Brown once heard someone say that the first one to fall in love is always the one to call the shots in the relationship.
Is that why Harry always gets what he wants? No matter how weird and unreasonable his request might be.... Just because he fell first and Brown fell even harder?.
How can nature be that cruel to Brown.
Why does he always have to compromise for their relationship? Why can't he just want something and being given it without so many questions, judgements and second guessings?.
Why did he have to be the young one in their relationship?.
"So?" Asked Harry angrily
"Do we have to go there right now?" Asked Brown with a sigh. He knew what was to come and he definitely knew what to do to avoid it but, does he have to though?.
"Yes, Brown yes! I'm sick and tired of this pending overdue conversation with you" Yelled Harry poking Brown's chest and make him take several steps back.
"Well, it wouldn't have been overdue if you outright told me you are not interested!" Shouted Brown swatting Harry's hand away angrily.
"It's not...boy, whatever" Said Harry pinching his nose bridge, "You'll never understand anyway"
"What can't I understand? The fact that I'm only a grown up when I do something you like and an immature fool to everything else? Huh?" Growled Brown scaring the shit out of a grabbed Harry.
"You're hurting me!" Complained Harry before he was swung across the room in anger only to fall on their bed mercilessly.
"That's you in pain? Welcome to my world, then!" Said Brown not letting this chance go to waste. It's not everyday he gets the guts to say what's weighing his heart.
"What does that have to mean?"
"It means that I'm always hurt by you! Emotionally, psychologically... What did I ever do to you?"
"All of this just because I refused to have sex with you?" Asked Harry who was shocked and not really understanding the context.
"You know what?" Said Brown calmly, resigned,
"What?"
"I won't be coming back tonight" Said Brown taking his jacket and mask
"Huh? what...Wait!" Panicked Harry when he saw Brown walk out of their bedroom.
"What Harry?" Asked Brown with a tired sigh
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know the answer to that but, I'm sure that I don't want to be here with you for another second"
"Don't go"
"I can't stay"
"I accept!"
"Accept what?"
"Let's... Let's have sex. You choose the position" Said Harry with a small voice. He was nervous, scared, desperate...
"You think that's gonna solve anything?"
"I can't stand myself when I'm alone" Explained Harry holding Brown back who was enraged with that fact,
"And I can't stand you!" Bursted Brown before realizing what he just did.
"Oh"
"Harry..."
"Be safe out there"
"Harry!"
"I'm sorry I exist"
"Can you fucking not play the victim card for once in your life?"
"Wow, I'm playing the victim here?"
"This is why I wanted to go before I say something I regret"
"There's really no use crying over spilled milk, is there? Just go"
"Then remember to..."
"I can take good care of myself"
"Harry please_" Trailed off Brown before the door was slammed in his face, "Okay"
The thing about couple fights is how they tend to be heat of the moment caused because, the second Harry's mood changed Brown knew what a stupid fight they were having and now being left outside by a closed off Harry clearly shows just how much his world revolves around Harry.
He had all the time and money in the world but, he would rather spend them arguing with Harry than do anything or go anywhere without him.
It was sad and it was true.