Oh, I didn't realize he liked me that much. All I did was sit in his lap. Guess I did good.
I was a little worried that sitting in his lap would upset him. Now I can feel how excited he is. If I stood up now, I doubt anyone wouldn't know.
It was very unexpected. Though I wouldn't say it's a bad thing.
The bear and the giant were surprised but they laughed at Ash immediately. "Ooh, looks like marriage really isn't that far off." Said the Giant.
The bear scoffed gently, punching my shoulder. "Dahm yah got him pretty wiped?"
I smiled. This is actually nice.
I've spent a decade pursuing someone uninterested in me. It's nice to actually feel how much he likes me.
I don't know how long he's felt this way, but I'll make all his dreams come true. If he wants to lock me up that's okay. I know he's the only one that will want me in this world. I guess that's just the cost of love.
Ash finally moved, putting his left arm around me. "Please warn me next time Jax." He whispered in my ear.
I turned and looked up at him. He was strangely composed. His downstairs was in a completely different situation. Talk about self control.
I smiled gently at him, "If you want I won't do it again."
He blushed ever so slightly. "No, you can just do what you want. I don't mind."
Talk about self restraint. I felt his downstairs completely calmed down. Serious self restraint. He liked me for a while then.
Why was he so supportive of me and Lexi then? Will he start hating me once he has me?
I guess that's how some stalkers work. Though I don't know at what point he's at. Actually I don't know if he's even stalking me.
I don't even know if he was ever stalking me. I don't mind if he is. Though I really shouldn't assume. Maybe he just went crazy over my death.
It is possible.
I cleared my thoughts away. "Okay, then I'll sit in your lap everyday."
At that I turned to my food. To be faced with immediate regret.
In high school the only times I would eat was at school or at Ash's. Though I had a job I spent all my money on that Bitch. I also saved some money for moving out.
Though after that I made all my food. I actually became a pretty decent cook. So this food really sucks. Though I still eat it. I know it's the only food I'm gonna get.
The two friends and Ash eat and joke around. I mostly listened in.
I learned the Bear is Jack, and the giant is Sean. The three of them normally sit with a couple other guys as well. They didn't explain why they weren't here though. I didn't ask.
At some point I noticed all the stares. A lot of people were looking at us. Probably because of my earlier performance.
Ah well. They'll get used to it.
It is also probably because of where I'm sitting. There are gay couples here. However they hold back on PDA because people make it weird.
I don't care. Ash doesn't so I won't.
Though I noticed one table was no less than glaring at me. Lexi's bimbo table. Plus dogs.
Poor dogs. You think you're special. You're not.
I smiled at them. This is the most effort Lexi has put into caring about me. It's sad. Though I'm glad she's suffering. If just for a moment.
I looked back up at Ash. "Hey, can I spend the weekend at your place?"
I was thinking about it in class. My Father is gonna be violent for a bit. My Mother is gonna be worse. Might as well hide out till I can move out.
The weekend is tomorrow. Plus his place is close to where I work.
Ash brightened at this. "Sure, stay as long as you want."
I was satisfied with him, satisfied. Ignoring the cardboard on my plate. Ash always has a lot of food at his place. I already ate enough to last till then.
Ash is so comfortable. He may be all muscles but I feel like I fit. Like a puzzle piece.
I think not sleeping is finally getting to me. I mean a lot has happened to me. I went back in time. I actually went back in time.
I wish I could just sleep now.
Ugg I have P.E. next. At least I have it with Ash.
Eventually the bell rang. Everyone got up to go to class. Alright let's finish off the day.