Now, laying in my bed, chilling and rethinking about my life.
I'm still confuse whether I should consider my 20 year old life, my past or the future?
It makes me missed my adorable pets, will I see them again? , the updates of my fav manhwa and my ongoing kdrama watch list.
Not to mention my studies, friends and also other things I don't want to think about cause it saddens me.
I missed it. I may see them now but they're also different people.
The most important question is what happens to this body's soul. It's me but at the same time, strangely not. We're the same soul but in different timeline.
Time travelling is complicated and complex. Like the one in Avengers, Great movie though.
This is such a headache, as I faced a new future, I am bound to sacrifice for the greater good. But is that greater good what I truly want? Is it greed that pushed me this far? Or selfishness as I yearn from things I didnt originally have?
Whatever my reason will not change my ambition. My goal, simple to become rich why? Why not.
I live in this world where money matters, although I didnt suffer from poverty and worry about being hungry.
I live in contentment and in comfort from my parents love. It's not bad but isn't it even better to aspire a more satisfying life.
I already have good cards lying in front of me, why hesitate?
On this process, maybe, just maybe I will come to fill the void in the depths of my heart. An unexplainable emptiness, I sometimes dwell.
Dum Spiro Spero
I got of my bed and went outside. I reached out my hand in the sky as much as I can, "Isn't it good to be alive?" I softly said and run like crazy.
Laughing in my own antics, just me in my own world.
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Kayleen was a frivolous soul at the same time reserved.
At this moment, she has finally come to terms about her own resolve.
Her drive was supposedly one that had inspire her from reading too much manhwas and novels.
As she faced her new reality, it is now been changed.