To follow your heart, you don't necessarily need a dramatic changes in your life or in your relationship. What you do need to do is to see yourself honestly as you really are, and have the zeal to gather your energy and focus your strength into areas of greatest potential, when you do this, you will soon realize that you have made one of the best decision in your life.
_salamatullah
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Azaan
That can't be true, it just can't be. Taheera can't be happy without me" I half-punch the starry
What's wrong babe? Is anything the matter?" farida curiously asked and I faked a smile saying it's nothing even though the thought of Taheera and that cunning ape kept crossing my mind
So when are we meeting the interior decorator?"
Will you please rest for a bit…there's still one more week to go and for your information there won't be any new decorations either, my house is ok and I don't need anything" I wonder what's wrong with farida, bragging and show off has always been her close friends and now some stupid interior decorations
"and who told you marrying such fancy girls is an easy task to begin with?" my subconscious mind said. I hissed at what I mentally said and that's what pissed farida I thought and made her shouted at me for the first time and it felt like hell.
I spotted a place down the street and parked my car. "And who in this earth gave you the right to yelled at me Farida? I am your damn husband to be got it?" I said in a gritting teeth. She opened her mouth to utter a word but couldn't find the courage to and suddenly tears started rolling down her face.
Okay Azaan first of all I think you are insane and secondly you should apologize since you are doomed" I psychologically whispered "I am sorry babe I don't know what's gotten into me, I …I am tired I guess that's why, nonetheless I am sorry" I said bringing our palms together but she slowly yet enragedly pulled out her hand from mine "I know you still have feelings for her, I know since from the time you noticed that she and nurain like each other" the moment she called his name I lost control "she's not in love with that stupid ape!…she's not! She would never be in love with anyone ever again!" "Azaan why? Why are you like this to me" she brought her head up towards me sobbing like she just lost any of her parents and all of a sudden she break down, she cried her eyes out and I know she was broken and hurt but what do I do?
I tardily engulfed my hand behind her and grip her so tightly even though I need it too "I am sorr…" before I end my words she jerked and tossed angrily
Don't touch me" she yelled at top of her lungs "just don't touch me please" she opened the car door and left. I followed her trying to stop her but she didn't missed a single chance to enraged me, although I tried to endure the humiliation but I couldn't, I just can't. She halted a cab and left and I went back to my car.
Faridah
How could he do this to me, why would he mentioned her albeit knowing I will feel hurt. Yes I know I hurt my sister so much, I know the pain I caused her was more griever than mine but I apologized.
"You never did you fool" I mentally blurted. I sniffed and cleaned out my tears. I brought out my wallet and gave the taxi driver his money then enter home.
As soon as I closed my room I busted out crying again while Azaan's voice echoed in my mind and I immediately fall at the edge of the couch beside my bed, I became weaker as my tears grow stronger, consuming me. I became nothing more than the vessel for the tears that won't stop shedding.
~an hour later~
I stood up although I was completely shattered and went straight to the bathroom, after I washed my face I returned back to where I sat and brought out my phone. Just I was about to dialed Azaan's number I heard someone's foot steps approaching my room and I quickly dropped the phone and jumped into my bed.
It was taheera, she closed the door behind and matched over to plug her phone. She went to the bathroom and freshen up then went out to the parlor I guess since it's already 5:00 and soon her favorite show will start.
I didn't even know when I dozed off I just woke up by that stupid alarm. Oh Lord I wonder why taheera despised seeing me sleep. I furiously unplugged her phone from charge to stop the alarm but instantly froze due to what I saw all of a sudden tears betrayed my eyes and started stumbling. it was Azaan, he called her several times and texted her twice.
Can you imagine? So she's been hiding this all this while, she got to be kidding me. "I can't let you ruin my life for me Wallahi, Azaan is mine and will forever be" I whispered yet blurted. I hurriedly spin towards the door and quickly descended downstairs to the parlor.
"Taheera?! Taheera?!" I screamed out her name and grabbed her by the collar
"Have you lost it? Wait…how could you" she couldn't even utter a word, she was looking confused and startled as if she's innocent. You see I know I was once a hypocrite but that was in the past, even though I didn't apologize but I lamented what I did but why the cheat all of a sudden
"let go of me Farida" she warned and it felt like that was all I needed in order to tossed her on her butt and I did, I pushed her forcedly that she even whine in pain.
Are you in your right senses Farida…she's your big sister" ammi hurriedly came furiously pointing her index finger at me "ammi taheera cheated on me with Azaan, she's seeing him" I angrily started burning
"what did you just said? I snatched Azaan? I am seeing him again? I cheated on you? Wow Farida, bravo. But you know what? I would never stood this low, I would never go back to that hell not even in your dreams where pigs can fly" she scoffed and daised and wiped away her good for nothing tears
She thought her tears will betrays everyone, she debated that her innocence will save her, well I will prove you wrong today
"ammi I swear on my life they're seeing each other". "and what prove do you have" ammi asked rushing with impetuosity "let me bring her phone you will see" I hastily ascended back to the room and collected her phone that was there on the bed and brought it back to the parlor
See!" I showed ammi the missed calls "and this too…put in your code" I practically threw the phone at her and hopefully she opened it. She gave me back the phone with that her eyes that changed into blood shed red
"ammi kingani (ammi you see) Walla…" I couldn't proceed with my words, I was shocked and embarrassed. The first message was from Ray and the second one from Azaan but the shocking thing is that what he texted was completely opposite to the word cheating
Azaan: Hey T, are you back home?....I have been calling you but you weren't picking
I have been trying to reach Farida but the network is bad please call me when you see my text, thank you.
"Where is the message?" ammi asked "ah ahmm…" before I say a word I felt the most storming yet striking slap on my face, just I was about to say another word, another heavier slap got planted on my face one more time
I thought you are better than this but No you are exactly like the old you and I will never forgive you for what you just did to me, not in this life not in the other" she hissed and went straight upstairs
"If I were her I would have slapped you some more! How dare you accused her of something she will never do. I know there is something going on between you two including Azaan but one day you yourself will say the truth" ammi didn't even spare me a look and rambled to the kitchen
"And you better go and apologize before it's too late am telling you wawuyar yarinya kawai (foolish girl) idan Banda. Hauka har kyazo ki Kama addar ki da fada akan saurayi (if not for madness why would you fight your sister over a foolish guy called boyfriend)". Ammi spieled out from the kitchen enragedly
Innalillahi you are a fool farida, you are a fool" I innerly whispered. "I warned you didn't I?" my subconscious mind remained.