Harry didn't know if he wanted to thank their neighbors or just feel embarrassed for what he found at the door, "You look uncomfortable over there"
"Yeah... All big talk inside and still ended up here. Don't I look pathetic?" Replied Brown with a deprecating chuckle before tilting his head to look at Harry who was holding the door handle.
"Let's not do this here, Brown" Pleaded Harry kneeling beside Brown, "Let's talk it out back inside, okay?"
"You are not mad at me?" Asked Brown accepting the invitation to go back in.
"Are you mad at me?" Harry echoed the question back to Brown who smiled at Harry in return.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you" Apologized Brown with his eyes cast down in guilt, "But, I'm not sorry we had that fight though"
"Yeah, me too"
"So, what now?"
"I don't know... I'm clueless and indecisive to begin with" Replied Harry with a shrug. He really didn't know what to decide anymore.
"Don't say that, Harry" Said Brown with assurance, "You're perfect!"
"Just not for you, right?"
"Am I really immature to want sex with you?" Asked Brown after they got in their sitting room.
"No, of course not!" Refused Harry strongly with a shake of his head, "It's a physical and emotional desire... It's natural but, I'm just being weird about it"
"Why?" Asked Brown curiously.
"Because I hate to get hurt and what's more, I hate hurting you, Brown"
"I know but..." Said Brown thoughtfully before continuing innocently, "Is it painful? How come they seem to enjoy"
"They? Who are they?" Asked Harry taken aback but, amused none the less.
"I'm hungry" Said Brown walking inside their kitchen, "What are you having today?"
"Are you watching porn?" Asked Harry, holding back Brown with a laugh.
"I...uh...What if I am? It's not like I killed somebody" Replied Brown all flustered.
"You are! Since when? And how come I never knew?" Questioned Harry getting all excited.
"Are we serious discussing me watching porn right now?"
"Yes, we are!"
"Just drop it, please"
"I'm actually intrigued. So...?"
"It's been more than a year...I don't remember the details clearly"
"Since the time you started to sleep with my arms around you? Wasn't it torture?" Asked Harry with concern. He never imagined that the reason for the stolen kisses each night here and there were because of porn.
One point to porn then.
"It is that's why I wanted to know the reason why we are celibate up until now" Said Brown lightly after sensing Harry's guilt.
"Brown, I'm sorry" Said Harry apologetically.
"Me too... You seem torn" Said Brown hugging his sunshine, "I can bear a lot but, not you being in pain. It hurts me"
"I know"
"Tell me only when you feel like it, okay?"
"But, I don't want you to know"
"Then, I don't want to know either" Said Brown kissing Harry's neck and chin making him melt, "Keep them as many as you want as long as it's safe for you"
"I love you Brown and I'm sorry I can't give you what you want"
"It wasn't the sex that brought me to you, made me love you to the point of being your slave" Whispered Brown sensually
"Then what made you stay?"
"Because, you are my home"
"I'm your home?"
"Since you don't like wishes then, let me just say thank you for the past and right this second for being in my life" Said Brown seriously after meeting Harry's gaze.
"Even with all of my flaws?" Asked Harry, vulnerable.
"I'm not perfect either and_"
"But, you are!"
"You're just biased"
"Yes, I am but, I can prove it to you just how amazing my boyfriend is"
"How?"
"That's a secret"
"Oh, Come on!" Shouted Harry after Brown who was busy preparing the ingredients with a smiling hum.