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Chapter 16 - 13. Being alone

Bee

I was tired . Not physically but mentally. I had been doing nothing for the past three days except thinking . I had wandered around but not far because I was still afraid of people . That meant I'd spent most of my time in the alley .

Alone .

Just me and my thoughts . It was getting tiring . I needed to see more , hear more and touch more .

I didn't want to be alone .

But who could I talk to ? The humans ? What would I say even if they didn't start chasing me down?

Would I act unnatural if I came near them ? What if I ...got hungry again ?

It scared me ...the fear of my hunger coming back again .

But then again what if it didn't come back ?

I didn't know .

I looked up at the sky , it was blue and clear today . Not dark and grey as if in mourning like it had been for the last few days .

Was that a good sign ?

Maybe .

I walked along the pavement slowly . I had returned to the place where I bathed last night . It was one of the few places I knew .

I thought about going in .

There wasn't that many people around and I could just check to see what it's like inside during the day .

The temptation was too strong .

So I gave in . I went to the entrance I had hopped over last night and entered .

The fountain was ahead of me along the path but I didn't want to go there . What if that shadow I saw last night was there ? I didn't want to face it .

So I turned and walked on the grass next to the path .

There were trees scattered around the grounds and I saw a bench on the other side of the path I hadn't taken but I didn't go back to it. I didn't want to sit down .

I looked up to see where I could go .

Then I saw a pair of humans . They were sitting under a tree and talking with each other , whilst holding a phone . Maybe they were watching the movies I had seen on the shop windows ? There had been a shop with television sets displayed in its windows when I first entered the town and each one had been showing different things .

One had shown what must have been delicious food , another showed someone swimming in a big blue pool , one had a man trying on a brown hat and finally one had showed movies . They had looked amazing .

I loved the action , the drama and the excitement .

There had been one part where a man kissed a young man. I had felt a twinge in my head like I had seen it before , but I had shrugged it off.

All I knew was that I loved movies . And those humans under the tree were probably watching them .

I had to see .

I walked around them in a large semicircle until I was ten feet away from the tree where they were. I walked slowly until I reached the tree .

I could hear them talking now behind the tree . I looked behind to see them .

" How about him ?" the human on the right with dark blonde hair said to the one next to him .

" No , I don't like what he says here about ...my chest . It's ... indecent ." the other human said , he had blonde hair with red tips .

What were they watching ? I wondered . It didn't sound like they were watching a film . I sneaked a peak at the phone by raising my head .

I was immediately disappointed .

They were not watching a movie . It looked like they were looking at photos of other humans .

I groaned dejectedly , the humans turned their heads and I quickly pulled back behind the tree .

Did they see me ?

I pressed closely to the tree and listened intently .

" Did you hear that ?" the human said , it was the one with dark blonde hair , I remembered his voice .

" Yeah , l ...did ." the other human said ," Is someone behind there ? "

I gritted my teeth and furiously shut my mouth even though I hadn't made a sound .

What was I going to do ? What if they came to check for the sound ? Why did I make that sound ? so many thoughts whirled in my head that I didn't even notice the human until he shook my shoulder .

I started and looked at the human who touched me .

" Umm hi . Were you ... watching us ? " the human asked , he didn't sound angry but amused and exasperated , exasperated about what though ? I would have answered him but my tongue had gotten stuck to the roof my mouth .

The human was so ... beautiful .

He had curly lanked blonde hair tinged with red at the end of each tip like gold burning with fire . His eyes shined in the light like emeralds and his smile , it made his features stand out more , making him look like a gorgeous nymph . Yes , he looked like a nymph .

" Hey , are you okay ? " he asked me , his voice was sweet aswell .

" I ...I thought ...you were watching a movie ." I said my voice reverting back to the slow rasp I had when I first came up from the ground .

Darn it ! Why did my voice change now !? I had spoken normally before , why was this person making me nervous ?

" oh ...okay ." the beautiful human said ," Sorry to disappoint you . "

How did he know I had been disappointed ?

" Ok , I ...will go now ." I said , I had to get away . I felt my nerves winding up tight as I stayed near this person . I was feeling again ...I felt queasy .

" Okay , bye " the human said with a parting smile and turned around the tree .

I turned around and walked the other direction . I walked until I reached the path and then I crossed it and walked until I reached the bench I had seen earlier .

I sat down and looked at my hands .

They felt damp and moist , I felt unnerved by this . I hadn't felt anything like hot or cold , so why was I now feeling dampness or moisture ? What did that human do to me ? Why was I feeling this way ?

I looked up . From here I could see the tree where the two humans were still sitting and looking at their phone . I looked at the beautiful human , even from here I could still see his features . Actually I could see him very well . I saw his cheeks stretch and move as he talked . I saw his eyes frown at his friend as he said something . I could see his skin , it was soft looking and pinkish .

I rubbed my eyes with my fist and then turned to the side . I looked at another tree about twenty feet away from me .

I looked at it's leaves , I could see each leaf distinctly as they were in the palm of my hand . I felt a tingle in my eyes like I had placed water on my eyeballs .

I blinked once and my vision became normal again . Now the tree was far away and it's leaves difficult to define .

What had happened to my eyes ? I could see so close . I felt I could have touched the leaves with my fingers .

I turned back to the beautiful human , and I groaned disappointed again . He was leaving , him and his friend . Or brother . I didn't know which .

They were laughing as they walked . I could hear their laughter , I especially focused on the beautiful humans voice . His laughter sounded like the bubbling stream in the forest . So peaceful and relaxing .

I watched them as they walked out of the exit . And once I could have sworn the beautiful human looked my way but it could have been my imagination .

I sat on the bench with my hands on my sides . I looked up at the blue sky , or grey sky .

Where had the grey clouds come from ? Now the weather was as gloomy as before . I didn't get up to leave but sat thinking about the human .

And how long I would be alone .