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"You don't own me, I control my own feelings forever, and that's how it always gonna be, so love....Just get the fuck off my hair and finally let me be.....
I think am gonna murder him now, but at the same time I just don't wanna and sadly, I really don't know why?...
Am I actually going nuts or what the hell is happening to me now.....
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I marched out of my room in full speed, swiftly down the stairs, as I kept on tightly squeezing the life out of my jumpers, well not that it actually had one or whatever....
All I could feel was my head constantly racking of what to actually say to aunt this time around, I rubbed my forehead for a brief second, as I kept on skipping most of the stairs....
C'mon Ivy, just act cool and make up something to leave without shivering like a little pathetic leaf, I could hear my inner self yelling out to me, as I slowly breath out a huge sigh of determination over and over again...
Before finally arriving down the stairs, with my eyes already quickly searching round carefully to spot where my aunt could possibly be this time around...
I drifted my dull eyes carefully round the sitting room, before it finally landed on her faint figure at the rear corner of the kitchen, through it medium size windows, as her eyes immediately caught up with mine, slowly making me press my lips together slightly..
....
"You're here" Her warm voice said, as I slowly arched one of my eyebrows, trying to fully understand what she actually meant by that, before staring back at her already silly face, as I could see that she was playfully trying to correct what she had just blurted out...
"I mean I didn't notice you there" She said, with a wide cheerful smile on her face, before slowly stepping out of the kitchen to approach me, making my mind wonder the more....
Why on earth was she happy, well it's not like she wasn't always like this, but today it seems so odd...
I thought for a brief second, as i quickly stepped back a little cautiously, already getting so frustrated again, before fixing my gaze back at her with a confuse "I am tired of everything" frown written all over my face....
"Look, I am going to the gym now, and might not be back soon, so please don't wait up for me" I blurted out, staring straight into her blank eyes, hoping she would buy the lie, as I immediately turned around to leave quickly.....
"I know what's happening to you" Her faint voice echoed through the quiet walls out, as I could feel my legs slowly stopped moving, before turning back to look at her face written boldly with worry, as I kept on processing what I had just heard ...
"What?" I asked, as I kept on staring at her confusedly, watching her let out a soft sigh, before slowly coming closer to me, making me cautiously moved a little bit backwards, still staring straight into her worried eyes confusedly.....
"Why do you have grudges with everybody specifically your grandparents" She blurted out, staring deep into my eyes, as I stared back at hers uncomfortably, already feeling my bitter blood boil once again...
Cause never, I just can't be able to ever forget that those bastards were actually the cause of all my misery, I would never forget that fact....
"What are you thinking" She said softly, bringing me out of my bitter thoughts, still staring straight into my eyes, as I could already feel my fist clenching angrily with so much disgust and hatred...
"You know where they are right?" I asked with my already grit teeth, as I kept on staring straight into her eyes bitterly, as she sadly became mute, making me painfully realize my answer, as my teary eyes kept on glued with her already anxious ones....
"If you actually know where they are, then why would you not tell me" I yelled out bitterly, as my angry tears slowly streamed down my cheeks, but still she kept quiet, crushing me the more....
"I should have knew that you were actually my enemy as well" My cold bitter voice spat out, as I kept on staring straight into her eyes bitterly
"They don't know that their daughter ever did had a child" Her voice shook at the end, as she kept on fixing her gaze at me, with her eyes that kept on trying to make me calm down, but not anymore would I listen and stay calm...
Not anymore, I thought bitterly, as I stared straight into her eyes once again, with my already teary vision and clenched fist....
"So you're trying to protect me from those monsters, right?" I scoffed angrily, as I kept on wiping my painful tears away, as she immediately looked away, fiddling with her fingers worriedly...
"Am trying to protect them from you, cause if I tell you where they are, it would be a massacre and God, I just can't handle to see that" Her voice echoed out, as I pressed my lips together painfully.....
"Just know that you are doing no one any favors by this" I spat out, as I could feel my shaking legs slowly moving backwards, as I kept on staring at her confused face bitterly....
"Am trying to save you all" She yelled out, but still I didn't stop for one bit, cause there was really nothing more to listen to anymore....
"Ivy please, just listen" Her voice called out, as I kept on moving away from her, with my bitter heart....
"Just listen "....
"Stay away from me" My shaking voice yelled out, as I finally got to the door, before slowly stopping, as I kept on hearing little quiet whimpers from her direction...
I wish I could just turn back, and stop everything, I really wish I wasn't the cause of her sad tears, but I guess sometimes we have to hurt others to get what we want....
