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Chapter 11 - 8. What do you and I see ?

Yuree

I couldn't see it . What exactly was it they liked ? I tilted my head in a different angle , trying to see it but I couldn't .

I was in my room by the mirror . I had looking up for a few minutes trying to find out if I was really ' hot ' like Terry said , ' fuckable' like Brad said or ' beautiful ' like mom said .

I didn't know if I was or not .

I was six feet and one inch in height , my body was not muscular and I was more lean than bulky. My hair was a blonde twist with a bit of red from my dad . My eyes were clear and green . I had a small mouth with a slight upward curve at my lips that made it look like I was always smiling . My skin was a light pinkish cream like I had just finished taking a hot shower and my hands were small with manicured nails .

Was I attractive ? I wondered looking at the mirror hard but still I couldn't see it .

I turned away from the mirror in a huff and flopped onto my bed .

What did it matter being good-looking ?

Well maybe it did matter sometimes to some people but I personally didn't mind .

I cared about personality more than appearance .

I turned around and looked at the window , my gaze on the darkness of night out side .

" Will I fall in love with someone attractive or not ? " I said outloud.

I really hoped for some one with some substance not just a face .

I looked up at the roof and closed my eyes . Soon I was fast asleep dreaming of faces , mirrors and the queen of hearts .

Bee

I was a monster . I was a horrible monster .

I sat next to a garbage bin , shaking not from cold but from shock . and fear .

" What have... I done... to myself ?" I whispered softly and put my head on the wall , closing my eyes .

I had reached the town a few hours ago . I had been excited and happy about finally making it .

The place was huge !

The tall buildings looked even taller upclose . I had walked past some shops with things behind glass windows . There were toys , cakes and food . I wasn't hungry but they looked amazing with decorations and frosting .

As for the people I had hid in alleyways when they were near and for the most part I kept my distance from them .

That was before I got curious .

Why must I hide ? I thought . Olibia had said because they would spurn me but why would they if I was human just like them ?

I had stopped by a shop and looked at my reflection in its glass window .

I saw that I was tall , I had broad shoulders and a strong built . My body was muscled but not hulkishly so .

I had moved closer and taken of my hood to see my head more .

My hair was black like coal , with a tinge of ebony like amethyst shards . My eyes were like dark amethyst and seemed to shine in the light . My skin looked pale though as if it had never received sunlight or as if all my blood was gone .

Then , after turning around and making sure that no people were around, I had reached up and taken the black scarf off to see my face better .

I wish I hadn't .

I had been horrified by what I saw that I stumbled back and quickly put the scarf back on . I had ran , not knowing where I was going but wanting to get away from the monster in the mirror .

The monster was me .

I was a monster .

" What have I done to myself ?" I asked again , at least now I understood why Olibia wanted me to hide my face .

Because people would be afraid of me .

I had to stay away from people , I thought , I just have to wait for Olibia to come back .