It's been two weeks since the incident happened.
The cops who came to gather intel explained that the same woman who attacked me went for her first to get rid of evidence.
I was so devastated to hear the news especially when they mentioned that the criminal did it, only because Sooha was at the wrong place at the wrong time and she couldn't let her live after she saw her face.
I knew K being an idol could probably have some stalkers who were delusional enough to do unlawful acts just to be near or feel him, like buying flight information or collect used things inside the hotels they stay for their world tours, but the thought of a company staff going through lengths to get rid of me is next level crazy.
To think that the criminal was there when I accepted the money but since I was so devastated at the time, I couldn't remember her face. If I did, I might've had a slight chance to have prevented all this.
I still have a lot of questions, however, since she's temporarily in prison already, I may not be able to get the answers I seek until the first hearing at the very least.
Coping had been harder for me because after what happened, the cops assigned at least one officer to look after me on rotation so no one was ever allowed to visit or talk to me apart from the doctor and nurses.
A single day felt like years. I was about to lose my mind and if I stayed longer I definitely would've ended in a psychiatric ward.
Even though there are remaining stings at my back sometimes when I move drastically, overall my burns are on their path to healing.
The last day I was able to leave the hospital around ten in the morning, received a pair of long sleeved cotton white blouse and stretchable jeans, down to socks and black doll shoes, a bag with money inside a sealed envelope, letters from K but I'm in no condition to read any of them.
I planned to check them out later at home because after a private conversation with my doctor, I found out Sooha's grave's location.
I stayed in the cemetery, in front of her grey, marble tomb, then asked for her forgiveness about keeping big secrets and because it was my fault that she got killed.
It went on and on like a loop of no return until the guard asked me to leave because they have to close the gates before sundown to prevent robbers from taking the dead's belongings.
I suddenly didn't want to go home at all. I just walked downhill and let my feet lead me to wherever I can reach. It was dark and colder than usual but I didn't mind.
The pain on both my feet and legs for walking such lengths cleared my thoughts a bit at least.
The sound of the waves slamming against the docks compelled me to stop and appreciate the glittering scenery at the foot of the hill.
I have no idea how long I stared in the empty docks but at some point, I kind of got back on track and decided to go back home.
As I was walking towards the first stoplight I came across, a black wide van abruptly stopped at the corner lot at green light. I gasped in surprise after seeing Fuma come out of it and immediately guided me inside before the light turned to red.
He was the only one sitting at the back. Not that I'm disappointed to not see K right now but it made my heart sink a bit. I miss him so much and it's frustrating to not be able to voice it out loud.
"What are you doing? We've been looking for you everywhere!"
He scolded me as soon as I sat on his right side. I wanted to explain but he went on and on which he normally doesn't do, then hugged me loosely after he expressed his frustration by ranting about me leaving alone on my own after getting assaulted weeks ago.
"She's in jail already."
"Yes but she might have an accomplice. Who knows?
"Nobody knows I'm here."
"That's what you thought. I found you didn't I?"
I took a deep breath and sighed.
"I honestly don't care anymore…"
"Hey, don't say that."
"It's true."
I smiled bitterly while holding my tears from falling.
"I would've been long gone if Sooha never knocked at my door and helped me get back on my feet at my lowest. She taught me how to appreciate life after losing people I dear the most and just when she's about to reach her dreams after all those years… she's… she's been killed because of me. How ironic is that?"
I burst into tears. He pulled me close and gently caressed the back of my hair. No matter how much I tried to wipe my tears they just don't stop and in the end, I made a mess on his right shoulder.
"(Y/N), I'm really sorry about everything that has happened. I wish I was there to support you back then but I just got you back, am I not enough of a reason for you to keep living?"
Fuma's teary eyes moved me but I feel like I'd be more of a burden to everyone if we continue what was left in the past.
"How about K hyung? Aren't you two in good terms now? If the original plan is on the works, will you still marry him?"
My eyes widened at him exposing our secrets to the driver and bodyguard sitting in front.
"They already know and we're taking you there."
He just smiled while I'm having a panic attack.