Once the game ended I stood beside Madison and Karissa as the guys finished up in the locker room. They were talking to each other while I was zoned out in my own world. I came back when I felt a hand glide across my lower back; I turned to Kristian and Luke. I realized his hand was still on my hip but he removed it when he realized.
Luke threw his arm around Karissa's shoulder and we started walking to his car. Kristian whispered as he walked past me to catch up to them. "Sorry about that." Madison looked at me with a smirk "I saw that." I reassured her "It was an accident." She nodded with a smirk still on her face "You don't accidentally touch someone like that."
We started following the others, I avoided what she said. She kept egging it on till we got to the car. She turned to me with a grin "You want the middle?" I knew what she was trying to do, she and Karissa were up to something. I saw right through it. I slid into the middle beside Kristian.
I kept my hands together in between my knees with my focus forward. Kristian nudged me with his shoulder then leaned in "Why are you so quiet?" The music had been blaring so no one could hear us. I looked down in his direction "I'm not much of a talker."
Madison turned her waist in our direction "First couple picture!" She blinded us with her flash, I pushed her phone down "Could you not?" She stuck her tongue and winked before turning back. My nerves got the best of me and I started shaking with anxiety. Kristian realized my shaking and leaned in "Are you okay?"
I nodded and stuttered my words "I...I am...I'm... cold." I struggled with anxiety most of my life, I developed it when I was little. Watching my parents get arrested in front of me created this for me. Any sudden movements scared me; I learned to control the flashbacks and crying.
Kristian rolled up his window and pulled me into his side; Madison glanced up and smiled but she looked back at her phone. My anxiety quickly disappeared as my mind focused on him. Was this odd that he held me though he barely knows me?
We pulled up to a beach house; my eyes were caught by the many people and fire pit on the beach. Kristian stood beside me as everyone went inside "Beautiful right?" I looked at him as he looked at me "Ready?"
I started walking toward the crowd of people; I gulped as I got closer. I believe Kristian noticed because he held my hand as we approached. I also struggle with big crowds and conversations sometimes. A few people I can talk to but this was a whole community of people.
I took a deep breath as people approached hugging me and introducing themselves. I recognized a few people from my foster mom's church and school. The entire time I had Kristian's hand on my shoulder, I hadn't even noticed because of my attention on everyone else.
Once the attention wore off, I quietly snuck away to the ocean. I stood at the edge and stared out into the dark. The wind blew through my hair helping me to relax from the anxiety attack I was about to have. I could sit and sketch this view taking in the sea salt, and feeling the sand under my feet.
I kneeled down and took off my socks and shoes; I started walking into the cold water until it was about ankle high. I inhaled deeply enjoying the peace I felt; I opened my eyes and tears fell.
Seeing how all of these people have families who love and support them meanwhile my parents chose the criminal life over their child. Resulting in them serving 10 years and missing out on me growing up. I was 6 when I was taken.
I turned when I heard splashes behind me, I quickly wiped my face from the tears. Kristian nudged me with his shoulder "What are you doing loner?" Once he heard the sadness in my voice his posture changed "I didn't mean to make you cry."
I tried to hold back but I felt my chest screaming to release the built-up emotion. Tears started pouring down my face without my consent. He quickly pulled me in for a hug "I'm sorry Violet." I pressed my face into his chest "You didn't do it."
I pulled away and sniffled with a fake smile on my face "I'm alright." Karissa walked up "Geez Kristian what did you do?" She hugged me "It's alright V." I looked at him as he rolled his eyes. I pulled away "He didn't do anything. I was out here thinking."
Kristian became defensive "We were talking and you interrupted." Karissa turned to him "Well excuse me for thinking you hurt her feelings. You're a jerk to girls." He rolled his eyes "Not a jerk just not interested in your friends who breathe down my neck."
She placed her hands on her hips and smirked at him "And Violet? Is she different? You seem to be okay with her." I started feeling uncomfortable as they bickered back and forth, Kristian snapped "Karissa!" She put her hands up in defeat and slowly walked away "Okay. I get it."
I crossed my arms as chills crept up on my body, he rubbed his temples "I'm sorry. I'm sure this is just as uncomfortable for you." I mumbled, "It's alright." He noticed my shivering "Let's go inside?" I started walking back to the shore beside him, he turned his head to me "Do you want to talk about why you were crying?"
I knew I shouldn't but something budged in me to. I stopped once we were back on the sand "There isn't much to tell." He faced me "I may not understand but I'll try to. And like I said before. Everything you tell me stays between us."
I crossed my arms to warm up "I want to but trust is something I don't give easily." He placed his hand on my shoulder "I understand. I hope one day you'll trust me enough to tell me." I shoved the gut feeling back down, I just wanted to pour my heart out to him. I would never forgive myself if someone else found out about the worst part of my life.
I picked up my shoes and socks following Kristian to the fire that had few people now. I stood beside him to get warm, I looked up at him as he stared off at the other people listening to their conversation.
The flames reflected off of his eyes making them a beautiful auburn full of life with long lashes every girl dreamed of having. His black hair was wavy like he'd run his fingers through his hair multiple times. I don't blame girls for wanting him. He was gorgeous. His heart was good too.
He turned to me with a grin "Are you warm?" I nodded as I looked at the flame in front of me; my stomach was in knots. I couldn't get close, it'd break my heart if I moved and never saw him or my friends again.