what he felt, I wasn't even sure about his intentions but all rational thoughts fled my mind when he kissed me, the kiss intensified as he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me closer to his chest, I was slowly melting away like butter in his arms but I had to stop him before things got out of control.
I hit my head on the table and screamed out of frustration, I didn't even know what what to do now.
Should I be happy that I finally got confirmation that he has feelings for me?
Or should I be happy that he may now think I'm an easy girl cause his cousin kissed me?
My head was about to explode, I didn't know what to do next, and am guessing I went too far with the Seungwon kissed me part. I couldn't even tell Jiyoon cause it was just so embarrassing for me, why did I have to exaggerate? Why!!! I kept asking myself and I blame stupidity.
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"Don't get too Confused Hyunmin"
I went to a bar I usually frequent to meet my long-time friend Lee Yeon-U.
I felt I was really going to lose my sanity if I didn't tell anyone about all the emotions running around inside me, so I decided to meet Yeon-U.
I narrated everything about Michelle and how I felt around her, I also told him about what happened a few moments before I came to see him which caused him to almost choked on his drink.
"I know I was out of line but I just don't know what came over me, I just went berserk I rarely ever lose control over my emotions like that"
"Well, that was unexpected but I've come to only one conclusion"
"And what's that?"
"You like her or rather you're in love with her cause to me what you feel is stronger than just a simple likeness"
I was stupified, I always knew what I was feeling for Michelle was very similar to when I fell in love with YeonJu but it was stronger and I didn't want to admit it.
"That can't be it"
"Hyunmin! It has been four long years since YeonJu died, I think it's about time you open up and learn to love someone else, I mean you hardly recognize your own emotions anymore"
I knew exactly what I was feeling, I was just denying it.
I left the bar and went home having confirmed the fact that I'm in love with Michelle.
Yes! I'm in love with Michelle but I'm not what she needs
I'm someone with too many problems that's always fighting silent battles, a toxic family, and surrounded by judgemental people who won't waste a second to tear her to pieces.
I didn't want her to have to deal with all that so it's better I stay away before my feeling for her grow deeper.
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Hyunmin has been avoiding me for one week straight up after the office incident; he started acting aloof and cold again like when we first meet. I was trying to bring up the topic but he was constantly shutting me out. I didn't know what was going on and I was so desperate to at least know what he was thinking but as always he is a very difficult person to understand.
I was really in a dilemma cause I didn't know if I should hit my head on the wall for doing something so stupid or Iif should congratulate myself for ruining my good image in front of Hyunmin, I was so frustrated with everything.
I eventually told Jiyoon about everything that happened and even she scolded me for going too far with the lies even though the plan was all her stupid idea, I also couldn't help but feel somehow annoyed with Hyunmin; he could at least face me and not just avoid the whole matter, I know I made him jealous but I didn't know he would kiss me so why ignore me now. He is always going off and on with me like a light switch and it's was frustrating the hell out of me.
"Hello Jiyoon, are you available"
"For What?"
"Let's go have some Soju at that restaurant we always go, I'm really going to lose my mind if I don't have some alcohol tonight"
"I'm really sorry Michelle but I have a dinner date with my BF"
"Ooh I see, well I'll go alone then"
"I'm really really sorry Michelle, I swear I'll make it up to you next time"
I hung up the call, I heaved a sigh as I couldn't help but feel sad. I went to some random restaurant as I didn't want to go to the one Jiyoon and always frequent cause I'd only feel more alone as she wasn't with me.
I got heavily drunk after I had a few shots, I had very low alcohol tolerance so I got drunk pretty quickly but at least it help me get over my problems for a while.
I suddenly got a call out of nowhere and I answered as I saw the caller is Hyunmin.
"You…..you jerk! What…..the hell do you want"
"Michelle, are you drunk! where are you right now?"
"And…..and why should I…..tell you where I am, huh! Why….. should you care?"
"Please just tell me where you are now"
"Whatever, fine….. I'll text you the address and stop yelling... al…ready your voice is too loud"
I could barely see the screen of my phone but I still managed to send him the address, I thought about leaving for a moment cause I was still angry at me but I somehow knew I couldn't get home by myself so I had to wait for him.
As I waited for Hyunmin some random guy showed up and sat in front of me, he was acting very weird and looked suspicious, then all of a sudden he started groping my legs up to my thighs under the table. I whacked him on the face with my bag and immediately left after cursing him a few times, I didn't quite know the neighborhood but I knew I had to get away. I heard footsteps behind me as I walked down the street, I turned only to see the pervert from that restaurant following me, I started running but I couldn't run fast cause I was drunk, he soon caught up to me and I immediately knew I was in big trouble.
He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me against the wall, I struggled and tried to kick him but all was to no avail. The worst part was he did all this in a place where everyone could see us but no one did anything, all the passers by just stared for a bit and moved on despite seeing me get molested, they just ignored it.
Is this really that common here that it's become a norm for a girl to get harassed in public and everyone just ignores it
I tried struggling some more but the bastard just wouldn't budge, he said some weird stuff in Korean that I couldn't understand as he was bringing his face close to me neck then all of a sudden someone grabbed his hoddie from behind and rained punches on him.
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I told Mr.Changhak to go home since he felt sick and I drove the car myself, I drove the address of the restaurant Michelle texted but I couldn't find her there. I asked one of the waiters and they directly to the street she walked towards, they also said she was followed by some creepy guy and that's when I really started to get worried. I ran to that street like a mad man searching for Michelle when I finally sighted her at one corner being sexually molested, my eyes darkened with pure rage as I dashed towards the man with an intent to kill him.
