I woke up little extra today. Why? Today feels a little different, today is the first day that I am in a relationship since birth and it makes me goosebumps. OMG! For real? I am in a relationship. I grab my phone while I am smiling like an idiot inside my room. I open my phone and I saw messages. I think this is a normal thing if you are in a relationship. To receive good morning text early in the morning, of course.
"Good morning", he says with a smiley face at the end.
"good morning to my boyfie out there", I replied. I put my phone on my chest as I sigh and smile. I am smiling again and again on my ceiling.
After a few minutes, my phone vibrates and I know that's him. He replied immediately.
"You make me happy this early morning, huh?" He says with a text that he is laughing.
"Ohh, I am sorry that is not my intention to make you feel that way. But, does it makes you happy?" I asked.
"You are not my first girlfriend but it feels like you are my first. I didn't feel this back then". He says.
Yes, I am not his first girlfriend. His ex-girlfriend is beautiful. More beautiful for me, really. As far as I know, his ex lasts like for 3 months only. I don't know the whole story why they broke up but I think that is destiny. I am not jealous that I am not his first, the important thing is his mine now. Present is way more important than the past.
I texted him that I need time to make my bed and prepare early in the morning. I need to do my routines, as usual. It's just different from now on because I need to update someone on my happenings. I am still learning and coping on what a girlfriend should and shouldn't do. I am learning, I swear.
I make my bed, comb my hair using my comb and then I went to the bathroom to do my morning skincare routine. After that I change into my clothes while listenng to one of my favorite artist...Taylor Swift.
Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there and I thought
"Oh, my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake
Love's a game, wanna play?" Ay
New money, suit and tie
I can read you like a magazine
Ain't it funny? Rumors fly
And I know you heard about me
So hey, let's be friends
I'm dying to see how this one ends
Grab your passport and my hand
I can make the bad guys good for a weekend
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young, and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name
Cherry lips, crystal skies
I could show you incredible things
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
You're the King, baby, I'm your Queen
Find out what you want
Be that girl for a month
Wait, the worst is yet to come, oh, no
Screaming, crying, perfect storms
I can make all the tables turn
Rose garden filled with thorns
Keep you second guessing like
"Oh, my God, who is she?"
I get drunk on jealousy
But you'll come back each time you leave
'Cause, darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young, and we're reckless (oh)
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm (oh)
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane (insane)
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over (over)
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane (I'm insane)
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young, and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far (ooh)
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar (leave a nasty scar)
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name
Taylor songs is insane, isn't it? It sure does.
While I am preparing my breakfast, my phone vibrates again. My phone vibrates frequently these past few days because of him.
I got a message from him saying that he will go out with his mother to the market. I replied have fun and be safe. Since I started talking to him, I noticed that he is close to his mother so much. I am envy about their bond and relations. I don't know when I will be able to feel and experience that thing. That will be ages before I experience that in our house.
I can still remember the feeling when my parents became proud to me. That was a ceremony when I was in first grade. That's the last time I feel their support. I grew up where I don't seek for the support on things that I want to do. As long as I have myself and I have courage on myself, I am good. That will be enough for me.
I was startled when the door open. Because of that thinking I am pre-occupied for a moment. My bread is already toasted and so as my coffee which is ready to drink.
"You don't have school today?", my mom asked. I sigh before I answer.
"Today is Sunday". I said with no interest at all.
"Ohh, I forgot". She said and went back on what she's doing. She is peeling some potatoes over there on her lovely kitchen.
I ate my breakfast while scrolling on my social media and watching different videos. I am not comfortable eating alone like just eating. I mean, all you have to do is to eat? That is weird for me. It's either I am watching alone or I am eating with someone while exchanging stories. That would be fun for me.
I listen again to another song while I am preparing my materials for my exercise.
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standin' there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say, "Hello"
Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwin' pebbles
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"
And I was cryin' on the staircase
Beggin' you, "Please don't go, " and I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet, 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while, oh oh
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"
But you were everything to me
I was beggin' you, "Please don't go, " and I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"
Romeo, save me, they're tryna tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"
Oh, oh
I got tired of waiting
Wonderin' if you were ever comin' around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said
Romeo, save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said, "Marry me, Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
As I listen to it while preparing, I just can't help but imagine that "we" are the one that the love story is referring.