I might be called a psychiatric maniac, a fool, cruel, any horrible thing speakable, even though all I actually wanted was justice, but I guess this was how everything was meant to turn out to be....
Now I would have to be strong, I would have to be selfish and heartless...
Am sorry aunt, but I just have to complete what I had already started all my life, I just have to, I mumbled bitterly under my breath, as I finally opened the door wide open, stepping out and ignoring all her tears and pleas, before vanishing into thin air...
I guess i might just be the villain of my own story, Heartless but at the same time misunderstood, I thought silently to myself, before finally heading off to my lonely destination for vengeance....
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"Sorry am late" My weak dead voice mumbled under my breath, as I tried so hard not to have eye contact with him.....
"Whoa chillax Ivy, this is not some kind of job, that you have to keep to time and tell me sorry over and over again, you know?" His voice echoed through my ears, as I kept on staring at the bright blue waterfall lifelessly....
"Whatever" I whispered silently, as I kept on looking away, drowning in my own miserable thoughts....
"What's wrong" I heard his pathetic worried voice ringing right on my ears, as I finally shifted my angry dead gaze at him, as my eyes kept on wandering around his facial structures angrily....
"Why should I tell you, huh?" I yelled out with so much frustration in my bitter heart, before finally fixing my gaze on his light eyes, as I could see the pathetic look on his face, spread a whole lot wider....
"You really have to tell me, or else you might just remain this lifeless way" He blurted out, still fixing his gaze right on mine, as I let out a big scoff....
"How I act and what I do, is my own business, not yours, Get it" I spat out bitterly, before looking away, trying so hard to hide all my pain and bitterness, but I guess he wasn't giving up so easily either, That fool....
I quickly shifted my gaze away from him, back to the little waterfall angrily, but I guess that fool didn't stop there, and all I felt was a tight gentle squeeze on my hand...
As I quickly drifted my gaze at our already intertwined fingers, before shifting my gaze staring back at his blue eyes, as he kept on staring straight into mine, with a little "Go ahead" grin on his face, making me reluctantly let out a little sigh, before staring back at him uncertainly.....
"I had a fight with my aunt" I blurted out, staring straight into his eyes, still not sure whether to continue or just keep my mouth shut there....
But sadly, my head remained blank and confused and I just couldn't think of what to do next, so I reluctantly kept on talking uncertainly.....
"She knows where my grandparents lives, but she won't tell me, cause she doesn't want any bloodshed and...."
I whispered silently, as the remaining words got stuck on my throat, before slowly catching his eyes once again, still expecting him to say something, anything!...
But all he did was to keep on staring straight into my eyes, as I immediately started regretting ever opening my damn mouth, to say anything to this fool....
"If you know that you weren't going to.....
"Come with me" His deep voice blurted out, as I could see the serious look on his face, totally cutting me off from venting out all my anger on him, making me raise one of my eyebrows confusedly....
"Where on earth are we going" I questioned confusedly, as I immediately yanked out my hand from his, before placing my gaze back on his eyes confusedly....
"To my house" He blurted out, as he kept on staring at me with a expression that I just couldn't tell, as I slowly arched one of my eyebrows, with my already folded arms with a mixture of confusion and at the same time irritation....
"But I thought you actually don't want me there, cause of your shitty brother, not that I can't handle him by myself or anything"...
I blurted out, as I kept on staring straight into his eyes, with my arched eyebrow, as I could see a little grin slowly creeping up on his face, making me a whole lot irritated and confused
"I guess you actually don't know that you look cute when you're confused" He mumbled, with his eyes still on mine, as I kept on watching the grin playfully spread round the corner of his lips, already so irritated again.....
"Whatever" I mumbled blankly, as I immediately looked away angrily, but I knew too well that he didn't stop grinning for once, That moron....
"You haven't still told me why we are actually going there" I blurted out, before drifting my gaze back to him, as I kept on watching the grin slowly fading away in thin air ....
"You'll know when we get there" His deep voice mumbled quietly, before hopping into his car, as I couldn't help but to keep on staring at him confusedly....
What the hell does he actually met by that, I thought for a brief second, as I fiddled seriously with my fingers....
"Ain't you coming along" He said, quickly bringing me out of my thoughts, as I slowly drifted my gaze on him, before uncertainly hopping into his car, with my head still so foggy....
Well I guess I wouldn't know until I get there, I repeated silently to myself, before finally tucking in the seatbelt to brace myself from the uncertain ride...