I rained so many punches on him that I almost crushed his skull but I was stopped in time when I heard Michelle calling my name, her voice somehow calmed me down so I stopped beating him, one of the residents of the neighborhood called the police and he was immediately arrested while I swore I would make sure he rots in prison.
Michelle was a little bit sober but was still unable to process what just happened, I took her to my car and gave her a bottle of water so she could sober up.
I was so angry at her, I just couldn't stop imagining what that bastard would have done to her if I hadn't arrived on time and it really annoyed me, how could she go drinking alone in a neighborhood she didn't know putting herself out there to become prey for the uncountable number of perverts walking around.
"Why the hell did you all do this? Huh! Why"
She had completely sobered up but all she did was stare at me blankly as I scolded her.
"Why did you have to go drink by yourself? You aren't in New York anymore Michelle, This is Seoul and there are crazy perverts everywhere looking for girls to victimize. What do you think would've happened if I didn't come in time huh!"
"Thank you for saving but please stop yelling at me, I don't need this right now"
"Ooh really! What do you need then, a red carpet to celebrate what you did, don't you know..."
"That's Enough Hyunmin!"
She yelled at me amidst my nagging as her eyes got watery with tears she didn't want to fall.
"What's with all this pretence huh! Why are you suddenly acting like you'd die if something happens to me, when did I become so important to you. Please don't….."
The car suddenly stopped moving, I stepped out and opened the bonnet but just when I was trying to figure out what went wrong it started raining.
I went back into the car and informed Michelle of our situation, it was raining cat's and dogs so we wouldn't be able to find a mechanic so I called up Mr.Changhak and asked for help.
"Great! Just Great! Now am stuck here with you, Again!"
There was a long awkward silence between us for a while but Michelle grabbed her bag and suddenly stepped out of the car and walked into a nearby open stall, I followed her to the stall to make sure is okay.
"You're going to get wet, why did you leave the car"
She didn't reply nor did she look at me and I was getting really frustrated with her behavior.
"Michelle, I know that….."
"You know! Really! Did I just here you say you know, You make me laugh"
"What are you..."
"You know nothing Hyunmin, you know absolutely nothing and am so sick and tired of you, of all this"
Michelle started crying as she spoke
"Am so sick of you toying with my feelings, always swaying back and forth, I don't know what to think anymore. Today you treat me like am the most important person in the world to you and really it makes my heart flutter but tomorrow you'll see me and act like I don't exist, why do you have to always keep confusing me"
"I got drunk tonight because of you and your stupid indecisiveness, why does everyone find it so damn easy to play around with me huh! What the hell do you all take me for, but that's enough now cause your gonna have to tell me what the hell you want, What do you want from me Hyunmin?"
"I want you and only you Michelle"
She froze amidst all the crying and yelling
"I know I've been a complete jerk and I've been acting stupid but I thought shutting you out would make what I feel fade, that backefired cause I only missed you more"
I moved closer to her and held both hands as I stared deeply into her beautiful chocolate eyes even though she's been crying
"I think it's time I stop swaying back and forth and I tell you how I truly feel"
I took one of her hands and placed her palm on my chest
"Can you feel how fast my heart is beating?"
She nodded slowly as a reply
"That's how my heart goes into override everytime am close to you, I'm admired by everyone around me for very smart but I become very stupid and clueless when I see you, I feel my blood boil and my veils popping out anytime I see any other guy get close to you expect me"
I slowly brought my hand to her face and I cupped her cheek
"The point is... you are the ray of sunshine that was able to shine through the dark pit I was in for so many years and for the first time in a long time everything around felt so warm and beautiful. I know I sound like am reciting a poet but I just want you to know that I Kim Hyunmin is completely, Crazily, and deeply in love with you Michelle"
She smiled at me with so much happiness and I wiped away the tears on her face with my thump.
"Don't cry anymore okay"
"Wait here I need to do something"
She took off her heels, her jacket, and suddenly walked into the pouring rain.
"Michelle, what are you doing? You'll catch a cold, get back here now"
"Give me a minute, I've always wanted to do this"
She raised both her hands sideways and started twirling around with the green gown she was wearing, she looked so beautiful to me as I watched her dancing in the rain.
"Are you just gonna stand there and watch me or will you join me"
I inhaled briefly as I took off my jacket and I joined her.
"Wash it all away! cause I want to let go of the past and am ready to love someone now"
Michelle suddenly yelled those words with a smile on her face
"Come on just repeat what I said, it's good to yell what you feel out loud, you can say it as you like"
"Wash it all away! Cause I ready to let go of all my pain and am ready to love again"
"I love you Hyunmin!"
I looked at her and smiled, it was so nice to hear her say that
"I love you too Michelle!"
She walked towards me with a smile and she said
"I can finally do this now"
She stode on her toes and reached for my lips, giving me a soft kiss and then she withdraw.
"That's not how to kiss Michelle"
I drew her closer to me and wrapped my arms around her waist as I kissed her hungrily like a starved wolf but softly at the same time.
The heat from both our bodies came steaming out like hot fire and we were so engrossed in the moment but suddenly a car appeared out of nowhere and shined it's headlights on us, The driver came out of the car carrying an umbrella.
"Hyunmin, Michelle what are you….."
Mr. Changhak had a confused look on his face as he saw us, we took our belongings and got into the car.
"Why would the both of you get into the rain like that? Do you wanna get sick"
The both of us laughed at Mr.Changhak's complex expression.
"It's a long story Mr.Changhak, I'll tell you all about it when we get home"
I intertwined Michelle's hand with mine and held her close to me as we drove to the Mansion.